Things feel pretty good. I have my workout routines scheduled pretty good and for the first time in years I am actually sticking to it.
Some days I have slept less than I would like to and my old habit me has tried to tell me to skip the gym which is what I would do often before because I was hung over or really tired from going to be extremely late. Now I am keeping myself accountable and if I am tire I make sure to go to bed earlier to catch up on sleep. My daughter has a slight cough right now so I hope it goes by quickly. Sheās in good spirits though. Happy to be reading everyoneās shares of accomplishments or life in general. I understand things cant always be peachy.
@DryIn785 I hoe your day is better today. Itās tough when its hot and humid out. I hope your cravings will soon be gone. Donāt let the little voice inside you be stringer. We got this. @Mindymoo Glad you had better sleep. @BrianP I hope you are feeling better. Must be something in the NA beer that doesnāt hit you well. @onthewagon31 Hey good to hear you had a great time. Social outings can be tough. @Beth2 Nice way to go 5 days. @Butterflymoonwoman congrats on 5 months @Piglet86 Glad to see you back and sharing
My daughter and her dad both tested negative when we had covid late last year.
She just went swimming this past weekend. Weather was hot and lately our early mornings have been chilly when we take off in the mornings.
Day 573, going to my first NA meeting (there are no good AA ones in the area) in years. Didnāt like previous ones, but my feeling tells me to go. Maybe there is just a time for everything and it certainly wonāt kill me
Iām struggling a bit with my mental health, severe anxiety and feel riddled with guilt for so many reasons,- trying to remind myself one day at a time especially when I feel like I have today.
Had panick attack in the grocery store this morning all from thinking too much about stuff.
Iām not worried about drinking at all. Just got to get through today mentally, its 7pm here so might catch an early night.
What I have noticed is I usually sleep or get into bed by 9-10pm and wake by 4-5am and that when Iām good I like this routine it makes me feel good like I have structure.
I know when I cant sleep my mental health is taking a downward spiral and itās been bout 4 nights of staying up through the night wide awake sleeping in missing half the day and I get all weird.
Anyway apart from that Iām okay.
Iām just so glad that I can turn to you all when Iām like this and can read others posts.
I dont know what I would do without you all, I hope you all know how gratefull I am to have you all, and have this space where Iām understood.
Hi, I hope yours subsides too, yes out the blue it really kicks me down.
Iām going to stick on here read around, it really seems to help.
Hope you are ok
Hi, 1st of all, Congratulations on 287, that is quite an accomplishment to be proud of. I was thinking about you this morning, but didnāt want to be a stalker, so Iām happy to see your post.
Panic attacks are awful, itās been a long time since I had one, but what I always told myself, PAās canāt kill you, take long slow breaths and tell yourself, this will pass. Of course it took a little bit longer on those steps, but thatās the basic I used. And guilt sucks, itās an emotion that hinders our ability to move forward. Unless youāre guilty about doing something in the moment, you have to tell yourself, itās in the past, nothing I can do to change the past. What I can do is be the best self I can be today.
And me looking at you from the outside, I think youāre pretty damn special.
I hope you get a good nightās sleep and enjoy the rest of your evening.
Iv been doing quite a bit of exercise, and I hadnt eaten all day due to just not being hungry, and Iām thinking H.A.L.T Iām probably all of these things as well as maybe not drinking enough water.
Iv been out today for a long walk, shopping and met my cousin, Iām hoping an early night and vet up early do a workout, I think I need to wear myself out more and your definitely right about getting out of our own headsā¦ i literally think i caused my panick attack with my thoughts, there wasnt an outside trigger it was all me.
Thank you for reply itās nice to be able to just get it out and sa hey Iām not ok. Iām not worried il drink though so thatās good.
Your so lovely Thank you for being here always making people smile and thinking of them. Itās nice to be thought and cared about.
I also care for you,
The guilt is more of I should of, i didnt kind of thing, Yes the past something i canāt change.
Message anytime you like, I dont mind.
I think a mixture of not taking care of myself when I think I am is playing a part here too.
The exercising and then not eating until late and not drinking enough water. I need to find the balance.
Also I hadnt had my chamomile and lemon balm tea today it really does keep me calm.
Your so thoughtful, I can feel in my chest the anxiety just coming in waves now itās not as intense. Just being able to talk to you and everyone here is making me feel not alone.
I always say it I dont know what Iād do without you all x
How have you been?
Iām just reading up posts as I go.
Ah, the guilt of not doing something or getting something done. Iām so guilty of that too!
A couple things Iām working on is patience and stop beating myself up (guilt). Weāre definitely our own worst critics, we need to give ourselves a break. Iāve been terrible about not eating too. I know I should, I need to, but end up forcing myself to eat something quick before bed. Itās so dumb.
Other than that, Iām okay, on Day 33. Thanks for asking.
@Butterflymoonwoman A massive hug and a huge congratulations on your 5 months.
Glad I am able to witness what a beautifull milestone. So proud nd happy for you.
@Piglet86 congratulations on your 19 days, hope your son and family are okay. Thank you for your support.
@KellyKelly I hope your feeling a bit better, emotions can be horrid,even causing physical pain. Just want you to know your not alone and I hope it eases for you. Also congratulations on you 104 days thatās amazing.
Everyone congratulations on being sober today Iām reading through, but will be impossible to reply to everyone but know Iām reading them and I notice your achievements
And Iāve been spending a lot of time working on this. Gluing tiny rocks to a sticky board (aka diamond painting). Keeps me busy but absolutely kills my hand, but canāt stop! A lot of the left side is done.
33 days thatās brilliant, your doing really well super proud to see the days stacking up for you.
(Il have to work out these gifs )
Yes your eating sounds like what Iām doing.
The sleeping is definitely a key trigger to it all for me, when my pattern of sleep is going well I forget how unsettling and emotional it can be when it changes for the worse.
I try to concentrate on all the positives and be gratefull.
I keep saying Iām really missing human interaction and think I need to get to a face to face meeting- just dont know why i havenāt done it yet.
Also I find when I am not on here, even if itās just an hour or two when Iām in bed my mind gets all weird on me. I guess its Iām letting my routine slip and then it just chain reaction for everything else.
But not so easy when sleep is all messed up.
I might put a film on and get into bed soon, read around here, itās one of those days where the film will go on but I wont really be watching it.
Thatās really nice, great to keep your concentration on one thing, and not to be thinking.
This actually very pretty, i used to love doing cross stitch when I was younger.
I enjoy drawing which I started recently but havenāt done for a few weeks.
I think I need to sit down and do like a daily routine and stick to it for a week and see if when Iām struggling just pulling out the week routine see if it gets me back on track. Like having my own crisis plan for when I notice it all going to sh*t.
Checking in sober from Boston Logan Airport with my four dollar AHA sparkling water! Headed back home after an exhausting, but glorifyingly sober, work trip on the east coast. Today is day 398.
Congratulations @Butterflymoonwoman Dana on five months! Super proud of you!
Kevin is adorable @Piglet86! My grandfather used to call them Whistle Pigs.
I canāt even!! Girl!!! š„¹ You are amazing!! This makes my heart so happy. 5 whole ass months!! I always knew you had it in you. You NEVER gave up and youāre a true inspiration! And pretty damn badass!!!
it really does keep me calm.
hope your son and family are okay. Thank you for your support.
A lot of the left side is done.
