Made my amends to my wife last night. We have talked extensively throughout our recoveries. She is in Alanon so it helps She was able to forgive me and we both know the journey is far from over. It feels great to be able to have thay open and honest relationship with my wife. Neither of us will ever forget the terrible things done but the future is bright.
Day 726 clean and sober today. First morning shift so Iām up early af. I didnāt sleep either @Iguess gonna be a super tired day at work for me too. I hope everyone has a great day, love you guys!!!
Doing the amends to your partner is a weight lifted. Well done.
Day 666
Planned to catch 666.66 but failed miserably . Spoke to my sponsor for the first time in a couple of months, which was nice. I really associate her face and voice with feeling better about things. Otherwise was a bit of a lazy day off, and had to kick my ass into gear a couple of hours before the kids and husband got back. A few things that I should do got put off in the end. Never mind.
Checking in on day 361 with my second cup of coffee. Covered in itchy mosquito bites. Small price to pay for summer I guess. Kids are off to school and I am trying to decide whether to work from home or get off my ass and go to the office. Iād probably get more done with the latter, as there are fewer distractions. Have a great day today, friends.
Admitting youāre an alcoholic is the first step for AA and itās the first step to real change! And I believe itās the complete opposite of embarrassing or weakness. The strongest people are those who can recognize they have a problem and reach out for help. There are those even stronger who have the courage to pick themselves up after a relapse and to try again. So congratulations, youāve already owned it!
Honestly, just do and say whatever makes you feel the most comfortable in those situations. Where I live, drinking alcohol and going to bars is a large part of social interactions and culture so when I tell people no or that Iām not drinking, I always get questions like your peers were asking. Some people ask why, and usually I say something along the lines of āI donāt want toā or āIām not drinking anymoreā.
In the end, itās none of their business and you donāt owe them anything. If someone keeps pushing me to drink I will ask them to stop and Iām not afraid to tell them itās none of their business. Usually the pushy people will back off thenā¦ if not, I just leave. I donāt want to be around people who are like that anyways so I consider it a plus.
Feeling pretty good today. When I broke, I drank only what I had, which was smaller than usual. Even while inhebriated I wanted to quit and didnt acquire more alcohol, which is rare for me. I have had some good sober time and it is too good to pass up again.
Sucks to reset my time but it was pretty eye opening. Feeling confident, and just feel like I have to keep focused and conscious. When I start acting almost autonomously itās not good. Meditation really helps.
Anyways, odaat and I hope everyone is doing fantastically. Thanks!