Thank you very much @Becsta i appreciate that and yes self care for all of us is soooo important to remember!!! 
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Good morning everyone! Checking in day 13. Hope everyone enjoys their Saturday!
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Update, went to the baseball game and i was less triggered. It was fun filled, lots of laughs with the hubby. Spent a small fortune on a helmet full of brisket nachosā¦still cheaper than a bar tab! Im learning i dont need to throw money at a poison i gulp down to alter my mind to have fun. That is freeing in itself. There were beautiful fireworks with a spectacular finale. What a wonderful way to celebrate 40 days of sobriety. I feel myself growing mentally and emotionally with each added day! Yea sobriety!
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Iām so sorry 
What an incredibly tough career u have. Itās hard not to feel upset over the loss of a life due to drugs just wishing that they would have stuck with it and had a chance to see the miracle happen
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Yay!!! So glad that u had so much fun! Iām really happy that the game was a positive experience for u!
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Checking in start of Day 7. Trying to figure out my day and not overthink it, give myself a panic attack, and procrastinate for too long. 
Have a great Saturday everyone!
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Hi, I feel exactly the same, but I wouldnāt have been able to say it as well!
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Not sure if this is helpful, but reading your post reminded me of who I was and maybe how I act or better, react to situations. I grew up in a border town, were I survived bombs/bullets. I swear I had eyes in the back of my head and had an instinct like no other. I could see and feel trouble a mile of ground. That part of me is my DNA and I appreciate it for survival if needed. However things/life changes and we donāt need to be on such guard. We are not any weaker because we donāt walk about clenched - we avoid trouble not because we cannot handle it, it is because we choose peace. I feel your survival tools and your strength are playing a huge part in your soberiety. You have the, āthis will not beat me, I have come through worseā attitude, and that is power in itās best. You have got this!
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Have you thought about taking up a new hobby? One that will rebuild that confidence and sense of strength you feel is fading. I understand completely wanting to feel safe and Iām thinking these are outside of your addiction. Iām going to link to one idea. There are many out there that help with mental and physical safety issues.
https://www.prosectra.com/in-person-training/womens-awareness-self-protection-training/
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Day 195
Been missing a few days, nothing wrong as such just not having great luck. Things going wrong that could have gone right but hey, we make our own luck in this world I suppose.
Hopefully things will turn around for the better.
Main thing is drink has no place in my life anymore and Iām not going to let it be my coping tool!
Hope everyone has a strong, healthy and sober 24 hours!
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That just made me tear up a bit @Lorelai thank you for your kind words and always being so nice to me
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Hoping things improve for you 
glad ur not reaching for alcoho!
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To everyone who is here suffering we are here to listen and support you. Your not alone so please dont be.
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You are saving lives, even what you have been through you are out there trying to do something about it, that is special your a very special person. 
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Thanks so much! Itās been a long journey to getting here where I can enjoy something thatās not for someone else and isnāt related to the outside factors of responsibility, if that makes sense. In a smaller sense Iām just happy being able to create sounds and read the music right now, and just learning more
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Day 84.
So grateful. The many blessings Iāve had since being sober I canāt count. Just so very grateful. Have a great weekend everyone!!
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Hang in there man, you are a guardian angel for all those guys now and youāre doing such important work. Proud of you!! 
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Thank you very much @Twizzlers and @Nordique I really appreciate you both.Thank you for the support it means a lot
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Hey guys. Checking in day 15.
I am doing a 24 hours fast that started yesterday. Feeling a bit tired but still okay.
Have a nice evening guys. Much love.
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Good afternoon all. Checking in on day 295. Not much sleep last night. Was speaking with a fellow in recovery and also a combat vet. We both suffer from not being able to sleep at night and we may have figured out why which is a good step. All about our mindset and just have to change our mindset ms towards the dark. So lack of sleep but possibly a breakthrough in why the sleep schedule has been insane the last 6 months. Speaking to my therapist Monday and maybe figure something out! Hope everyone is staying safe and take care!
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