Oh wow nice. Have a great holiday, enjoy. And I’m so glad you talked right about the cravings. Keep doing that if it happens again. But for now have fun
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Thanks so much, you are so kind. I had a bit of a turning point recently and realised that completely sober is the only way for me. Moderation just doesn’t work. Annoying that I am back to 3 days but that will hopefully build up quickly. I had 59 days before, looking forward to hitting 60! 2nd August here I come 
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Checking in- 68 days.
Feeling a bit flat, and overwhelmed. Lots ahead but not enough energy to tackle everything. Brain is running a million miles, maybe that’s why I’m feeling so flat.
Going to make myself some roast vegetables, and food for the next few days at work.
Love to you all 
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Hey Matt I wanted to say that it warms my heart to see you check in here and share from yourself. we 've had the pleasure of tapping into your intuition and wisdom many times, but it means almost more to be able to get to know you a little more, like this. so thank you! 
we have untertaken something similar. it’s not easy. but baby steps you can do. connection is key. and there is not a matrix on how this has to look or feel to be valid. I think your commitment to start out already is worth so damn much. I’m sure your wife will feel a change from that alone. take it easy.
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I am sorry you are feeling overwhelmed. Making healthy food for the next few days is a brilliant way of handling it, and taking one pressure off. I hope the process of cooking helps calm your mind too.
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Day 55 going strong 
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Thanks Jenny Yeah, I’ve really had to force myself to make some food instead of eating something fast and easy. Hopefully I’m feeling better tomorrow.
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Sending love and hugs to you Eric. I’m proud of you… your strength, courage and honesty is inspiring x
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Nice and fresh outside after lots of rain last night. Sitting here having my coffee with the door to my balcony open, thinking what I’ll do with my free day. Thinking what to do with the next year, and the rest of my life too.
Almost to three years sober and clean, I made so much progress but still so much to do too. Connections to make (yes @KellyKelly), learn to better understand and deal with my emotions now I really feel them (yes @onthewagon31). How to deal with old relationships I might no longer want, not in the way they were anyway.
Needing to finally deal with the abuse I endured as a kid, accept what happened, learn to really cope with how it shaped my life, maybe change the final outcome a bit if I can. Work ahead. While it’s also important for me to remind myself of all the progress I made in the last three years. My new work in addiction care feels like coming home. I feel purpose there. Belonging. A sense of belonging and achievable goals.
I made great progress with getting to a better mental state. 18 Months of schema therapy has brought great benefits to me, in understanding myself, the world I’m living in, the people around me.
One thing is certain: I can only do the work sober and clean. Some days it’s easier than others but I am 100% sure I can and will never go back to my old days and old ways. Never again. One day at a time. And that goes for all of us or we wouldn’t be here. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Make it clean and sober. Love from my balcony.
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Thanks Kelly, that was very helpful!
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Hi @KellyKelly I also feel the same. I moved to where I am now 9 years ago and I have made a handful of friends in that time.
My closest friends are from when I was at school and we have scattered to the winds since then. So I spend a lot of my time texting with them rather than going out and meeting new people locally.
I am more and more realising how valuable meeting people in person is and how much more it gives me.
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Hi @Matt . You were the first person to give me advice and support when I joined this community. For which I am extremely grateful for. I’m many ways you sharing your experience and your feelings is equally as helpful and inspiring.
Healthy assertion is a good thing and you have to stand up for what you want sometimes else the resentment builds inside you. It is healthy to talk about it and you seem to be on the right path.
No matter the ups or downs, good days or bad we are all in this together and I am here to listen.
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Thank you for being in this journey and sharing it with us. 
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Your here and ready to start again thats what matters today. Dust yourself off. You can do this.
It takes strength to admit it and then come back from it. Dont beat yourself up and let the low feelings keep you in a dark place. Heres a hug incase you need it 
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Understandable you’re upset. Can you analyse what happened? What went wrong? So you can draw some conclusions and learn a bit, so that you won’t make the same mistake again. Good you’re here now.
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Day 258 checking in 
Hope everyone is well
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Hope your ankle heals properly and your okay.
You have quite a bit going health wise and with your dog, im glad you know we are all here for you, im here when it gets tough too okay.
Congratulations on your 43 days, that feeling you get at the end of the day when still sober is great isnt it.
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Day 189
Taken my eldest son for his pre op assessment today. COVID Swab next week and then he finally has his ACL repair. Costing just short of £9k to go private because NHS waiting list of nearly 3 years is ridiculous considering he’s in a professional football academy and the fact that they missed the tear and it wasn’t picked up until 6 Months after he got injured making it even worse than it was!
But, it’s an investment in the long run, regardless of if he makes it or not. Football is his life and missing it for years and years would just ruin him mentally.
So, the new car fund has been put to better use.
Heading to the gym, got to keep the shred going!
Hope everyone has a good day!
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Hope everything goes well for your sons health today.
Congratulations on your 189 days🙂
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