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Had coffee at home, now on my way to work. Sleep was ok. Bought a radio alarm thing so I can leave my phone outside my bedroom. After one night I think it helps.
Have as good a day as you all can friends. Make it clean and sober or nothing will come of it. Love from the 
Pic is from yesterdayās visit to the museum of the mind. I like her work.
Hello @Cjp,
There are a lot of online meetings, which are a good to find a sponsor. If you like, I can try and ask for the Zoom data?
If you want to read s.th. about the agnostic side of AA: Prayers and Meditation and One Big Tent are both books from AA Grapevine about agnostic aspects.
Congrats to your first 10 days!
Happy triple digits! 
Thank you 
Striking art work there, @Mno and what a good, solid message for recovery! Thanks for posting it and congrats on each day of your recovery!
Day 70
Hard parts of today but pretty good overall.
Spending a couple hours tonight dedicated to piano practice and pretty close to the end of the first book.
I decided on recording my practices for purposes of reviewing in a few months or so of solid practice.
The dedication of this is my first time in years focusing on an interest of mine thatās not working out, something Iāve struggled with. Enjoying a hobby and investing practice in a real project or skill thatās not work, parenting, fitness or relationship related. Itās just for me.
It gives me renewed interest in a prospective business course Iāve been working on that Iād recently started getting burnt out on.
Iām respecting the process of releasing myself from āthe grindā for a short while every day or so, and realizing the amount of effort I invested in never understanding taking time for myself without guilt. It makes me ready for retrying responsibilities, feeling relieved.
Checking in day 45
Have a great weekend guys!
Hi everyone, I hope that you are all well.
So Iām starting againā¦
Iām pretty upset with myself for having had to reset after only about 3 weeks, well crap.
Day 263 checking in had a good first day at convention off for some breakfast and a massage ready for day 2 have a good day everyone
Day 29 for me ma wee boys 4 today nearly missed it if a never stopped 29 days ago proud dad
I agree with @Mephistopheles about trying something else. I know the book by Alan Carr really resonates with u but it seems like that alone is not enough. I was the same with Annie Graceās book, it opened my eyes and taught me a lot, but it wasnāt quite enough to keep me sober long term.
Exactly this. Thatās why weāre addicts Brian. We feel we need booze to deal with shitty stuff in our lives. But itās addiction lying voice in your head doing the talking. We know drinking wonāt help. Thatās why we quit drinking, because we recognize this for what it is. Lies.
We need new coping mechanisms. Healthy ones. Itās work and it takes time to find and implement them. In the meanwhile Iām glad youāre here Brian. Iām glad you wonāt drink today. Thatās all we can do at times. One day at a time and reaching out when we need to. Sorry for the crap this morning. Youāre not alone. Hang in there.
Day 669
Nice morning which involved a āgirls dayā basically getting Starbucks and shopping with my daughter. Then it threw it down with rain this afternoon so I did a little cleaning and websurfing. Have a bit if a headache, and not sure if it is too much screen time, the weather, or the endless fighting between my kids over whether to play Metallica or BTS on the stereo. Of course my preference has no chance whatsoever 
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@Dazercat all I can say is 
your honesty, strength, vulnerability, courageā¦ I love the piece of writing you also shared
@Bluekoolaid Great numbers and its so great to hear your first day at work went well! Love reading your shares and seeing how far your hard work is getting you - so well deserved!
How are you today @Letthesunshinein ? sending you hugs and have you in my thoughts 
I know you feel alone and although we canāt see you IRL, please know we care about you and are always here for you xx
@Controller We had similar floods here a few months back and itās drilled into us āIf itās flooded, forget itā. Stay safe and enjoy your vacation!
@Twizzlers you always give such caring and helpful support to others, youāre beautiful soul x
@Butterflymoonwoman reading your daily posts, you are such an inspiration and are doing so well!
All of us here are inspiring. Whether we have 1 day or 1000, the fact is, we are here. Today. Today is all we have and we are doing our best. For what its worth, i just wanted to say that Iām proud of us all for showing up. Today. and not giving up x
Good morning! Day 6 for me 
I hope everyone has a wonderful Saturday! If anyone is up for it I have a task for you - take some time to think of one thing youāre grateful for today! It could be anything. Big, small, whatever it is that sticks out to you throughout the day.
Today Iām grateful for my body! I pushed it far yesterday by getting back on my bicycle and cycling about 3 miles, in addition to being at work on my feet all day and staying up late so I could meet a client and get paid for a job I did š„² I slept hard and woke up this morning stiff and sore. But! Iām grateful that it stays moving, helps me to do the things I love to do, and uses sore muscles to tell me when to take it easy!
Hey all, checking in on day 727. I hope everybody has a good one!
Congrats on getting back into something youāre interested in!! Itās so nice having the time an energy to do something for yourself. I hope you find a lot of joy in it 
Day 1315.
When I spend some hours on my bike a lot of thoughts come up, emotions and often itās a moment when many things become clear.
Today I was reminded by an interaction I had here how it was before I got sober. I wanted to stop drinking but still be able to drink. Someone should have taken my worries and problems away but without giving away what defined me. I guess it was pure fear that kept me in my addictions so long. I still have this fear but the grip got loosened a lot. Itās intrinsic to my diabetes that food and what I eat play a big role in my life. I can accept that now.
I really believe what a therapist said once in rehab: scheiĆe stinkt zwar, aber sie wƤrmt auch. All destructive patterns served me something and itās time to replace them with better ones.
