Amazing, your courage gives me courage Menno. Sometimes I feel like there are boxes in my closet that are better left unpacked and other times I just don’t know. I am going to take a read around about Pesso I haven’t heard of it before.
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Doesnt get boring does it Pauly???
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Not yet, the longer it goes the more amazed I become. I hope your keeping well?
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Good evening everyone, checking in on day 293. Very gloomy day here which led to a horrible mood, all brought on by myself. Rain gave up a little so going to try and go for a walk and get rid of this funk. Today, Murphy’s Law has been in full effect. Take care and stay safe.
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Hey yall,
Went to my first womens only aa meeting. There were alot of hugs lol i wasnt ready for that. They talked about step 6 and character defects, gives me alot to think about before starting my steps. Still looking for a lady sponsor 
Just a thought, in AA they say you can pick your higher power but in the same breath say may you find God. Then they end the meetings ive been to in person here with the lords prayer…isnt that a christian God? Im not complaining. Its powerful to recite a prayer holding hands in a full room but where is there room for the agnostic?
I feel like part of my sober journey will also entail trying to identify my higher power. I grew up going to a methodist church, dont like organized religion, mostly identify with the agnostic but what does that mean to me?
So much to learn about myself in sobriety. No better time than to start now. Drinking for the last 20 years has been demoralizing and i feel very far from the confident, strong child and those times when i last remember being joyful. Gotta make up some time and put in the work
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I literally watched the last few minutes count down to double digits. I haven’t been sober this long in over a year. Feeling good!
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Beautiful work!
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Tonight is day 100 of no self harm
It should feel good but all I wanna do is fuck it up. Everything feels bad.
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I thought immediately about how many times I was that guy that would never say no to one more.
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Checking in tonight as I’m just around the corner of 5 days sober and I believe my next milestone on TS.
Today and the past couple of days have been stressful but good. Between work, keeping house, and my other work/part time job I’ve been able to stay busy and out of trouble. Today I finished the last of my commissioned projects and I’m looking forward to having some downtime. Im also coming into all the money I’ve been waiting for 
I worked overtime at a store in a different town so I was waiting on reimbursement for that, plus the bonus on my check, and getting paid for my part time work as well.
I’m trying my best to build my savings back up, because I wasted a lot of it on my addiction. There’s a combination of feelings there… most of which being guilt and anger at myself for being so irresponsible. I’m also nervous the combo of having money and free time will cause some pretty serious cravings through the weekend and on my days off.
I’ll check in every day here and go to in person meetings as often as I need, but pray for me y’all 
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Just hit 28 days and 20 minutes. Start my trip for vacation tomorrow with the family. This will be my first vacation sober.
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Had to just look up Murphys Law, I’d never seen that before but definitely have days where I could feel it is real!
Hope your feeling better now. I’d say go for that walk if you can, I know it’s easy to say it and we know it helps and works but sometimes when we are feeling that bad just the thought of going out and just getting out the front door can feel like a task in itself.
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I hope I’m not too late to your party @Mno. It’s been such a pleasure watching your progress and growth over the past 3 years. Thanks for allowing me to take this journey with you. 
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Another bit motivating talk if helps any of you, it helps me so thought I’d pop it here
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Yes just the thought is bothersome! But it is an obstacle that I have to work on as well. Was diagnosed agoraphobic, which I didn’t even know was a thing. Got two miles in which with my knee and back is pretty good for me! And Murphy’s law is there everyday, just depends on how you look at the things as they are happening, unfortunately I let my guard down and let little things get to me but am winding down now. Thank you for asking and hope all is going well with you!
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That was a good watch. 27 years in the SAS alone is impressive! There is another general that I met that is very inspiring as well, he is very blunt but check out General James “ Chaos” Mattis. Was a four star general in the marine corps for an unreal amount of time. Great speaker and great leader. I did a quick search and found this but haven’t watched it yet.
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Awesome job Rebecca! Very inspiring!
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Hoping you have a blast on vacation. I’m about to celebrate my one year and my first sober birthday in over a decade besides when I was in a treatment center and am excited! Haven’t had a vacation besides a few camping trips but in the last there was always drinking and this time I actually got to enjoy the conversation and my company was enjoyed rather than wondering what dumb thing I was going to do that night. Take care and awesome job!
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