Oh my friends and everyone here I am going to get honest. I have trelapsed, not on meth or opioids but on alcohol and benadryl…
My addict said 'It’s just one drink and it Lwrill be fine my boyfriend can supervise my drinking.
My addict said nobody will ever know if I use responsibly
My addict said you are more social and sexy on alcohol and drugs
That’s about it as to reasons why. Behaviors indicating a relapse (my sponsor knew even knew I had.
I started not going to meetings every day
I stopped doing stepwork.
I totally started making things ilike watching a sports game at a sports bar a priority instead of going to a meeting
I stopped asking my Higher Power every day to help keep me clean
I stopped checking in on this forum was
I didn’t call my sponsor before I picked up for dome reason likely thought she would stop my addict from picking up and my addict didn’t want that.
Although I had been trying for a month at least to keep my relapse secret? I Phoned my sponsor tonight at midnight and got honest. She said she kinda knew I had relapsed but she was waiting for me to get honest and call her.
All the time I did know that Honesty was critical and that’s what eventually get up the courage to admit the relapse and come back on here.
So, I Will be ok. I have come to you my fellow addicts and gotten honest. I have been honest with my sponsor.I Ihave not gotten honest yet with my psychiatrist and addictions doc and family doctor. I have not yet told my parents or brother, but I will.
So the plan is today to go to a meeting and surrender, pick up a white keytag and not lie all-out ny clean date… My sponsor will drive me.
Ii am disappointed in myself because I used, disappointed I I used. I knew better.
Ok folks tomorrow is Day 1. I know I will be loved and accepted here and at NA
Hi, I Kat and I’m an addict