That quote comes from my all time fav movie “Amelie” but it really hit home for me with being applicable in recovery 
(the movie is well worth a watch if you haven’t seen it - quirky and beautiful)
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Day 38 free from weed and alcohol
Beating myself up a bit. I started a new job 3 weeks ago and sometimes i have trouble vocalizing my thoughts, my words get twisted, and i fumble, get frustrated, and feel like the person im speaking to thinks im an idiot which only amplifys my twisted words. Ahhhh, i thought my mind-speech connection would get better after i got sober. So im driving home from a long day of work beating myself up, frustrated, and feeling like i came off as stupid. Trying to be rational and give myself grace. 
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I do that all the time! I feel like everyone else speaks normally and I am a spluttering wreck. I think you just hyper focus on your own awkwardness. A bit like only yourself looks weird in a photo.
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Day 95
Day of nothing.
Tired of life.what next. Dissociating and being unstable in life is hard because i really do feel drunk!! All the bad parts at least. I was probably a better writer when i was just starting here.
I thought 90 days would make a big difference with it but i will honestly have to practice better habits for at least 6 months. 6 months will be the new big milestone.
I have a nice seltzer. I have eaten well today. I Promise i will leave the house tomorrow and do some errands. I am tired. Tired. Tired.
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Hey everyone. Getting big urges right now to drink and can see the triggers as to why. Normally after a long hard day this would be the point of boredom and I would drink to try and relax. I can see this is a trigger and am learning on trying different things to take my mind off of it. Currently paving from bedroom to bedroom as I write this! Lol. But I will not drink today. Gotta stay strong! Hope everyone else is having a great day today!
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@Minatasha not everyday sober will be rainbows. Be kind to yourself and patient. Im kinda bummed how my mental was when i hit 30days. Just focus on one day at a time and treat yourself for remaining sober. That isnt an easy feat
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It helps to post about it 
Glad to read your thoughts on it
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At times like that i would hit up an inperson or zoom meeting to distract myself and engage in my sobriety
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I love that movie!!
It’s been awhile since I’ve seen it though. I have a play list with all Yann Tierson music on it. It brings back memories of a trip to France where I actually first saw the movie. It was sooooo quirky. I’ll have to give it another watch soon.
Thanks for that tip.
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How was your first day of work, Trevor?
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It got pushed till Friday … the office manager is sick and won’t be back till Friday. I was ok with that because I needed to get more work clothes and see about some rooms . I got the rest of my onboarding computer work done and direct deposit set up . I also got ahead on some training that It’s not actually assigned till … July … I get to make up the 2 days this weekend. So tomorrow is my last day of freedom so to speak . I have been doing more research on the job, company , and double checking my Assignments that were due today. I had a brief period Where I was like what am I doing I can’t do this but then that quickly faded. I am more than prepared and I know I’m qualified. I think Friday’s gonna go OK. Thank you so much for reaching out and asking. Hope you’re having a good evening
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My biggest issue is myself.
Welcome back.
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Checking in
Day 114
Had a really good day overall. Handled an unexpected situation sooo weirdly diff today! First off my honorarium cheque showed up in the mail for when I did that interview recently. That was nice. Not one thought or using drugs with it! I am eagerly waiting the results of all the interviews and how they plan on updating the sexually exploited youth program. I hope what I said helped based on my own experiences.
Then my hubby calls me from work freaking out!! He told me he lost his wedding ring. And I honestly didn’t flip. I just told him to do what he could to find it and get the word out about it being lost. Told him I wasn’t mad and that I love our rings alot but in the grand scheme of things our rings don’t determine how much we love each other. That’s the real gem 
just cheesy haha but I meant it. It can be replaced down the road. He was so shocked in how I responded. I told him that he is already beating himself up over it, there’s no need to add more of that from me onto him. He just laughed. I honestly can’t believe I acted this way. In the end some other construction worker found it and returned it! So all turned out well. But I was really shocked that I handled that situation differently. It was like a whole different me 
Hope everyone is enjoying their day clean and sober! Hugs TS fam!
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Lovely share! Maybe it was just a test…you passed lol im glad things turned out well for you today and you handled the stressful situation with a thoughtful mind and maybe a cheesy line or two
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When you are tired, rest. Don’t give up
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Thank you for this. I ended up emptying the dishwasher and found an online meeting to join. Really helped.
5 min it will be day 27. Today was the first day I went out with the wife and kids to a restaurant. She ordered a drink but asked on the way there if I would be ok. This is the first time ever I can remember going to Texas Roadhouse and not having a beer. I didn’t even feel tempted when the waitress started with beer or margaritas. I get it as it’s a high markup and usually bigger tips with bigger bill but I’m happy to say this is one more day sober.
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Day 235 AF
Busy day at work. Working OT.
I will catch up with your posts in a bit.
Take care, fam.
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Day 679
Quick evening check in. Exhausted. Sending lots of love to all of you my TS fam! 
Even on the hardest days I know I can come here and read all of your stories & remember why I’m here and that I’m not alone.
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Day 68
Having a good evening
Tomorrow’s my last med boost to the final dosage of 200mg Lamictal and I really can’t believe i made it through all this. My psych is really proud of me and I’m proud of me too.
Treating my bipolar 1 (and soon the adhd! 
) is everything I never knew I could have (functionality was a distant shore), but finally kicked the door of opportunity open and hauled myself in bc damn was i tired of myself lol.
And here I am, realizing I deserve feeling better and it’s a great thing
Have a good night everyone 
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