You should be!!
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I hope itās a better day than yesterday. I doubt it. But I do have an Alanon meeting to look forward to either tonight or tomorrow. But it doesnāt matter if Iām depressed or happy or sad or whatever feeling comes my way.
Iām not drinking today. And Iām probably not drinking tomorrow.
TS has been my only support and thatās why Iām on here daily. I couldnāt get where I am today without you all sharing and supporting me.
Thank you.
Especially you new kids. I need you here to help me stay sober. Keep sharing. It works if you work it and your worth it.
Just for today I will have a program. i may not follow it exactly, but I will have it
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Hey guys. Checking in day 24. Its been a while. I have been sick for the last 2 days having pain in the throat area, neck pain and headache. Today I am a little bit better.
I have been dealing with urges especially yesterday. I had them all day. I could have relapsed also but did not. I am having images and scenes popping in my mind. It may not be intense but it seems tempting and thats the trap.
I am telling myself to not fight the thoughts and let them be. They are not permanent and cannot harm me.
Have a great day guys. Peace.
@Dazercat hey. Congrats on reaching 900 days. Thats huge.
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Still moving through the day. Itās a steady day, not glamorous, a lot of little tasks around the home office, including cleaning my work car.
Using thoughts are swimming around my head. They are unwelcome. I am posting here to expose them to sunlight, to open air. Hiding them feeds them in the echo chamber of my mind. Getting them out, gets them out - of my head. Get lost, assholes.
Contacted a new therapist who is more specialized in my addiction. I need to dig into this more. This will help me get past this plateau. Working on it 
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Thank you for sharing, Iām thinking of you and sending you love. 
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All I can say is CONGRATULATIONS and WOW!! Youāre such an inspiration for so many out here, including myself! I hope you have an amazing day, even though yesterday wasnāt. As everyone has told me many times, ODAAT 
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Eric my wonderful friendā¦ I am SOOOO proud of you!!! It hurts me to hear u hurting. U are a wonderful person and life truly just is hard some days. Iām sorry ur feeling down 
today is a new day and I really hope and pray that things improve for you. I dont know exactly what is going on but when I am discontent for whatever reason, it is usually due to a lack of acceptance in my life. They say acceptance is key 
itās a hard one for me personally to do but I do find that when I accept people, places, and things exactly as they are in this moment, it does help with some inner peace for me as I am no longer āfightingā it and no longer trying to change it. U my friend have the power and the ability to view ur world from whatever way u choose it may be hard to be happy but sometimes the littlest tasks can make a huge impact, or stepping out of ourselves and helping others does wondersā¦ even gratitude lists which I know u love to do! And from what I do know about ur story, ur incredibly strong. Iām proud of you for your recovery and your accomplishments. Will be praying for you today in hopes that u find some happiness and joy in ur day š«
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Congrats on 900! Youāve certainly earned itā¦
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Hey Eric! Iām sorry youāre so bummed out, you want to talk Iām always here for you. 900 days is just fantastic; remember youāre a winner and an inspiration to everybody even on days you donāt feel your best.
@Butterflymoonwoman Iām with you 
on the acceptance. It has been a constant thorn in my side as long as Iāve been trying to get sober. 
I honestly believe I could get out of the relapse cycle if I could just take life on lifeās terms.
Have and happy and sober day, TS fam!
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Congratulations Eric you are so awesome and such an amazing person!!! Thank you so much for being here for me and all of us, enjoy your 900 days bro fuck yeah!!! 
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Day 80
11 days until I break the longest Iāve been sober from weed since 2016 and longest ever for drinking.
Back from a few days off; the husband and I took a much needed retreat to Homer, a sort of renowned fishing town here in Alaska.
We spent a lot of time on the spit and had a great time eating so much good food and I was sober for the first time going on a getaway and loved it. We talked about how much better this trip was for us.
Even with a setback early on with our sleeping situation and having to change hotels last minute, we were able to resolve it and never argued once, then were able to laugh about it right after. A first for us.
The rest of the time was fantastic.
I decided for the sake of not perpetuating unhealthy eating disorder habits and mindsets, Iām not resetting my bingeing clock. I ate a lot, but I was on a vacation and Iāve strived HARD every other day of the week for a couple months and constantly resetting on that is unhealthy.
Iām not unhappy with my choice and it was very liberating to not view as a failure, but a rest and a retreat to not obsessively patrol myself for a couple days. To let it go. I deserve that. I work hard.
Back to the regular schedule today and feeling more refreshed and ready to do the things. Had a great morning and going to keep living in this day.
Have a great day
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Day 170, things are going well thankfully but still very alert. The nice weather is always a temptation for me but Iām strong lately. Adding the gym to my exercise plan has only helped me, boosted my confidence and self pride.
I havenāt posted or been on for ages so I just wanted to say I hope everyone is ok 
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Thank you
@RosaCanDo
@Rockstar24777 Iām enjoying it now 
you guys always cheer me up.
@maxwell
@Deep
@Butterflymoonwoman acceptance is key. It does wreck my inner peace when I donāt have it. It can be hard sometimes. Letting go of expectations goes right with that one too. So I just keep putting it in Gods hand. Seeing you here every day now for your 126 
You are the poster girl for inspiration. Iām so glad youāre all here.
Thank you Mark @DryIn785 ODAAT appreciate that.
Oh and if anyoneās counting, I got 899 days in a row of gratitude lists. It works for me.
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Good afternoon all. Checking in on day 304. Nice day so I went out and did some fishing. Caught and released a few trout from the fly rod, was very relaxing but head got a little burned! Looking forward to a good rest of the day and hope everyone takes care and stays safe!
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@maxwell @DryIn785
I guess that Iām probably about at the same point at the two of you, Iāll hit 10 days in a few hours.
Iām pretty happy about that. I got up to 20 days before this bout, but buggered it up ! I think that Iām doing pretty well now.
At the local grocery store, I have (at least twice) walked through the (very big) wine / alcohol section - itās between the bakery section and the dairy stuff - and I cruised right on through without stoppingā¦ looking aboutā¦ thinking aboutā¦ and certainly without buying !!
Iām hoping to get my Swiss residency card pretty soon, maybe even this week (God willing), so that I can properly work on really getting myself set up there again.
Iām looking forward to it !! And it will be even better SOBER.
Have a good evening, all.
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Hi all Kat here checking in Day 13
Sorry for missing check in went to sleep for literally a few days. Missed meeting last night, but today I feel awake and motivated. Organizing my move for the end of the month
Love Kat
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I have a DOUBLE move coming upā¦ once from my flat into a house, and then back to Switzerland !
Isnāt moving just a ton of fun ???
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The dreaded feeling of being full. I understand this. I am occasionally bothered by this still. Something I started a few years ago, when I started getting a much better handle on my ED, was drinking organic celery juice first thing in the morning on an empty stomach. I learned this from the Medical Medium. The celery juice is part of the regimen he recommends. I was also struggling with food intolerances and allergic reactions to some. Celery is a root and contains many minerals however, it is a diuretic. It will clean out your system! It does strengthen the stomach acid and help rebalance things in the stomach as well as help repair the lining. It helped my stomach and liver a lot. He has a book titled, āLiver Rescueā, which I also loosely followed. Itās hard with an ED to follow any regimen or program too closely because of the fear of falling back into old patterns but I did the parts that resonated with me. My stomach does pretty well now considering everything I put it through.
It took time though. He recommends daily celery juice but that was difficult for me to do. It seemed like abusing it as a diuretic to me. I didnāt need to drink it everyday and I donāt drink it regularly anymore. Now itās only when my stomach feels off or I need help moving things out.
I found this because I was looking for an accessible way to help myself. I donāt go to traditional doctors or therapists anymore. I feel most donāt know what theyāre doing especially with people with EDs even if they claim to specialize in it. Iām sorry theyāre pulling the āyouāre responding so wellā when youāre not feeling ready. Hopefully by reaching out they can offer you some type of safety net to have in place to help catch you if you need it.
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Day 738 clean and sober today. I hope everyone has a great day I love you guys!!!
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80 days!!! And almost a personal record! Your vacay sounds so lovely.
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