Woot woot congrats on 90 days. 3 months is a lot of work!
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Alisa thank you 
I really needed to hear this tonight. Ur words really touched me and it reminded me to lean on God when Iām drained and sad. Thank you so much for ur words 
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A quick check in as I get ready for work. And for another sober and clean day. Thereās no other way for me and all of us. Clean and sober or nothing would come of my life. Recovery is work but itās a work of love and Iām doing it one day at a time. Have a good one all, or at least as good as you can. Love from my little square.
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Congratulations with the 2 years! 
And I like that key tag with your sober date on it!!
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Thank you, I thought that might be the case. A friend of mine who has been on the same path recently gave in due to that constant voice telling him heās missing out. Itās hard to ignore at times and it makes me upset but your right, itās not worth it 
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#Day 1410 
Have a good day at work @Mno , Iām heading on for work too within 1 houre.
It was a short night. Went to my band rehersal and there where drinks afterwards. Because I ride with someone else I have to wait untill she decides to go home.
Because of my bad hearing these days itās difficult to be in a noisy group of people. Itās like being with my head in a box trying to hear what others are saying 
The surgeon appointment went well, I do not have to come back. Bye hospital! 
Picture of the tower of our church. My yesterday walk was no nature, just concrete.
Have a nice saturday people!
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Glad I spotted your 
days before I go to work Chris! 
Congratulations! 
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Iāve noticed VR helps a bit but I havenāt been able to use it very much lately
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Day 150 of no self harm.
So I wasnāt able to log into my computer for work today. And I contacted my manager and he never got back to me. He asked for my logins and they never responded. I understand that he has a lot to deal with, he has two people including himself, managing over a hundred new hires. Itās just extremely frustrating and this company is awful. Iām in a new training class but because he wonāt respond to me, I missed the first day of training, half of the second day, and now I have missed the entire third day. I canāt be missing more training it was already so difficult to be put in a new class. Iām just so stressed and I hate this job and I hate this company but I canāt stand the idea of quitting because that means Iām farther from moving out.
I actually have a few positive things this time.
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I got my TV today, so Iām now able to play my Xbox in my room and it is amazing.
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I ate two meals which has not happened in a long time. I also had a bagel. Iām not very happy about it but I know that itās a good thing
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When I was setting up my tv, I had to clean this pile of junk I had in the corner of my room. I found some of my old hiding spots for razors from when I used to self harm regularly. I actually found upwards of 40, but I immediately threw them away without a second thought and Iām very proud of myself. I donāt remember hiding away that many ever, but I think that showed me how sick I really was then and how much Iāve grown since. Normally I would sit and think about using it and I would have panicked, but it was instinctually just throwing it away and I didnāt even have a second thought I just immediately threw it away
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Glad you are feeling a bit better! I have never tried VR, have to borough one from my youngest to try.
Iām not a gamer, never was.
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DAY 8
Proud to survive yesterdayās evening cravings again! Washed my car, had a short swim and ate 3 healthy nice meals. Sent out a few apprenticeships, too. And donāt forgetā¦ Doing nothing, chilling, meditating, dreaming.
Today i will clean up a bit, reorganise and arrange some parts in my apartment, do some workout or bike ride and relaaaax.
And nowā¦ Coffee 
Thankful to be alive!
Enjoy your day today!
Julia 
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Hi everyone. My name is Daniel, Iām 23. I got on this app to try to stop self-harming, an addiction that took hold of me for a long time and was how I dealt with any negative emotions I was feeling. Itās still very hard, I still think about it any time Iām feeling upset, hurt, angry, etc. I still see the spots on my body where I did it and itās like a constant reminder.
I struggle a lot with depression, anxiety and trauma. Itās hard to find other outlets for these feelings and I donāt have a strong support system in real life.
Today was a pretty bad day for me. I was the closest to relapsing Iāve been in a long time and itās scared me. Iām feeling discouraged, depressed and afraid today.
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Good evening all! Checking in on day 343. Today was my first day back to work since Covid. I am still testing positive but have zero symptoms so they okayed me to go back to work with a N95. Afternoon started okay but after an hour I was physically drained and it was from doing next to nothing. By 8 pm I was spent physically and mentally which is not good when dealing with dementia patients specifically. Kept it together but it was a trying night. There were quite a few moments where reverting back to my alcoholic tendencies seemed so much easier, just say fuck it and go home and be a shell of a nothing. But then I think back at the person I was to who I am now. Ten years ago I was drunk handling and detonating explosives almost daily. A little over a year ago I was vomiting up my first three drinks because my body was rejecting anything I put in it, it was shutting down and now I am back to being an EMT, working with dementia patients and almost done with my 12 year degree so I can help others like us, so there is no doubt which path Iām going to choose. No matter how hard things get or seem it will never be as hard as it was living the way I was. Sorry for the rant but felt like talking tonight and itās 230 am here and everyone I know is asleep! Hope everyone had a great day or night and stays safe.
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Here is the link to the article I was talking about. This is my first time to post a link and I hope it works. Using weights for mental health and PTSD. With the hopes that would help with the binge eating and your wanting to escape to risky sex.
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Welcome Daniel! Very good place to be and you Will be very welcomed and supported!!
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I really appreciate the welcome and Iām thankful for everyone here
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Good morning Mindy. You crack me up. I could listen you you all day 
. After awhile I started learning about all the different wonderful threads on here. I started of just doing gratitude for the longest time before I branched out. But I do like to see foodie stuff from around the world as I consider myself an ex restaurant pro. We just had our last night.
https://talkingsober.com/t/foodies-unite-5-trigger-warning-food-take-another-little-pizza-my-heart/143307/1162
Have a wonderful sober day.
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Day 5.
Feeling good again today. Will be busy until late afternoon which was my top up start time every day. Today though I have gardening to do and also have a look at the gardening thread on here. Loving life at the minute. Hope you all have a good day or if not good a better one than yesterday. 
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Congrats on your 10 days. That sounds like like nothing to normal people. But for people like us who struggle every day, sometimes every hour to control an addiction, itās a huge accomplishment. Keep piling them days together. 
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