Congratulations on your 90 days and getting through all that shit sober and not hungover and really feeling like shit. Good for you.
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Is it like Gorgonzola or harder?
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Thank you @Lorelai and @Staringupfromthewell. I had a good day. Got some house stuff done and helped my son in the kitchen with learning to cook mac 'n cheese. Then watched about 4 back-to-back episodes of Heartland!
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Thank you Matt! Yes I play samba since 2014. Itās so much fun! I drum on a timba drum. Itās played by hand instead of drumsticks.
Ps, I just have read an interesting article about that inner voice you talked about with your friend. In the article they said it was our ego. Itās our inner child of 3 years old she said. It is afraid of the world and want to protect us from it. Do you wanna put a 3 year old behind the wheels she said? The inner child talks 97% bullshit. Only 3 % of it is accurate she said. So put the innerchild on the passengers seat she said. You deside if you go right ore left and not the inner child.
She also said: give that voice a funny name. So you can make that serious and sometimes negative voice a less dramatic apperance so we take it less serious.
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#Day 1355 
First day of our holiday.
Still have to pack my stuff 
Weather forecast for Germany is bad: a lot of rain. Itās 8 oāclock now, planning to leave at 11. Happy to leave our grey couch behind me for a week because I lived on it the past 3 weeks 
I need change of scenery!
Grateful to have this holiday just when I needed it the most.
Picture is made yesterday evening from my garden. Lovely sky isnāt it!! 
Have a good sunday all of you!
Love from the Netherlands
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Ah you are no longer my twinnie. You got this! 
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Aaaah, thanks. Still there with you but sadly not as a twinnie.
āSpeech, speechā¦for heās a jolly good fellowā
Hooray, massive congratulations. You have already awarded yourself a medal. How are you celebrating?
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@RosaCanDo Thereās different kinds of houseboats. Thereās the floating trailers kind, just concrete containers with a house build on them. They stay in place. And there are old freight ships converted to living . My sis lived on one when she started a family over 20 years ago. That one could still move around, and they did trips with it. In the centre of town almost all are stationary. They are also connected to the sewerage, power and gas. It took until the mid 80ās till that was done. The water quality in town got a lot better after that you can imagine. It used to be an affordable way of living. No more alas. Lots of 'm are rented out to tourists these days, also bloody expensive.
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Thank you for the education! Very interesting. Eric was suspecting the same about connections to sewer, etc. Makes sense.
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1093
Coffee. Not too much planned this pentecost. Supposed to be wet and windy and thundery outside for a big part of the day. Iām going to take it easy after I did a long ride yesterday. Despite the fact Iām a bit overweight I am pretty fit for a 56 year old. There was a lot of wind and I impressed myself with my average speed. Donāt think I did this one ever faster.
Just for today, Iāll remain sober and clean. Just like I expect form all of you my friends. Life isnāt necessarily easier this way, it is infinitely better. I get to make my own choices and live my life accordingly, instead of letting my life be dictated by some stupid substance, which leaded me down a road to nowhere too. Never again. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Love from my ride yesterday.
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Sorry to hear about the ankle. So glad you said that about the Jubilee, I am thoroughly over it. I enjoyed seeing the bunting when in Yorkshire but just not into it this weekend at all. Feeling like a total misery about it all 
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Day 663
Made cupcakes with my daughter this morning, then a little cleaning and homework with the kids. I really need to tidy various places in the house, but am failing to find the motivation. I am not great at tidying actually, I like things out to remind me, and tend to worry about throwing things away.
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Retire ā¦ ha ha! They are a great inspiration to clean the drug/ alcohol acts up and keep on dancing, moving, and playing. I watched 13 shows in a two month Ā± period last fall and kept the thought that if they could keep getting up on stage putting on these awesome, incredible shows, I could surely watch from my living room! I want to jump => up, forwards and *** backwards***, like that, run, play an instrument, and sing, all at the same time, like that, when Iām 78 or 79! Or at least in my own way! Great incentive and inspiration for me.
They all put on a wonderful show and you do know seeing them so many times. Enjoy, enjoy!! Happy for you w them in Liverpool. And if itās going to be your first time sober, that is all the more wonderful for you! @BrianP Big congrats on your six weeks! Thatās huge!
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Day 189
Feeling good, a little achy but a little pain is a good thing because means Iām alive.
Nothing much planned for today other than to make a nice Sunday roast for dinner so just going to take it easy and so very little else other than a bit of housework because that never stops.
Congratulations @Mno on 1093 days, smashing it as always!
@BrianP awesome work 6 weeks is massive well done!
@Butterflymoonwoman 110 days, so proud of you!
@Twizzlers huge congrats on your 248 days. Hope you got some sleep eventually. The 1 quarter millennia is just around the corner.
@Lorelai amazing work on 984 days. That 1000 is reeling in quick!
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How are you getting on Ania?
Alright! Here I am.
I am 7 years sober in December. I decided yesterday that I was going to sign up to somewhere like this. A lot of hard work has rendered me very safe in my sobriety. I felt like chances of relapse get less each day, until recently. I feel like I have reached a realisation of a point where I feel so safe, that it makes me wonder, at what point could come complacency. When could that knock on my door? When could it render me moving back towards the more vulnerable edge of the scale.
So upon that realisation, I decided that I would shore up my defences, and start to do some āserviceā work. Service work, I believe may help me just as much as I hope it may help someone else. Itās a bi-directional process right?
Iām not sure what I can offer. Perhaps my offerings might not be so compatible, but iād like to think that sharing some wisdom about my journey at times, may pique someones interest and influence them to make a good decision somehow. Surely, I have to think that!
I have done pretty much f**k all service in my 6 and a bit years of sobriety. I want to give back somehow, to the ācommunityā. At the beginning, AA helped me out massively I believe. And then because of a number of reasons that would be explanations and not excuses, I stopped going, and I donāt think iāve been for 4 years. I WAS living in Iceland for the majority of my sobriety. Iceland was a solace that iām sure helped my sobriety massively, though the AA meetings in Icelandic in the small fishing town I lived in, didnāt lure me in. Again, an explanation, and not an excuse. I could have learnt more icelandic when I was there, or even sought meetings online (especially over covid).
So now comes a change for me. I will see how I can positively affect my own defences with regards to relapsing, build an attack towards taking on life, and start coming to places like this, and go backt o weekly meetings again. I will go to a meeting tomorrow night! I will let you know how it goes.
I send my bestest and warmest wishes to you all. I sincerely do. No matter who you are. I like to think I can be as non-judgemental, open minded and as potentially helpful as anyone, so please, I am here if you fancy a chat. About anything!
Big Love!
Tom
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Today was to be Day 150 AF but on Day 148 I had two drinks after a pretty hectic but satisfying week. I didnāt get silly, I just went to my old habit of rewarding myself with alcohol. I donāt feel terrible about it. Iāve not really felt like another drink in these past 48 hours.
Hope everyone is doing ok.
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Wooooow absoluut prachtig!!!
Enjoy your holiday! I hope the couch isnāt grey where you are going to
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Hi Tom and welcome! Approaching 7 years is admirable and I have great respect for you recognising the looming complacency and being proactive to thwart it!
I once had almost 10 years sobriety (stopped meetings after the first few years) and felt like I was going well. Then around the 8th year that cunning and ever so patient little voice began its whisper in my ear until it became a roar that convinced me I could succeed at moderation.
It took me +4years of failed attempts to moderate before I found myself here and I now have 3 years under my belt. I wouldnāt wish those years of being back out there on anyone!!
This forum and itās people have been instrumental in my recovery. Being with others who can relate and offer hope helps us feel less alone, recovery is HARD on our own and it can be isolating but it doesnāt have to be that way. This special community of amazing humans make me feel connected, grateful, humble and stronger in my recovery. Glad to see your āchangesā have brought you here!
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