Uf! I wish I could give you a big awkward hug in front of your husband and say, “Is that so hard to do for your wife when she’s had a bad day?!” You did brilliantly getting through that without succumbing to an urge to numb it away. 
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Oh sweetie, sorry about your day. Those damn pesky emotions can really get in the way sometimes especially when your day is too busy to take time to analyze why it’s happening. You stayed sober through it though and that is an absolute win. I hope your today is much better 
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Day 7. Gratitude and working the recovery path
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Hey all, checking in on day 736. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Sorry to hear about your shitty day Fleur. Those days suck, when it feels like you’re oil in water and nothing’s staying coherent or connected or constructive.
Take care and get some time in for your self reflection. My experience with those days is they signal there’s a missing piece. I had a day like that yesterday. I reflected and realized I need to dig into some of my personal hang-ups, some addiction related and some not. I have scheduled an appointment and will do that.
The body keeps the score (the feelings do too) 
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That sounds awful. I’m proud of you for not giving up, Fleur. I sincerely hope that tomorrow is a better day.
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@Mno @Becsta @Jesile @RosaCanDo @SassyBoomer @Matt @icebear
Thanks so much for your kind words. Feeling really grateful to still be sober. Just goes to show you can always have bad days and cravings and forks in the road. Not sure what saved me today, just that not drinking is a habit, maybe, I don’t get undressed in public, I don’t scream random swearwords for no reason, and I don’t drink. I definitely did a detailed 10th step email today, and I am not unaware that this day comes on the tail of my triggering Friday nights. Some fine-tuning definitely needed in my life.
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Look at that present, happy, sober Grandpa! This picture made me smile.
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I’m on day 472! Whaaaaat? I’m hoping the 500 club will have me! 
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Woohoo! That’s awesome!
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Checking in day 3.
Woke up today feeling like I was thinking and moving through mud. It was one of those mornings. Not entirely sure why, though I suspect it’s related to the building emotional weight as our opening date gets closer on July 6. I’m going to lean into this feeling, spend some time with it, make friends with it, accept it non-judgementally, listen to it.
Listen to it. I need to listen to it. Listening is such an important thing.
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I am sorry for you. It’s sounds awful. Good you made it through this sober. It’s hard but there is growth in it. 
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Morning Check in
Day 126
Good morning TS fam! Monday is starting out well for me. Hit the gym and trying out a new workout plan that hubby helped me with. Feeling better about my recovery. I don’t have that little thought of doubt anymore that I can stay clean for long periods of time. Just for today (literally). Grocery shopping is on the agenda for today along with making my appts for bloodwork etc (to check on my health). Some cleaning and doing my best to stick to my eating plan. Hope everyone has an addiction free day!
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Omg ur post breaks my heart. I really hope ur okay. I know u stayed sober but mentally and emotionally I hope ur OK. Honestly life sucks sometimes and when we don’t get support from those we love, it hurts even more 
u are loved my friend. Really you are! Ur not alone and I’m glad ur still fighting for ur sobriety. No matter what happens, just don’t pick up. I’m sure u have alot of people on here to msg if u need help but plz know that I am one of them 🫂
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Good day all.
What does AF mean (aside from “As Fuck”)? I see it around and I’m honestly confused.
Anywho having a decent day despite work woes. Started exploring some cbt today so if anyone has some good resources for that I’d be appreciative.
Hope everyone here finds some peace today and is safe.
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Day 10026.
I made a tough decision this morning. I was told years ago about a sister who died when she was two and I was a few months old. The story was horrific and these days would have ended with my alcoholic mother in prison. Having recently done a dna test and found my half brother who I adore, my sister has been on my mind a lot. I need to know. I know it won’t change anything since both my parents are deceased but I need to know. It’s eating at me. I look at it as facing part of my trauma past. Please keep me in your prayers during this journey. I will send for her death certificate come July. Perhaps then I can process and let go.
Another beautiful morning in Florida. Drinking my cup of coffee and watching the antics of the six week old puppies. Enjoying the quiet of the house as the rest of the humans are sleeping in. Not much planned today, the perks of retirement lol.
Raising my coffee cup in a toast to all you beautiful souls living the life of recovery one day at a time. We are all miracles
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Hello good morning 
I am clean 2 years, 3 months and 29 days Thanks to my HP and the program of Narcotics Anonymous. I am so happy because I am under a weight number that was mentally bothering me… 3 more pounds and I have lost 30 pounds 
I am so proud of myself for doing it the healthy way and putting in the work to change my eating habits and start working out. I usually in the past would just go to ED behaviors like restricting and lose weight like that or try to maintain my addict weight like that but I don’t want to go back to that… it sucked being as big as I was but I learned a lot of self-love and acceptance. No matter what size I am I’m still the same person with the same problems… anyway, I am just happy. I have to go into work at 9 and I see my friend who is very nice and is about to have a baby. I hope I make some good tips… I have been saving my tips up as best as I can to get a car eventually. I am very grateful to wake up and still be clean. I had a using dream last night that I was trying to get heroin and then I saw my HPs name written on like a flag and yeah… my HP shows up a lot in my dark dreams and saves me. But anyway JFT I am clean! Have a good day
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I thought it was “as fuck” for the longest time lol. Then I found out it means alcohol free
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Jus my said a prayer for you. Take care and trust your heart
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