Glad the surgery went well Jess and you are not in a lot of pain. I do understand the feelings you are dealing with. Take it easy!! 
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Hi all,
This is just a quick questionā¦
When you reply to a post and your reply goes on the bottom of the thread, is there a way to get back to where you were reading on the thread? I have to scroll back until I see the heart that Iāve liked.
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Hi Kat. Thanks for your honesty. Welcome back, thereās always room. Weāre here if you need us. 
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Day 63
Not bad, figured things out, keeping myself busy and going day by day. Finished a really nice 7 day self esteem meditation series and Iām on to the next
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Hi @kat261 . It takes a lot of courage and strength to admit when you have relapsed. You have realised that you are off course and now you are correcting it. The work you did before you relapsed isnāt gone.
You are picking yourself back up again and going again. That is definitely something to be proud of.
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Thank you so much, it is actually a huge relief. It was taking a lot of energy lying to myself, and constantly assessing what was OK, and what wasnāt.
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Thanks so much. It does feel like that sometimes. I do need to do some work to stop this being a regular thing. I think I am starting to accept this is a long-term thing. Good luck, always here if those lurking voices get too much.
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Congratulations to your fantastic 30 days! 
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i think you can just hit the back button. 
Iāll try it now.
Edit:
Nope.
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@SoberWalker thank you for telling.me I have courage and strength I felt ashamed for not checking in on here for a week
@TrustyBird thank you for welcoming me back and I am grateful to my God for the courage to admit my relapse
@Staringupfromthewell thank you also. I am not beating myself up this time, just accepting that relapse is/was a part of my journey although this time round will try to work a better program
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Hi Kat I am proud that you are now honest and you have start over again. I have been very familiar with your situation. Indeed, it is your addiction that makes you hide your relapse. Good for being aware of what went wrong prior to the relapse. I hope this helps to avoid any difficulties in the future
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And now I am craving Stilton and crackers 
Seriously though, great job!
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How nice that you can walk again and enjoy nature. Have fun! You can eat those artichokes, right?
I just had chocolate fingers for breakfast so I sense it is going to be a naughty foods day 
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ā¦1534. Crazy work week. Worked 10 hours, off for 6, then worked a 17 hour shift. With a possibility of doing that all over today.
I could BE pissed, I could BE the angriest person on the planet. Orā¦I could just BE present.
I chose to just BE.
Life is short, today is all we have. I find it, for meā¦Just to be presentā¦and find something to smile about. Those hours I worked, helped someone else heal.
Friends, BE sober today.
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Checking in on day 1!
After over 7 months of sobriety I fucked things up, no excusesā¦ I let the addict voice fool myself, and had 2 glasses of wineā¦ What did I learn?
ā¢ Alcohol sucks
ā¢ Drinking alcohol sucks
ā¢ Hangovers suck
ā¢ Letting your guard down is a big mistake
I donāt think Iāve lost my previous 215 days, but for accountability I needed to come clean.
Therefore back on track! 
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Oh @kat261ā¦Please donāt be so hard on yourself. You are a strong individual and wonderful caregiver. God loves you and wants you to stay sober. You can do this. It was one moment. One day at a time, That is what I am learning. I have relapsed and felt terrible. I know the feeling all too well. I am in your corner. May God continue to bless you and keep you safe. Hugs
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Great to see you coming straight back Jenny 
Some may disagree but I would class your 2 drinks as a lapse rather than a relapse.
You slipped up, immediately owned it and picked yourself back up the next day. That takes courage!!
Despite having to reset the counter, you definitely havenāt lost those 215 days. You worked hard for them and they will always be yours. Use them as motivation to get there again, odaat 
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Hey all, checking in on day 720. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Day 722 clean and sober today. Have an awesome day, love you guys!!! 
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