Day 83. I feel ok.
Have a nice weekend.
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Day 6.
Checking in. Feeling good but struggling with relationship problems. I have identified that this is definitely one of my triggers. I feel like it is going to be a long night.
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Hey everyone- 67 days here.
My day yesterday was productive but ultimately pretty exhausting. It was a lot of effort to spend so much time out and with people.
My visit with my sister was also really heavy. Sheās been incarcerated for 10 years, and I try my hardest to just be present to listen to her and remind her thereās hope but I really have no idea how to comfort her anymore.
I found myself watching tv and just trying to zone out in the evening and every show is just full of people drinking wine or spirits, whatās up with that?
I miss the summer, I miss swimming and feeling the sun. Seasonal depression gets me every time.
Anyway thanks for listening. Keep checking in, Iām super grateful you are all here 
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Glad you made it back here and I am sorry you went thru that but you are back in recovery nowā¦ where you belongā¦ and you are a warrior!! Sending you love 
For me I can click on the personās icon that I replied to then it jumps back to that post. Probably somebody said this already but Iām still catching up in the days posts.
Bye for nowā¦
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Good day at the conference with my friend. Grateful I made the drive. Feeling a bit worried about work and feeling a bit like Iām not enough (the broken record of my mind). Iām a little irritated at this persistent sense of not being / doing enough. Maybe I need to practice some acceptance. Reflect on it, acknowledge it, and let it pass like a person walking by me on the street.
Acceptance. My friend and I were talking about that in the car today. We discussed how we have different voices in our heads; the voices are there and we can spend energy fighting them or invalidating them, or we can just let them pass, let them be, and focus our energy on the choice we make, the choice we cultivate, the path we choose. The voices will still be there, but they wonāt be centre stage.
@kat261 sorry to hear about your relapse. The addict paths, the addict voice, is sneaky. Itās good that youāre back. The honesty and the healthy sober work - just like healthy exercise - will make you stronger every day. And if it all gets too much just spend the day playing with puppies at your local pet store. You have permission to do anything thatās safe and legal, to stay sober 
@SoberWalker samba! I didnāt know you played samba! Thatās awesome.
@BrianP good for you on eating the Stilton! Some days the rule that helps is real simple: youāre allowed to do anything thatās safe and legal, to stay sober. Stilton is definitely safe and legal - and look, youāre sober! Good work brother 
Have a healthy day everyone. You deserve this. Itās yours if you work for it.
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Dude I can really relate to this. I always go back to coffee and fast food and cigarettes and wonder why my indigestion is really bad. Iāve noticed black tea or any kind of tea doesnāt affect me nearly as bad as coffee. Itās hard accepting this. Also Iām not sure if you have tried to take any antacids or acid reducers but donāt take them for too long because they can interfere with vitamin absorption. As we both know itās just best to have a better diet. Stay strong dude. Weāre gonna figure this out
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34.81 days free from weed and alcohol. Ive slept most of the day away. Idk if im exhausted from the week or depression sitting in. Either way im trying not to beat myself up. I still have sunday to get some chores done. A case of the āeggghsā hope it passes soon.
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Are those houseboats for residence only or do they move and come back? Itās so cool to see life over there!
Iām so happy you had a good first week, Menno! 
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Eric and I have dreamed of staying on a houseboat! And I always wondered this. Now heās lecturing me about all the possibilities of how they could work and that there is more below the water than we see. Once a sailor, always a sailor. I figured they were more like floating trailersā¦Now maybe Menno can enlighten us!
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Good evening all. Checking in on day 288. Was a beautiful day so spent it all outdoors doing yard work and fishing! Strive to make everyday as beautiful as it was today. Woke up super motivated from the second my feet hit the floor. Hope everyone is doing well and take care.
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Evening Check In
Day 110
Hey TS fam. Completely missed my morning checkin. Today has been a mentally draining day. My mind has been caught up in a resentment towards another person. Iām seriously replaying this scenario in my head adding fuel to the fire. I had to speak up tho over what she was doing. It wasnāt right and it did effect me and my family. She ended up walking out of my home. I always try so hard to be kind but also firm and use good communication skills. She was just so defensive and the conversation went no where. So Iāve been doing some self care today. I also prayed for her as idk if how she is acting is a result of something else going on in her life. I donāt think I overreacted or anything. I usually can tell for myself if I did bcuz I will try to justify why I acted like that. I donāt feel that way this time. Iām glad to be on the path of recovery and am grateful for u all and the life I have today.
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Day 64
Went to a kite festival with my 10yo and mom, we got the thing all the way up there and had a great time over all.
A pretty good day over all; now to meditate and work out then even more piano practice 
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You are not defined by your relapses, but by your decision to remain in recovery despite them.
Anonymous
Iām so happy you all are already both back on here taking responsibility and proving how strong and courageous you both are. I wish I could think of some magic words to make things all better for the 2 of you.
I just think your both incredible people and happy youāre both back here so quickly. You got the tools. You got the mistakes to learn from. Today is a great day for all of us to be clean and sober.
Iām so glad youāre both here.
There is no shame in beginning again, for you get a chance to build bigger and better than before.
Leon Brown*
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Congrats on your 248 Twizzle.
I hope youāre getting some sleep.
Except for the insomnia part. Watching the fox in the rain in your garden sounds pretty good.
Have fun on your visit.
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thank you 
Still awake ā¦ its 4:40am now 
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Ugh 
Ya I was afraid of that when I saw your avatar pop up. Bummer. Sorry you canāt sleep. I actually have one of my world clock ps on my phone set to London time because of my friend Julie over there.
At least your sober 
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@Lorelai I watched glimpses of it inbetween doing my bits and Bobās.
Congratulations on your 984 days thatās an amazing amount of time.
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Iv been up watching missing 411, with David pauliedes ā¦ going down the rabbit hole lol
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I am here! This last month has been a bit rough. My cat had life saving surgery, my husband received some poor health news, finances could be better (after nearly 3k in unexpected vet bills), and thatās not even getting started lol. Butttt, I never once picked up a drink. 90days sober and I never in a million years thought I could do this but I am here and still ticking. One day at a time. I donāt look back at who I was, I see where I am now. I am amazed at who I am today and look forward to what is next.
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