Day 5.
Well, it’s been a journey so far. I’m working through the uncomfortability of self-love. It’s pretty incongruent with my brain chemistry right now lol.
I am trying to learn discipline and impulse control in order to not only combat my addiction, but other impulsive behaviors that have an impact on my life.
Trying cognitive behavioral therapy techniques to do so, and setting up a rough schedule of items and a to-do list every day.
It’s about learning to get things done, and feel good about my accomplishments again. Garnering confidence slowly along the way.
But shit, is it not easy. It’s a hell of a lot easier to explode internally with some alcohol. Drunk people don’t think about the future when they’re drunk. In the long term, I’d much rather have a tougher time recovering sober, than a tough time a brazen alcoholic.
I learned that discipline and responsibility are not fun activities. I thought sticking to my plan would be a remedy to my soul. It can be I suppose. Maybe it’s just my PAWS dragging me along for a tougher ride. But they free up the mind in order to enjoy something more fully later. Once the list is done, it’s a great rush of joy and pride. Internally, I just put a lot of pressure on myself to do it perfectly. Which when writing it out, seems silly lol.
So here’s to another vow of not drinking. If only for today, the only day that matters. And heres to a softer touch to my inner dialogue. Through all these bitter relapses I’ve experienced, it’s tough to not judge myself. But im going to work on that today.
Thanks guys.
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Yeah, adulting isn’t always fun. But the longer you make a habit of it the more natural it becomes. In fact it can become something that you can hold your head high because of. No more running. Instead you become proficient at dealing with life on life’s terms. It’s a lot easier to find a solution with a sober mind. Congrats on your five days!
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Amazing activity with your kids. So happy you’re here sharing and being strong. Hope you have an amazing sober weekend. One day with intention at a time.
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Thank you lady!!! Hope u do also! We got this day!
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Good morning all. Checking in on day 309. Two more days of work then a few days off. Can definitely use a little extra sleep. Did just get a phone call from @anon53116147, checked to make sure it was good to post on his behalf. 18 days in and he is sounding very strong. Completing all of his assignments and being honest and open. Not much more could be asked. He even asked if I could look into some IOP programs, I mentioned awhile ago I have some friends that run a few of the IOP’s nearby, so I am excited to see him seeking aftercare. I will keep everyone posted! Take care and stay safe.
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Good morning,
Checking in day 12.
Yesterday was a little hard in the afternoon.
Beer was running like a non stop banner through my mind. Didn’t cave watched a movie with my daughter and partner, had some sushi and 2 NA beers. Played some board games and headed to bed at 9:30. Woke up this morning at 7am and my sleep app gave me a 98% sleep score 
. I was worried for the weekend as we had no plans but my daughter has a soccer game at 1:30 and I’ll have a pool play date with my sister. Love spending time with my nephews. Not worried about Sunday as that is my chore day so I’ll be occupied cleaning. Hope everyone has a great sober weekend.
ODAAT 
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This is wonderful news from @anon53116147. Thanks @HillbillyChris for sending them to us! Mike… you are missed! Thanks for the update! Proud of you and can’t wait to read ur posts when u sign back on!
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Hey sis, funny you ask. I came home from Mariano’s buying some GF items, but they also had my absolute favorite bakery donut, they’re glazed croissants, delicious! And I’m eating it with coffee right now. CONGRATULATIONS on 2 weeks, it’s a definite milestone to be proud of. 
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Hi Miranda, stay strong. I hope your husband and Dad come around and see how important this is to you. If we could all have just one, this app would exist! Enjoy the rest of your day 
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Thanks Eric, couldn’t have done it without you and many people here! I love Jon Stewart & Stephen Colbert! Did you ever see the skit with Colbert and Steve Carell, they are waiters who are nauseated by food. If not, I’m sure it’s on YouTube. Have a great day!
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Nice, that sounds like a great treat. I am not quite at my 2 weeks. I will hit that milestone tomorrow 10pm. I am for sure looking forward to it. Let’s keep going.
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Oops, I was a little early, sorry about that! My days roll over at 10pm too! We got this!!
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Even more of a sign we are definitely sisters 👯♀️ on this journey!! One journey I’m really happy to be fallowing too is @Mindymoo. She’s pretty early on just like us.
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Morning Check in 
We like to watch it sometimes just to see what John Batiste is wearing. 
. Is there anything he can’t wear? Have a great weekend. I got your back.