@RosaCanDo I know I am more than happy to share the weight if my childrens’ burdens, you have a close relationship with your mum, I am sure she felt the same.
@Rockstar24777 Your life has meaning everyday, even if you don’t know it.
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Awesome!! great feeling isn’t it.
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Thank you very much Fleur 
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Congratulations on 5 months!!! 
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Day 256 AF
Nothing much going on. Work, staying busy with the kids. Wake up, repeat. Gonna get back into cardio tonight.
Stay strong everyone. We got this!
Much love. Take care.
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Evening Check in
Day 135
I have been quite irritable for most of the day. I have really had to watch my tone and body langauge with my hubby. It’s not his fault I’m like this. I am still not feeling 100% better physically (I don’t feel ill. I just have a stuffy nose). So it could be that pissing me off. Or it could be my body still adjusting to low carbs since I started keto. Or idk. Anyway, I’m still clean and sober. Tmrw is an early day. I have a very early appt. Then home to start baking a cake for an order I have. Some cleaning. And of course recovery related stuff. Hope everyone has had a good day!
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End of Day 3.
Feeling ok but a bit tired.
Slept in every morning, and today feeling more tired than normal and I understand that’s normal. Also heard from the guy I met, who is on his second day. Bought him lunch to celebrate.
I know tho, that I should be focusing on myself and my sobriety first. Is is bad that I just wanna go over and chill out in his company? Everything I read and researched says to wait … a year! And my rebellious nature immediately says F-that BS…
Feeling confused, so instead headed home after work. Checked in here, had dinner, now gonna take the pup out on a long walk.
This sucks tho tbh hahaha and I know I know one day at a time
Yay day 3 right!?
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Hi all Kat here for a late check in on Day 21? Or something like that.
A good day although did not do much recovery stuff, no stepwork or meeting. Did phone sponsor. Went for friendly visit with my ex-husband to a sports bar to play trivia. Stuck to plan to drink diet coke the whole time not tempted by alcohol.
Phoned sponsor, feeling great clean.
Move in 3 days so rush to pack is on.
Love Kat
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Day 688
Only morning at work today, and husband went to Costco today so don’t need to cook. Got some grading to do and maybe do a little Japanese study.
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A huge congratulations on finishing up day 3!!! Really proud of u! Keep at it, one day at a time
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Great job getting back into exercise! Hope ur evening is a good one!
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How did your day go today? Just thought I’d check in since u were having a rough few days 
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For sure. Getting back into it. Been feeling super lazy. Everything is good here. Can’t complain. Sober is the way.
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Another Sober Day, been tough for a couple of days withdrawal.
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Thanks (as always!) for the support and guidance @Sassyboomer.
I think there are two big things that cause my reaction to asking for help.
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I’m always super critical of myself. It’s a mindset I need to work out how to change.
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My brother was a gambling addict. He spent a number of years lying to me and my family, borrowed copious amounts of money and never really got to that point where he seriously wanted to get clean from the gambling. He relied on my parents heavily and one day he just left, disappeared forever, leaving his young son and partner in the lurch. It devestated my dad and left me and my mum really angry.
Whilst the rational part of my brain tells me that I am not him and that he was an addict just like me, I have this part of me that vowed to stand on my own two feet and not rely upon anyone else, otherwise I will be just like him.
I have had counselling about his disappearance as it affected me deeply (particularly the fact he left his young son a few months after my little boy was born).
The great irony is I am struggling with forgiving both him and myself for our actions when we both have our struggles.
It feels like there is so much to unpack. But I’ll start by trying to be kinder to myself and accepting the help of others so that I can pay it forward in the future.
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Late coffee. Slept in a little bit. It’s another beautiful day until it will start raining later. Might be up for a little bike ride today, yesterday I got some good food from the other side of town and visited a friend. Feeling pretty good. Sober and clean.
Have as good a day as you all can friends. Make it clean and sober. It’s a necessity for a better life for all of us. Just for today. Love from my friend’s garden.
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Day 26 AF
Been keeping super busy with work and general life stuff and feeling really good 
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Please celebrate with me, with your non-alcoholic beverage of course. Can’t believe I made 3 months. Thanks for everyone’s support and sharing your journey. It helps a lot 
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Congratulations to 3 month of soberness! 
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True! True!
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