Change is so hard. The moving, taping boxes, releasing old stuff. It’s so hard. I know that this is but a moment, and you’ll be set free soon. Working and moving is a HUGE DEAL! Hugs for you, you deserve the best and brightest situation. You are a big inspiration to me and I’m thankful for our friendship.
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Day 109
Grateful for my mom. I have to write hard things. I need to get out of the horrible thought loops.
My new favorite thing is this podcast, Simple Stories in Spanish. It is sweet beginner listening stories that are exactly the level I need rn. I am back on duolingo after giving up for months. Took high school french which helps.
I also am watching shows in Spanish, many options and I have heard watching/listening lots is better than trying to immediately speak. So I am watching La Reina del Sur and Catfishes Colombia and Mexico…only spanish subtitles for Catfish but its actually great because its still easy to tell whats going on and hopefully in time pick up vocab.
Have not been able to read a book for weeks. Only triggering shit on the internet. Which probably contributes to depression and fog.
I cant believe this is my life. I cant believe this is anyones life. Just, wow.
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I’m so glad ur able to find some gratitude even in ur hardest moments. That truly builds that relationship with God. When we can be grateful even during hard times and have that faith. Ur doing well 
even if it may not feel like it
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Wow what a day for u!! Omg that would’ve drove me up the wall!! I love your outlook and attitude on this situation. I often wonder what I am supposed to learn from certain situations? Like I believe that we can learn from every opportunity or struggle that comes our way. Maybe I think too much?! Lol idk but when I hear stories like urs, I often wonder what the lesson was 
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Checking in day 1120 sober
Huge belated congrats on 2 years @Fury 
And @SadMemeQueen Happy 20th Birthday lovely, I LOVE the new hair colour 
Well the covid symptoms are easing but I’ve been hit with a sinus infection that I’ve now started antibiotics for so I’m hoping that kicks in soon.
Haven’t been feeling the greatest and struggling with fatigue, have just been trying to catch up on +200 new posts on this thread alone 
Trying really hard not to sit in this emotional funk I’m feeling. I really don’t do sick well, I want to be able to do everything I normally do and find it very hard to stop and rest but I know that fighting it will only make it take longer to get better. It’s just frustrating sigh
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Thank you 
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That was one of the nicest responses I’ve ever read. Thank you
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Day 113 of no self harm
I watched one of my favorite musicals with my gf this morning.(hadestown) we’re normally pretty quiet when watching things but her microphone was broken so we text while watching it and we didn’t stop talking all the way through. It was a great feeling.
I went bowling with 2 of my friends today. I haven’t seen one in at least 2 years and the other it’s been at least a year. It was so much fun. Neither of us wanted to leave, we bowled from 2pm to about 5 when one friend left. Then my other friend and I played in the arcade for a half hour. 4 games of bowling. I forgot how much exercise it can be, I’m so exhausted but in a good way.
I tend to feel pretty depressed when I come home after being with friends. Just realizing how far my mood drops when I get home is horrible. My mood has dropped as per usual, but not as much. Usually coming home makes me start to consider self harm, but I have no urges right now. I’m actually doing pretty good compared to normal.
Thank you everyone for the birthday wishes. Your kind words mean a lot.
I know for tonight at least I’m going to be okay. ODAAT
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Yay this is such a win in my books!!! It sounds like ur thinking is changing abit from ur norm so that’s good!!! I am so sorry I forgot to wish u a happy 20th birthday 
so a huge happy belated 20th birthday to you girl! I scrolled back and saw ur beautiful hair! Honestly that color is GORGEOUS on u!!! Couldn’t have picked a better color honestly
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No worries about the delayed birthday wishes. Thank you!! Sending all the love
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Checking in on my actual Day 12, usually I’m posting before the day change since I marked my sober time at 10pm on the 1st day. Today was better than yesterday, no serious thoughts of buying or drinking, so that’s a win. Don’t plan on drinking tomorrow 
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Belated birthday wishes! Sounds like you had a really nice time on your birthday! I hope that your every day can have some of that joy and interaction in it, that makes you feel good about your life and yourself, and helps you feel that you are OK when you get home. Life can be hard, lots of times the good times help carry us through the bad times. Best wishes to you on your journey. Take care of yourself, know that you are cared about and that every day good wishes are being sent to you. Your hair looks awesome also.
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Hey Miranda 
Glad you found us.
When I first started my sober journey I hid this app from my wife for about a week or ten days. Well I didn’t hide it I just didn’t tell her about it. We drank together a really long time. I just got tired of it. And tired of planning my life around my next drink. Anyway….after a week or so I finally found a good time to talk to her. Usually while walking the dogs. I told her how important my sobriety is to me and that I really want to do this. She said she would support me. But she’s going to keep drinking. And she has. Just like most peoples lives, Some days are better than others. I start every day on the gratitude thread and checking in here. And just maybe a meme or 2. I hope to see you around. You’re definitely not alone. Vent, rant, do whatever you got to do on here. We got your back.
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Day 249 AF
Feeling drained today. Worked, and did some laundry.
Nothing much going on. Still sober. Still fighting the good fight.
Have a goodnite everyone!
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Literally nothing to report today. Brief rain last night didn’t do much to stave off the heat/humidity. Only left the place once to grab some groceries. Took a small nap and didn’t wake up until almost 9pm. So I’ll be awake all night again. 
Spent most of the time I was awake watching camping/hiking videos on YouTube, which just makes me want to get out even more. Good news though; i just realized I have two weeks as of today. And I forgot I’d gotten myself some ice cream, so that was nice to discover.
But I was sober today, so I guess I’ll call it a win.
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Seeing this made me happy. I’m so happy for you. Congratulations on the milestone and great job on all the time and hardworking you’ve put into yourself.
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Coffee. My therapist tested positive for covid too but isn’t really ill so my session today will happen, albeit online. Myself I feel almost back to normal. Did quite a long shopping bike ride yesterday. I was a bit overenthusiastic maybe, as I felt really worn out towards the end. But I made it home, got some nice produce from my fav growers/grocery and visited a very pretty botanical garden in yet another part of town. Now I feel physically tired but not bad overall. I very probably will be back to work tomorrow. Sober and clean.
Have as good a day as you all can friends. Make it clean and sober. It’s the way for us all. Love from VU university botanical garden.
@Becsta Hope you’re getting better sober twin.
@DryIn785 A sober day is always a win Mark. As is two weeks. Congrats!
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Congratulations! You are going to run out of room for all these awesome badges. To do all that you have with the pain and frustration of a broken ankle is amazing 
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Great to hear you’re back out and about enjoying some sunshine!!
I had a bit of a whinge on here earlier today lol. I’m still not well and have been given antibiotics for a sinus infection. Fatiguing very quickly also. Mentally feeling very low and physically exhausted. But it will pass x
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Checking in this morning. I haven’t felt like I have had much to say really recently.
Not had the best week in terms of health. The Doctor called about my ultrasound and my gallstone is 9mm so I am being referred. And my liver was slightly enlarged and fatty. And my cholesterol is high. He wants to manage that with diet so my life has just become even more restrictive. I am now a gluten free vegan. Everyone wants to have me at their parties 
Work has been good though, it has really clicked this week so really happy. Seem to be finding a nice balance to life.
Thank you everyone for contributing to this thread, so nice to read everything.
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