Morning. 
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Much love, amigo. Iām so happy for you and proud of you 
Well done!
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Good afternoon all! Checking in on day 292. Gloomy day so going to be finishing up a paper and prepping for dinner. Hope everyone has a great day and stays safe!
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Thank you Becsta appreciate it. 
Just read your bio thingy.
Iām grateful Iām not comfortable in my situation anymore. 
I thought:
Being comfortable in my situation = Iām handling it.
Well I am handling it, but I wasnāt learning anything new.
Thanks for your sober experience and presence here.
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I just love a good catch.
I hope you you feel better soon L.
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Hey everyone,
Sorry Iāve been distant for the last couple of days, mum got rushed into hospital with breathing difficulties yesterday. Still in at the minute, hopefully she will be well enough to come home in the next couple of days.
Iām here if anyone needs me and reading some posts has been a welcome distraction I just might not be posting with as much positivity as I try to.
Thankful to be sober and there for my family though rather than being another burden on them!
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Checking on day 396. Exactly 13 months. Today has been pretty cool. My daughterās Allstar softball team was invited to come practice with the local highschool girls softball team before they head to the state championship game this weekend. Itās awesome seeing my girlās passion and excitement about the game, and Iām very grateful to be able to spend this time with her as she learns from the best in the state. Sober no less lol. Have a great day everyone. Itās a great day to be above ground and sober.
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Welcome to TS, I am happy you found us.
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Sorry to hear about your Mum, I hope she is home soon. It must be such a relief to be able to support your family sober. Well done
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Hello guys. Just checking in day 12.
Watched black friday. It was fun.
Have a nice day guys. Much love.
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Checking in, almost 5 days.
Totally exhausted. I have my ultrasound tomorrow to investigate the pain around gallbladder/liver area. Not sure what to hope for really.
Had my first proper drinking dream last night, really horrible. I mentioned my cravings last night, well in my dream I drank and then for some inexplicable reason was driving. I crashed the car and the rest of the dream was me being breathalysed, arrested and the trial and looks on my childrenās faces. It has really skaken me, which is silly as I have no plans to drink again, and certainly not to drive like that. Think I was generally anxious last night and it manifested as that dream.
There seems to be a lot of anxiety here at the moment. Sending strength to everyone.
And massive congratulations to you @Mno Such an achievement 
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Feeling sad today after the news of a friend and former colleague passing from metastatic breast cancer. 61 is so young. She played a big part in my early professional development, in my first real professional position after college she was a mentor and friend. She helped me navigate so many new experiences and I am grateful we kept in touch over the years. Social media is good for somethings in my life, especially after targeting my social media to these folks who have had an impact on me but are far away. She was also instrumental in helping me understand her experience as a lesbian of her generation, the lack of support and awareness she experienced, negotiating her strong faith in a higher power, though I didnāt share it, it helped me to understand how someone could within a faith system that rejected her and who she was. I am sad but grateful her decline in health and passing was quick. She also was another sober example for me early on and Iām grateful to her for that.
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I am 15 days clean from my DOC. Unfortunately I still struggle to stop replacing it with alcohol. 
I am about to hit 24 hours alcohol free.
My biggest issue is people. One of my friends of 10 years isnāt an addict. Sheās got her stuff pretty together. She doesnāt understand that I cannot āoccasionallyā drink. 
I think in part I need to be transparent that not only am I abstaining from drugs, but alcohol also falls into that and it is entirely unwise for me to drink. Nine times out of ten drinking is my downfall & leads to much worse.
Not only that, but I slept with her. I shouldnāt have. I also need to be able to fully focus on recovery & getting my life togetherā¦ sex, relationships, etc. are not in the cards for me right now.
Thankfully I have therapy tomorrow. Thereās definitely some stuff I need to work through.
I did do some good things today though. I made it to my daughterās meeting for her starting school in September even though I genuinely didnāt want to. (Actually sick and also hung over.) I cleaned my house nicely. I am being proactive and am about to plan things I need to bring up in therapy tomorrow. Iām preparing everything for my day tomorrow to make life easier. Iām going to plan something fun to do with my daughter as well. 
Iām not giving up. Still a little bummed out though.
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That is really sad, @RosaCanDo and I am very sorry. Glad you had the strong relationship with her and learned from and shared so much with her. Thoughts and hugs for you. Sorry she was rejected where she was. Editing to add that I believe her God did not reject her and she is with him now.
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Day 19 - I made it, again. Another day down. I had an argument with my ex today, over ultimately small things but it just raised a huge well of resentment and anger that I need to process. Not about the arguement itself (it was relatively minor) but about the whole split.
As soon as that hit I had a huge urge to fall back into the bad old ways. I rode it out and looked at my feelings head on. It helped. I still carried those feelings around until I could talk to someone about it. But the talking helped as well as recognising it.
I was kinder to myself today. I didnāt push myself as hard as usual. It feels like everything takes more energy than usual right now. But Iām getting there one day at a timeā¦Iām excited to get to 20 days tomorrow. But keeping on trucking one day at a time.
Wishing you all the very best day.
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Checking in 71 days.
@Becsta i am well and truly over winter. Haha. I work in the caravan industry and all my customers are away up in Broome enjoying the beautiful weather up there. I canāt wait to grey nomad travel away from winter 
@Staringupfromthewell thanks for your kind words. Itās so hard to give myself a break, my brain is so full of guilt for not going. But when I go all the time Iām constantly anxious about that. I wasnāt enjoying going so Iām taking a week to sleep in while itās freezing, getting more sleep, enjoying a bit more food, because being in a calorie deficit for ages was making me super sad and being hungry all the time is bullshit.
Iāve decided I need a break, and Iām going to try not to freak out about it.
I miss the summer, I used to swim almost every day down on the estuary. Maybe Iāll get the kayak out once it stops raining and connect with the water again. Definitely my happy place.
Thanks for listening guys. Stay awesome, stay sober
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19 days is absolutely awesome. The first few weeks were so tough for me. Facing feelings head on is tough!
Well done on your time so far, just gotta take it easy, hey? Itās hard to slow things down when we need to look after ourselves but itās so necessary. You got this
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Hey thatās great news!! See, you got this!
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Hey all its been a while but still going strong! Day 157 sober and 938 days substance free. Life is slowly getting better, and it feels great to be able to wake up to my kids every day, instead of waking up to a hangover or a crash. Have a good evening everyone.
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Yay this is awesome to hear!!! Congrats on your numbers 
i think waking up hangover free and being āpresentāā with our kids is the greatest feeling ever, great work!!!
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