I’m going to just express how I’m feeling here right now as actually this has just i would say triggered and knocked me for the rest of my working/recovering day.
An off the comment remark on a subject that is and will now effect millions of people in many situations isn’t something you should lightly make a remark on… Women in active/recovering addiction have to deal with pregnancies and the trauma and life situations that occur.
Im sat at work fighting back tears before I start a group session hoping and praying that my patients of the day didn’t use over the weekend.
So to the person who just didn’t think or actually wouldn’t know sorry to say in anyway or form on how it feels having that right took away.
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Coffee. I have the day off. I’m glad I am back at work. I really like working in detox. One thing I do notice is how feeble the motivation is of many of the people admitted there. I feel this is where I maybe can make a difference for some. Using what I learned in my own recovery/discovery. Using what I learned here, from you all, from being with all of you. This is an amazing group of amazing people and you all better know that.
I’m having a meeting today with an experience expert (if that’s the right word) who teaches a course in integrating my own experiences into my profession. Hoping to join that course which starts in a couple of weeks. Hoping to gain some more tools I can use.
Have as good a week as you all can friends. Whatever happens, make it clean and sober. Using, drinking or giving in to addictive behaviours doesn’t help with anything. Love form my new workplace where the sunsets aren’t half bad either.
@Mindymoo Maybe worrying isn’t useful but thinking about it might be. Thinking how to build up your sober toolbox, a box filled with both physical tools and mental ones that can help when an urge to drink hits. Think and look up some strategies you can use when the addicted part of your mind will tell you it’s OK to have just one. Or two. Or many. You can do this, and have fun too, but you better come prepared.
@BrianP You’re in my heart and in my mind today friend. You’re not alone. Strength and love to Penny, to you and to yours.
Day 61. Just got home from work about midnight… back in the am, then have a couple
Le days off. Going to take my kid to the bay for 2 days to see the tigers hopefully get some wins against the giants. Sober father son baseball=the good stuff. Looking forward to it anyways. Wishing everyone happiness and continued sobriety! Much love!
You are checking in right here right now Pedrom! No fixed things to do here. You can share whatever you want (within the rules of the forum that is), whatever is useful for you in your recovery. Happy to have you aboard, together we can do this!
Welcome to the party! You’re going to love it here; everybody is awesome.
The best way to do a check in is just write about what you’re feeling and what you’re going through, and what you’re doing to stay sober. Read the other check-ins to get an idea of how it works.
I don’t know whether my day is beginning or ending. I nodded off in the middle of the day (again) and so I’m wide awake. I got a lot of errands that have to be run today and I don’t know if I should take a 3-hour nap and hope I wake up on time, or just stay awake. It’s 3:30am here, so our friends across the pond are probably the only ones awake at this time. How are you guys doing?
I’m doing great @SassyRocks and @Dazercat, I’ve been busy busy busy clean and sober. I’m still running long distance(sometimes half marathons) 5 days a week. I looking forward to my 3rd year soberversary next month.
Hope you all are well, love and miss you so.
Blessings and sobriety!
Morning! From the UK. I am up late this morning. My sleep schedule is all over the place. Fortunately I have a flexible, work from home job where I can shift my hours about!
I was reading your post about the walking and can partially empathise. Although I see you have possible COPD - I hope you have caught it early enough and it is reversible! Sounds like there is some hope. And the Camino de Santiago is a pretty awesome goal/ motivator to help you work towards it.
I’ve been really struggling with my energy levels for about a year now. Turns out I am iron and b12 deficient. Probably have been for 10 years but a lot of doctors don’t know how to read blood tests to diagnose this stuff apparently. I wonder if that’s the underlying cause of a lot of the mental health stuff too. Anyway. It really fucking sucks when your body just will not do the things you know it should be able to, and has done in the not too distant past! That whole process of having to readjust expectations and find the balance is exhausting in itself. Then there’s the actual exhaustion
Hopefully largely reversible in my case but it’s likely to be a good few months or maybe even years to fully address it. I have my share of foot stamping ‘it’s not fair’ moments and I allow myself them. The antidepressants I’m on now help me to not wallow too long in them. And apply the wonderful lessons I have learned from sobriety and this forum.
That’s completely me. Like most people my age in recovery, I feel this overpowering need to make up for lost time since I spent my best years being drunk. Now I’m not young anymore so I’m squeezed between my need to do something and my physical limitations. Sometimes I just want to say “F**k It!” and drink. But I know it won’t help.
The Japanese have a saying; “The best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago. The second best time is now.”
Start of the school holidays here, I was looking forward to it but omg the endless bickering between my younger 2 today makes me grateful this school break is only 2 weeks long.
I actually had fleeting thoughts of having a drink this afternoon just to help me relax from it all but I know it’s not actually going to help anything and I’ll be damned if I throw away how far I’ve come. Plus the idea of a hangover scares the beejezus out of me so not today little voice of temptation, not today.
I think it might be time to hit up a meeting this week, not sure how I’ll do it but I’ll make it happen.
Have abit of upcoming stress with moving in 6 weeks time and the idea of it all is just too overwhelming at times. I’m super organised and have my check-lists done and boxes ready to start packing but the “doing” part is stressing me out already.
Ahhhh, one day at a time. Just gotta take everything one day at a time and all will be ok.
Day 479. Enjoyed a five day mini vacay that culminated with a wedding. Lots of booze, very few over-intoxicated people that I could see. Had I been at my drinking worse I might have really made a fool of myself. This is a great group of people and I would be feeling very bad today. Instead…I feel great! Happy Monday all.
Day 23
Doggo has settled in so well. Eating, playing, sleeping. How I’ve missed such a beautiful companion so much. $200 bed but alas last he slept with me just to let him settle in. Tonight I gave him a treat to entice him onto his bed and he was quite happy to. So so happy.
Hey all checking in this am along with my other self-care rituals before I get up and moving
Doing good overall taking it odaat. Working on Step 3 an action step…as I’ve been reciting step 3 for months…it helps me surrendery own will and leave it up.to God.
Having fleeting feelings off and on for my ex so definitely noting that…working through it. Addictions are awful but help us to learn on our recovery.
Slowly getting yoga business arising…thankful helps iny recovery.
Yea I get it! Although I came to sobriety early. I am in my early 30s and having wasted my 20s being shitfaced I thought this decade might be good for me. So far not so much…! But I guess our best years are whenever we have our best times. And it’s easy to look back on time ‘wasted’. But those experiences bring us where we are now right? So let’s agree our best years start now and we make that happen by removing our expectations of what they ‘should’ be like? If we always wait for everything to be perfect then the best years will always be behind us, and we won’t realise it until it’s too late.
Spent the weekend walking around the city with my dog, listening to some good music, visiting markets and working a little bit. Feeling grateful for the time I had with the people I love. Been feeling really happy the past couple of days, waking up with a smile almost, haha. Not something I was feeling 3 months ago so feeling super grateful for that. Taking it one day at a time. Life is good sober. Have a beautiful day friends.
