Forgot to check in yesterday. Kinda out of it after the long drive from work. I read some posts and then crashed out. Not whole lot going on over here. Stayin sober, dealing with the kids, excersising, wake up and repeat. Sobriety might be boring AF, but I tell you what, I don’t miss my drunken nights. That’s for damn sure.
Anyways, proud of everyone on here. Reachin milestones. Seen some high numbers. Very inspirational to me. My prayers to those who lost loved ones . Stay strong. Much love.
Not gonna @ peeps today. I don’t wanna leave anyone out.
Yall have a great night. Keep fighting the good fight.
@Miranda I did that so many times. “It’s ok, it’s ok…oh no, suddenly it’s not ok”
@DryIn785 Perseverance is many short races, not just one long one.
Day 697
Feeling so tired recently, and resentful and not good enough. I am pretty sure I have been forgetful with my meds, so that is surely not helping. I just want someone to give me a hug and tell me they love me, but the fact is, even if someone did, I wouldn’t believe them, or would think they were saying it out of pity or obligation, so it wouldn’t mean anything to me anyway. And I know I should be filling my own cup, not relying on others to do it for me.
I already checked in today, but this feels like the best thread for this thought.
An old friend from high school just reached out to check in on me and see if I’d like to grab sushi this weekend. Of course I said yes, who doesn’t like dinner with an old friend in a relatively safe environment?
Then it hit me. No sake. I haven’t had any real cravings and that was never a drink of choice, but something in my little lizard brain was let down by the thought of the meal without sake.
Now I’m questioning if I even like sushi or if it was just another thing that led to drinking.
Thinking about you @Its_me_Stella … sending you a strong crystal for your pocket, your favorite one, the one for strength and security for your sobriety and self. It is good you thought all this through before the weekend started. Hope you are feeling strong and determined to not let “it” win. The party with the drugs IS over… that party is over and has been for a long time… 922 days gone…
You can dance all night when you feel like you can literally dance all night without it sending you into craves… Until then take care, have fun and remember that your life is better ‘without’, you love your life Free without the substances… that is what feels good and feels the best!
Mexican food was always about Margaritas for me. I thought I’d never be able to eat Mexican food again. Ya, our brains will come up with a lot of stuff to keep us thinking about the drink. I went to my first Mexican restaurant after I quit determined to do it sober. It’s just another meal. Besides I drank at every meal. There’s no difference because it’s Mexican and I think margaritas. Or sushi and sake. It’s just another meal. Plenty of sparkling water and lemon and it’s hangover free.
Sparkling water has been a savior, I’ve gotten really in to putting berries in at and using fun cups to make it more of an “experience” lol I think sake was the only meal-specific alcohol I drank, probably why it stood out just now
Thanks Alisa.
Hitting the pillow clean tonight, I had no doubt i would, it just felt weird going clean. I will admit it was very different but I feel great knowing that I am capable of having fun without being loaded. Everyday I learn more about myself, and most days I am surprised by who I am faced with. The person I have been living as for 46 years is only a sliver of the woman that I am and that is pretty exciting. I can’t wait to see what comes next.
Good morning Mindy. I am well and getting ready to Just waiting to let Minnie out for her final Whizzy. Then I can go to bed. She rules my bedtime.
Do Americans drink a lot of tequila? Possibly. Much more than you Brits I’m sure. It’s definitely very popular down south and southwest.
Have a lovely weekend. And your having a summer!!! Omg how lovely for y’all. I’m very accustomed to British weather. I love it. Good luck at the match today. Enjoy your untypical weather.
Thanks for the shout
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Coffee. Weekend. Had a much better workday yesterday. Talked about the incident with the aggressive patient last Sunday and will talk about it some more in a meeting next Tuesday. At least I feel heard and taken seriously. That helps. Having a nice relatively relaxed workday helped too. Weekend will help me as well. Have as good a weekend as you can all friends. Make it sober and clean. It’s the only way. Love from Amsterdam.
Just a small reflection: I got in some serious therapy after going sober. Since then I’m thinking a (little) bit less and feeling a bit more. Took me almost 2 years of therapy so far. For me that’s key I feel. I’m not done yet, not by a long shot if I want anything that resembles a happy life. 50 years of abuse, first by others and then by myself to myself isn’t going to be turned around in a year or two.
A huge cliche but the fact I’m actually working on it and on myself is everything. No idea about the goal and the future. It’s not the goal, it’s the journey. I’m not just moving “on”. There’s no such thing. I’m moving. Finally. And we live our lives. The good and the bad, the beautiful and the ugly, the ups and the huge downs.
Hi @Misokatsu. Whilst I know the comment wasn’t aimed at me. Your words struck me “Perseverance is many short races, not just one long one.” feels so profound with where I am at in life.
Thank you. Your words are just what I needed to hear today.
Good morning everyone, up and at it. Getting ready for a meeting at a 8 with a peer, nerves are not to bad with
My new meds. Hopefully I can hit gym again later, so I’m already meeting my usual goals. I think this weekend I’ll take it easy and not worry about any crazy goals. Small ones I’ll start Monday are eye and dentist appointments. I’m feeling very grateful, excited and just loving my self. Have a good day
. Stay strong. Much love.
how lovely for y’all. I’m very accustomed to British weather. I love it. Good luck at the match today. Enjoy your untypical weather.