Have you thought about taking up a new hobby? One that will rebuild that confidence and sense of strength you feel is fading. I understand completely wanting to feel safe and I’m thinking these are outside of your addiction. I’m going to link to one idea. There are many out there that help with mental and physical safety issues.
https://www.prosectra.com/in-person-training/womens-awareness-self-protection-training/
Day 195
Been missing a few days, nothing wrong as such just not having great luck. Things going wrong that could have gone right but hey, we make our own luck in this world I suppose.
Hopefully things will turn around for the better.
Main thing is drink has no place in my life anymore and I’m not going to let it be my coping tool!
Hope everyone has a strong, healthy and sober 24 hours!
That just made me tear up a bit @Lorelai thank you for your kind words and always being so nice to me
Hoping things improve for you 
glad ur not reaching for alcoho!
To everyone who is here suffering we are here to listen and support you. Your not alone so please dont be.
You are saving lives, even what you have been through you are out there trying to do something about it, that is special your a very special person. 
Thanks so much! It’s been a long journey to getting here where I can enjoy something that’s not for someone else and isn’t related to the outside factors of responsibility, if that makes sense. In a smaller sense I’m just happy being able to create sounds and read the music right now, and just learning more
Day 84.
So grateful. The many blessings I’ve had since being sober I can’t count. Just so very grateful. Have a great weekend everyone!!
Hang in there man, you are a guardian angel for all those guys now and you’re doing such important work. Proud of you!! 
Thank you very much @Twizzlers and @Nordique I really appreciate you both.Thank you for the support it means a lot 
Hey guys. Checking in day 15.
I am doing a 24 hours fast that started yesterday. Feeling a bit tired but still okay.
Have a nice evening guys. Much love.
Good afternoon all. Checking in on day 295. Not much sleep last night. Was speaking with a fellow in recovery and also a combat vet. We both suffer from not being able to sleep at night and we may have figured out why which is a good step. All about our mindset and just have to change our mindset ms towards the dark. So lack of sleep but possibly a breakthrough in why the sleep schedule has been insane the last 6 months. Speaking to my therapist Monday and maybe figure something out! Hope everyone is staying safe and take care!
Day 3 and starting to be sick, Don’t giving up it’s a motto when everything is saying: you are a failure
Day 22 - A super quick check in today as I have my son staying. It’s been lovely and I will do a better check in tomorrow.
@Twizzlers thank you for your kind words and advice yesterday it really helped 
Checking in. Sober as…! 
But my mood is so angry and crancky. Im sooo tired, not normal tired but, I dont know how to explaine in english. All out… Everything around me annoy me, like I want and need everything in my house to be tidy and clean ( im not a perfectionist, I mean normal clean and tidy where you clean your dish when finish, put your shoes where they belong, your clothes in the hamper, go out with the f***** trash when its full and so on), because clutter and mess make me anxeous and stressed. No one seem to get it, and I do it all. Is it Just me like this? Maybe its me there’s something wrong with 
That’s it Rob. It’s a tough job we’re in friend. We can only help people help themselves. And not everybody will make it. We have to keep taking care of ourselves first, just as we learned in our own recoveries. Or we won’t help no one at all. Take care man. Hugs.
Luckily for him he must’ve inherited the looks from his mum Colin. Congratulations to all of you!
his mums looks and my charm he’s destined for great things hope yer good pal
