WoooHooo 
Way to go Melissa!!
Congratulations on your 50 days!!!
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Checking in before bed on day 1,512.
Had a housewarming party this afternoon for my neighbours. Great to meet some new people and get to know people Iāve said hi to a little better. We live on one of those roads where youāre new if you moved there in the year 2000 so want to make an effort to join in.
I put on the invites that there would be tea and soft drinks and people could bring something stronger if they prefer. One person brought their own wine. The other 20 people just had what I put out and it was fine.
So happy to do this kind of thing sober. I canāt imagine it any other way now to be honest. It makes me cringe to think of being tipsy and maybe tipping over into trashed. I know I used to feel I was my best after however many drinks. Yikes! I still feel like my self esteem isnāt the best but remembering that makes me realise how much more self confidence I have.
That is a good reflection to end the day on!
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Great to see you Joy!! Hope you are well. 
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Day 253 AF
Working OT today.
The kids have been keeping me busy. I havenāt been going for walks. Been feeling lazy. Iāll try to get back on it tomorrow. I havenāt been craving alcohol tho.
Have a great day yall!
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I hear ur disappointment and I too would probably feel pretty defeated. But just bcuz this camping trip was a bit tough with the hiking DOESNT mean that u canāt hike the Tahoe Rim Trail or the Camino de Santiago. Maybe ur stamina and endurance just needs to be built upon. Meaning maybe making time a couple times of week (or whatever fits ur schedule) and work urself up to being able to hike that! Dont let urself get discouraged over a hurdle that can be changed and improved on 
for example: I used to be run for an hour straight on the treadmill (when I was at my fittest) and could leg press 340lbs which was alot for me at that time. Do u think I could do that now? Hell no 
does it bother me? Yes BUTā¦ I can get there again! And u can get to where u want to be!!! I call them baby steps. Begin challenging urself physically alittle everyday so that eventually (sooner or later), u will get there! Challenge that character defect! 
itās not true my friend. U can do it!
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Checking in
Day 132
Work is over and honestly Iām soo glad. I am so dehydrated from working in my clients suite in the middle of the summer, with a winter hat on and a thick padded bite jacket on. Her suite was hot bcuz she was cold and thatās fine, she can adjust the temp. But I was roasting. We went outside and she started trying to attack staff/Neighbour vehicles so we had to block her form everyoneās cars. Grabbed my coworkers bite jacket on the way back and tried to attack her so I had to separate her from my coworker. I felt bad for her as it must not be easy with her mental health and intellectual disability. I really donāt take it personally but at the same time I do get tired. I put my all into supporting my clients. They deserve the best quality of life they can have. I do have to say that being clean and sober really improves my job performance. I can be screamed at and thrown stuff at and called names, grabbed, blocked, charged at and attacked and I still surprisingly stay so calm and neutral. Itās like it doesnāt phase me anymore. Struggling to go to work ij the past not feeling my best really put me on edge I guess and I was alot more jumpy or aomething. I burnt out quicker I guess ud say. Today I am grateful for my recovery, grateful for u all, grateful for this day and for being alive! 
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So good to see you Joy! Hope youāre doing well. Big hugs.
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Day 685
Now we are regularly hitting the 35C mark I have my usual summer blues in not being brave enough to wear short sleeves at work because of my sh scars. They are noticable but not terrible, but I just worry about the studentsā and colleaguesā possible change of attitude to me, and talking about me behind my back. Makes me feel crappy every year. Crappy and sweaty.
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I miss everyone so much! I have been reading through the daily check-ins and some other threads but I honestly donāt have the energy to respond to everybody, although I truly wish I did. This covid really kicked my ass!
I read some posts about other people having it and it not affecting them too badly which Iām super happy to hear, but itās frustrating that for me it has made me so sick even after my vaccines.
Iām definitely starting to feel better than I was, but Iām extremely exhausted. I want everyone to know that Iām still here and I still think of everybody and when I read the posts and see your familiar names I feel at home and more peaceful.
Sending love to you allā„ļø
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Back to day 0 the gambling, I need to apply the same awareness and principles of recovery as I did and still do with alcohol and drugs.
Itās always a lot easier to say than it is to do but I seem to be gambling without any thought, step outside myself for a few minutes before the action happens.
I canāt do anything that doesnāt result in excess and every obsession can be overcome with the same spiritual shift of attitude and some work on the character defect.
Greed, self-indulgence.
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Rest up and get your health back. Covid can be a real kick in the arse. Stay hydrated. You matter
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Oh yeah itās been hard lol,
Iāve drank a lot more energy drinks
Than I have my entire life 
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Do you wear a uniform? If not, there are some really lightweight materials that let the air flow and wonāt smother you in heat. Also there are cosmetics that cover really well. Look up tattoo cover ups. My granddaughter has the same scars and she says just about any waterproof foundation of the right shade will help too.
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Thank you Dana! Iām certainly going to start walking more, and definitely have to quit smoking. The biggest problem is not that Iām a little out of shape; problem is, I seem to be developing COPD. Iām not sure if that can be cured. I do have my inhalers, and Iām going to get more exercise but I may be stuck with it. 
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Hello sober friends. Checking in on day 380. Today was simple. I managed 16 miles on the bike today and watched some episodes of Loudermilk tonight. Tomorrow I will try to make it to the office. Hope you are having a peaceful day / night.
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Oh Iām sorry I shouldve known that. I hope my post wasnāt offensive then. I hope they have some sort of remedy for COPD. My grandmother had that and i saw how difficult it was to even do daily tasks of walk to the bathroom i really hope they can do something for u so that u can accomplish ur goals
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I take inhalers also. A emergency inhaler and a steroid inhaler. I used to take prednisone to help with my asthma when it was super bad. Thats the reason why I HAD to quit smoking cigarettes over a decade ago. I couldnāt breathe and would always end up in emergency. But yet I continued smoking drugs 
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No offense taken! You didnāt know. Itās a pretty recent development; I used to walk everywhere all the time, and a few months ago I realized I was getting winded just walking to the bus stop a block and half away. Iām in the beginning stages so if I start taking care of this now, I might just be okay! On the other hand, my father died from emphysema and I absolutely do not want that to happen to me.
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