Thank you hug.
Nice to see you checking in.
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I am consistently flummoxed by American governmentās attitude toward health care. Itās seen as a privilege for the wealthy and not a basic human right. You know what is a basic human right in America? Assault rifles. 
Iām not being melodramatic when I say Iām considering moving to another country. Expatriation is an option for my future. Especially if Pumpkin Face gets into office. But I digress. You hang in there, and you let yourself have a meltdown when needed!
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Oh hun, itās perfectly okay and normal to have a meltdown. Thing is, once we get clean or sober we no longer wallow in it. We push through with determination figuring out our feelings as we do. Acknowledging them, working on them. Heck, I had a massive meltdown myself the other day. Today we can reach out for help, for suggestions and for strength because we are no longer alone. Iām so glad you came back. We all care about you.
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Rob your growth is a beautiful thing to witness. Have a great day.
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Checking in. Itās been an eventful 24 hrs. I shared some of my traumatic sexual assault history with my Mami and it was a huge weight off. I am definitely aware that by sharing with her I put some weight on her shoulders and it was a difficult choice, but she was so much more validating than I could have ever asked for. She said that it made so much more sense to her why I came back from college a different person (here I was thinking I was hiding it) and why I needed to numb myself for so long. She said a lot of lovely things and left me feeling loved. Iām so grateful for her. Now we have to figure out how to or even whether to tell my dad. He will be angry and sad. This was 20 years agoā¦itās a hard choice to speak this truth. The first person I told was my now husband. Iāve alluded to it here also. I see now that therapy is going to be really important for me. I wonāt numb anymore but Iām left with the trauma still and the political climate that is almost a daily trigger. Iām so grateful to be sober.
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Huge, huge courageous step my friend. I am so glad you were met with compassion and motherly love.
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Me too! I had no reason to doubt that would be the case but I was still so terrified. I donāt know what came over me but I felt like I really needed to tell my story.
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Good Afternoon, Checking in day 16
Things this week havenāt been eventful. Meaning I havenāt had struggles with anxiety, or cravings. The week is going pretty smooth. Happy to be sober.
@Mno Glad to hear you are fully recovered from covid.
@Barbtarbox Yay way to go 9 days 
@maxwell Glad to reach out and support Sober sista. I hope that you soon start to feel better.
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You got this Rosa.
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This is so brave of you. I am not sure if you have listen to the podcast Soberful (podcast recommended here and I love it). In episode 7 talks about chipās story which talks about sexual abuse, the trauma he went through and the impact it had on his life. Sexual abuse is a big factor for a lot of users/addicts. This is a big step and happy that you have had that weight lifted off your shoulders. Thank you for sharing.
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Awww thank you sis and yours is as well!!! You have a great day too!!! 
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Day 40 - Well I made it to 40 days. Today was me taking the sage advice of others.
@SassyBoomer I talked to my flat mates and they put my mind at ease about my worries about taking too much of their time and space. It was a good validating conversation which dispelled my anxiety and fear for a spell. Thanks for the advice.
I also took the advice of a work colleague who suggested I pick myself back up and carry on looking at houses as a back up incase this one fell through. It was the right advice at the right time, it got me out of my funk.
Iāve been thinking today about my reluctance to ask for help. I have always tried to do everything on my own and I described asking for help to a friend today as ālike nails down a chalk boardā. The reason I feel this way is because I feel like I am taking advantage of people when I do so, I feel like I am not contributing and to a certain extent not living up to my own expectations of myself (which are frequently unquantified so I can never meet them. Its a thing to work on.
It felt like I was letting lose my emotions today, they were wild and panicky but with other peopleās help I have turned it around. I need to get past this reluctance to ask for help. Maybe if I do I wonāt run myself into the ground like always and fall back into my addiction.
Tomorrow is another new day. I hope I can make it count. Wishing you all the very best and sober day.
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Hi everyone, Iām sorry that I havenāt been on the site in the last few days, but all is well, Iām about to hit 19 days, so Iām pretty happy about that.
Things are progressing with the move back to Switzerlandā¦ I went in today for my photo to be taken for my ID card, and I should (hopefully) be picking up a car on Friday.
Other than thatā¦ all is well.
My ex-girlfriend in Russia is STILL in the hospital, and sending me little messages from time to timeā¦
Goodnight all.
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Iām so glad you had that talk and eased your mind. Sometimes itās the simplest things that help the most.
As for asking for help goesā¦everyone needs help at some point in their life. If you struggle with it try telling yourself that at this point in time itās something you really need but that in the future you plan on paying it forward as you can. Some day you will find yourself in a situation where you recognize that another person needs help that you can provide and that will be your shining moment. None of us get through this on our own. In recovery we learn how to pass on what was given to us.
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Checking in 14.5 months sober.
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Checking in, 37 days of no hangovers. 
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Thank you for the support @Its_me_Stella @Tragicfarinelli @mindymoo @Lovelyoutlook and others. Itās a lonely existence to be hiding this and Iām so glad to be finally moving the process forward again.
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Everybody needs help! Look at it this way. If people donāt want to help when you ask, itās up to them to say no.Youāre not responsible for how they feel or respond. You canāt read peopleās minds either. Donāt assume they have negative feelings. Check the facts.
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Day 151 AF
There are days flying by I barely think about alcohol. Itās safe to say drinking isnāt a habit anymore. But I still see it a bit like an old friend and a forbidden fruit which is dangerous. Iāll have to keep my guard up. Happy with the 5 months, looking forward to 6. Good night everyone!
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