Yepp! Thats me! Here I am!
27 Likes
Morning all, checking in on Day 7. Something has clicked again and I am over the moderation thinking. Keep imagining myself as the frog who doesnāt know heās boiling and that is what taking the path I was on was doing. The actual wine I had didnāt result in bad things, but it started a journey of little compromises which was going to see me back where I was.
It is such a huge relief to realise this. I am so much happier now. I do think I need to do some kind of work to stay on track though.
I hope everyone has a lovely day. Family party for me, super excited to see everyone. This would have been a āgreat excuseā to drink before but now I am looking forward to all the food I will really taste and enjoy.
21 Likes
Day 62
Missed a day but still doing the thing. I had to take time for relaxing and figure out where I was getting my value from.
Rethinking a friendship. Rethinking where self esteem issues affect my ability to recognize others who are in healthier spots also wanting to be in my life friendship-wise.
Putting distance on the trauma- based friendship is also a big part of accepting that although there have been friends that have helped me through things in the past there are also certain times where the check has been paid up and now I have to decide whatās best for my future
16 Likes
Congratulations on your new job, I hope that everything goes well!
Other than that, good morning everyone, I hope that you are all well. As for me, things are okay, though I am stuck in something of a bureaucratic catch-22 in terms of getting my papers to move back to Switzerland. One department wants document A, which I need in order to get document B, but you canāt get document B without already having document A !! Bloody bureaucracy.
It will get worked out, Iām sure, but it certainly is annoying.
Other than that, things are alrightā¦ I am on day 18, and pretty pleased about that. It doesnāt stack up very much against some of the people with hundreds and even thousands of days here, but Iām still pretty chuffed.
In any event, I suppose that I should get to work.
Have a good and sober day everyoneā¦ Iām glad that we all have this forum.
12 Likes
Hooray! Congratulations and enjoy your special coffee. Beautiful weather here for sober Jubilee celebrations. Have a great day 
2 Likes
Good morning/afternoon/evening.
Hope everyone is doing well.
Another sober day checked off yesterday, Iām loving reading some of the inspiring posts on this thread each day and being able to receive and offer support.
Itās another day that I am thankful to be sober. Street party going on today for the Jubilee. Kids are already outside playing together and there is a spirit of togetherness and community that is generally lost.
I have plenty of things to be getting on with, but the biggest thing Iām looking forward to is making trifles and flapjacks with my daughter.
Have a good day everyone, stay strong and Iām here for you!
14 Likes
Woohoo itās Friday everyone!!!
I know the weekend can be tough and a temptation, so letās dig deep and together get through it!!!
Use our tools, reach out for support and no matter what, do not pick up that first drink (or drug)!
16 Likes
Checking in at day 276.
Just got back from blood tests. The doctor wants to rule out a few more things before sending me to the internist. Iām starting to feel a bit like a pathetic old woman which in itself makes no sense because Iām not that old at all. Only I am not 24 years old anymore, but in my head I sometimes think I still am. Sometimes I think I have stood still for 17 years as a result of use, so also my development. But of course you can get sick at any age. The doctor initially wanted to watch it for a few more weeks to see if the fever would drop. But then I thought wait a minute, Iāve been running with a fever since the beginning of May, thatās long enough, something has to be done now. My sponsor complimented me for standing up for myself and my health. I wouldnāt have done that before, not even a month ago. However, Iāve also had some strange thoughts that indicate that I donāt want to get better, some kind of self-destructive behavior/thought. Very strange. But Iām glad Iām aware of the thought and now I can take a closer look at it.
I also look forward to Pentecost. 1st day of Pentecost I go to my sister and brother-in-law and 2nd day to my son yay I really look forward to that. Heās already becoming a real young man at 15 and I think itās an age where he might be able to get some advice or support from me. I only see him once a month so I try to do as much as I can and also keep it fun.
Have a nice addiction free day everyone 
18 Likes
Have a nice weekend, enjoy 
3 Likes
Well done on being assertive with the Doctor. I really hope you get some answers soon. I know exactly what you mean about being a pathetic old woman as I often feel the same, but I think as women we have become conditioned to put up with so much (from our first periods really). You are absolutely not pathetic and have the right to investigate causes etc. Good luck!
5 Likes
Thank you very kind of you and also nice that you understand me
3 Likes
Oh no! reminds me of Passierschein A38 https://youtu.be/NQV6PA6BOVE 
Hope you get it sorted!
3 Likes
That"s really great! When are you going?
1 Like
Day 721 clean and sober today. I hope everyone has a kick ass day today, I love you guys and am soooo proud of you all!!! 
21 Likes
Hey all, checking in on day 719. I hope everybody has a good one!
18 Likes
Unfortunately still no date as they are waiting for the male bed to open. Just that Iāve been approved, she still said it should be within the week.
8 Likes
Good morning
Day 33.22 free from weed and alcohol
I had using dreams again last night. I hope this isnt going to be a nightly occurance. Maybe its because im so close to that 30 day milestone that was my downfall last time. Idk i feel differently about sobriety this time: positive, at peace, looking to make history and beat milestones with each passing day. I want to get engaged not only in sobriety but recovery. For me I think that road includes getting an AA sponsor and working the steps. Idk where to start with finding a sponsorā¦weāll see. Uncertain with uncharted territory but feeling proud in this journey.
Letās all go out and slay the day sober and at peace!
20 Likes
I had also felt this way and it was overwhelming I remember.
I am going to take this moment to point out the insanity of our disease. Who in their right mind after suffering for ,in my case, a life time would even consider drinking or drugging again once their got off that vicious merry-go-round? Only a person with a diseased mind wouldā¦ and that is our addict talking. Itās in our heads.
I donāt know if I will never drink again. I canāt promise that to anyone, but I am pretty sure I can get through today and thatās how I have gotten through the last 887 days. One day at a time, no forecasting for anything.
9 Likes
Hello @SoberWalker Claudia,
Where are you going to in Germany?
Iām glad, that your wound is healing!
2 Likes