Thank you so much! I am very happy with it and I’m very motivated to carry on 
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Wow! Amazing Donna, congratulations on hitting two years. Truly inspiring!
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Ahhhhh I so relate to this. On the rare moments that I would have my house completely child free overnight my mind would “toy” with the idea of being sneaky because no one would have to know but in reality, it would only take me back to where I was trying and working so hard to getting away from. Too much to lose and nothing to gain!!!
I almost guarantee that you will feel empowered and proud of yourself getting through this time alone staying sober. Such a satisfying feeling to put that little voice back in its place 
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Hiya, Dazercat, thank you and your spot on, the list is countless! It’s just a little phase which am sure will pass off soon 
how are you keeping? All good I hope
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Those are some really important thoughts you had there. And you are right in everything you say. How good of you to realize these things. With your post you immediately inspired me to improve my morning routine. Now that I’m not working, I notice that I’m less active and do less, especially in the morning. I think if I get off to a good start in the morning, it will give me energy for the rest of the day. I’m going to start now. Thnx Dana en goodluck you can do it don’t let that sneaky addiction lie to you
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@Its_me_Stella Couldn’t agree more with this, I went 26 months without touching a drop a few years ago, then thought it was ok and I could control the demon that lurked in the background, waiting like a true predator. So I got a drink, one became 2, 2 became more and more and more. Before I knew it this had become my life again and it took 3 years to get control of myself again enough to be able to stop again, only this time for good. I realised that alcohol has no place in my life. It simply can’t have a place because it destroys me. It’s toxic to me and toxic things are not welcome.
26th November I stopped, this was the day my daughter was born and also the day she was taken from us. Something happened that day that changed me forever, it’s my go to thought when I struggle. I will share the reasons why when I am more comfortable here. (Not that I’m uncomfortable but it’s just early days here for me).
On to lighter topics, it’s another beautiful day here, another day to be thankful for. Another day to make memories. The start of a 4 day holiday weekend……except for the small thing getting in the way that is work, however, I still have time to make memories with my children before I go.
Off to the local park to play, walk the dogs and grab some treats at the park cafe (hot chocolate or fruit smoothie and muffins are calling). Followed by Snuggles on the sofa watching a film and playing games.
Stay sober everyone!
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@SoberWalker Its SO nice to see you back literally on your feet and out doing your normal stuff! You really suffered there for awhile. Glad it made the big turn around for you.
‘Community garden’ may be the word you’re looking for. Usually the cost is not much and in some instances is even free.
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I’m glad I saw this today! Congrats!
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Aha, thank you for learning me the right word! In the Netherlands such a community garden is never for free. There are even long waiting lists to get your hand on one!
And yes, I am also so happy to feel me again instead of an old lady Health is so important!!
Just got back from the first grocery shopping in almost 3 weeks! Never thought I would be so proud and happy for it! 
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Day 254 checking in 
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62 days sober…going to bed sober. It’s been an easy week apart from the sugar cravings, they’re new. 
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Hey all, checking in on day 718. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Thanks to everyone who has helped me along the way here; you guys are literally the only reason why I’ve made it this far! For all the newcomers, I know you’ve heard it before but honestly if I can do it you can too. I have it in my mind that I just don’t do that anymore, it’s not an option! Life is so much better; not necessarily easier but better.
Love my friends here that I’ve made since the start. 
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Good on you Donna. Time flies, doesn’t it? 
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Day 2, yesterday when I was down doing my intake I also had a appointment with the mental health doctor, and they put me on vivitrol or naltrexone which I’m not sure why I’ve never done opiates or like them, and they told me if the stuff I used Monday and Tuesday had any opiates in it could possibly put me into withdrawals. But I took the medicine yesterday and sure enough idk what the heck happened but I got sick as fuck and was puking, skin felt like it was crawling off and started sweating like crazy. So I’m guessing that’s a good sign the meth I did wqs probably loaded with fentanyl which made me realize how lucky I was to even wake up… I also talked to the doctor about plz giving me something for my adhd and he refused to give me anything bc of my cocaine and meth addiction. He said it would be smarter to do a cbt therapy… will see, I’m sure will figure this out more once I go to inpatient much love
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Day 660 - countdown to the devil’s number!
Met the guy from AA. Talking to him really reminded me how grim it was in the end, especially marriage wise. To be blunt, I hated my husband, and his keeping my money, his endless checking and watching me. And I hated how guilty I felt and how sorry I had to be all the damn time. I know he was sick and tired of me too. Then I think to what it has been like recently. Honestly, he has been pissing me off quite a bit. But about what? Some household stuff, and communication difficulties. Compared to what it was before, right now is heaven. I could go and meet the AA guy and buy a coffee without having to ask my husband for money. I could be late and my husband didn’t call me 15 times. Thank goodness for sobriety and thank goodness for whatever gets you sober.
@anon53116147 That is scary, so glad you are still with us and fighting.
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Twenty nine months!!! Just fantastic. What you described is a total change in lifestyle. You’re my hero.
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Checking in… I had 54 days but then chose to drink 9 white claws in 5 hours. I’m finally feeling better except for a little anxiety. Seem to always get to either 1 month or 6 weeks or maybe even 2 months but then I compulsively break my streak! I feel like NEVER drinking again is OVERWHELMING. I either have to be at peace with this or somehow NEVER drink again and be at peace with THAT! Thanks for reading this and have a lovely day.
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I so know what you’re saying; I used to say that too, “I can’t quit FOREVER”…then I’d drink, cuz I believed I couldn’t. But, I am 2 years as of yesterday. And for me, after a while, I didn’t even want to drink anymore. It just seemed so detrimental and wasted so many days, money, etc.
Once you get in a rhythm of your new, better life going forward, you’ll see that it’s not missed as much as you think it would be.
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