Morning all, checking in day 15 clean
Third day in a row I’ve started my day with a short run. I like this. The feeling after running is positive: it’s like a calm satisfaction. There’s also a feeling like a pressure valve has been released; it’s helpful. It helps me stay constructive in my mindset.
This week has been steady, moving forward on some personal and some professional projects. I’ve been playing the guitar more this week, working on my fingerpicking technique; I’m glad to be doing music. I used to have a negative / discouraged attitude about things that took day to day practice (like exercise or music) but something these days is different. I’m not sure what.
My wife and I heard that there are some preliminary meetings happening about us at our adoption agency about next steps. Still have no idea of timeline but I am feeling some excitement. It’s been 3 years so any step forward feels nice
I’m nervous about work. Nothing specific, just kind of a dull hum behind my day to day life. I’ve had this for years: worried I’m forgetting something, worried I’m moving too slowly. Partly I think this is my ADHD brain always itching to act, any action is better than no action; partly I think it’s a restless fear that I’m not doing enough or I’m not doing the right thing, again related to ADHD, which has had me hitting brick walls and questioning myself since I was a child.
I’m still saying special prayers every morning though, since Jan 2022, taking some morning meditation time, and it is having an effect I can feel. I am more grounded than I was a year ago, in a noticeable way.
One step at a time folks, that’s how we do it
Haha @SassyBoomer good for you! Rest is what we need
@Misokatsu good for you on the running! It’s a nice feeling in the morning isn’t it?
@Lotusflower sorry to hear about that - these battles are exhausting - take time to rest and care for yourself, and focus on things that are growing; you’ll grow with them
@AyBee what about 525,600 minutes? How do you measure, measure a year? That’s a cool trick, I like it, keeps it clear. Good for you on the 3.1 years!