Happy Friday! Its a wet one here today but we need the rain. Hope you all have a fantastic day!
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Hi everyone, I hope that you are all well.
Over here, Iām slowly but surely getting my new (albeit temporary) house in order, I shall be sad to lose this place !! Oh well.
How do you do those GIFs @maxwell ? There are some pretty funny ones !
Iāve had to take a bit of a break from studying Japanese and Turkish, just too much to do with the moving and all. But I plan to get back to a somewhat more ānormalā schedule tomorrow, though I have to drive to Switzerland on Sunday or Monday.
Other than thatā¦ all is quietā¦ but damn warm ! For those of you in the warmer parts of the US (or elsewhere), Iām sure that you can relateā¦ you know that itās hot out when you keep the windows closed all day, except for FIRST thing in the morning !!
Have a nice evening, all.
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Hi. Glad you are feeling better todayā¦ hopefully next week will be better still
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12 days today. Iām so determined this weekend, this Friday did not feel as much as a struggle as the lastā¦ so Iāve made it further than the last time and feeling good. Feeling Iām making progress and that feels good.
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Thanks for that reply, hope youāve a wonderful day 
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Checking in
Day 151
I feel really defeated and frustrated with myself right now. I have been really focused on my health lately and have been on keto for almost 1 month. But the last week has been BRUTAL. I feel like my body is rejecting itself. I was in so much pain I was crying today bcuz my stomach hurt soo bad. I got stuff at the store which I thought would help me and I ended up getting sick. Everytime I eat I hurt. I just gave up on keto. I ate a bread sandwich and within 20 min my stomach started to ease up. I now have to find a better fit for me when it comes to food. I canāt go back to my old way of eating. I wonāt allow that. But where do I go from here? Back to research I guess. I wasnāt listening to my body for like a weekā¦ pushing myself too much to try and make something work that wasnāt. I did get results but I also suffered for them. Sooo I need to go back to the drawing board.
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Yayyy, hopefully we can keep up the journey together 
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If I were you I would take all of the intellect out of the equation. Get out of my head and into my heart. Research smesearch, my heart knows what is best. Mindful eating of a balanced diet, sprouted grains, organic fruit and veg, grass fed meat if you are a meat eater stay away from too much sugar (or if your like me away from sugar all together). If I think about food I am screwed I need to do it all by intuition and from a place of love.
Dana try not to be too hard on yourself, look at how much you learned during that time. I am not sure about you but I have never even considered feeding myself properly until now and I am 48, I am learning too. Itās a miracle that I even love myself enough to work at this. I make lots of mistakes and thatās ok.
Glad your tummy feels a bit better.
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Hi Dana,
I have done keto for a few weeks with a good friend whoās a nurse. Keto is not really something for the long term, I look at it more as a kick starter type of diet. You will lose weight. But what happens on your body it can go into ketosis, once the body breaks down the fat, it will continue to your muscles. Similar to ketoacidosis that is usually associated with Type 1 diabetes (my son is Type 1) Itās essentially a starvation diet. (Super low carb diets can do it too) Donāt give up, treat it as a kick start and add some healthy carbs. Please listen to you body, but you got this girl!! 
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Hereās some signs:
ketoacidosis ā excessive thirst, frequent urination, nausea and vomiting, stomach pain, weakness or fatigue, shortness of breath, fruity-scented breath, and confusion.
Itās nothing to worry about long term, once you ate the sandwich you felt better. Your body was just telling you to ease up a bit. 
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I think this is sound advice. I try to do pretty much what you just described.
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Thank u for this info. I could have possibly been there. I shouldve listened to my body long ago. There were times where I felt like everything went black and I felt like I was going to pass out. I never did bcuz I forced myself to pull out of it. But Iād get a massive headache afterwards. Idk what I was thinking 
I ate an apple just now and my body feels good. I guess it just wasnāt for me. I will still watch what I eat but I think Iāll increase my carbs from 20 to 150. I think thatās normal.
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I really feel what ur saying ur in ur post. I actually am really upset with myself bcuz I have been trying to work on self love which is listening to my bodyā¦ yet my initial idea of self love was to lose weight and be healthy. But it backfired and I ended up not listening to myself and feeling soo ill. Yaā¦ im glad I stopped it. I really need to eat to nourish my body and to feel good! I did learn alot tho ur right. It stopped my binge eating and my overeating. I can still stop this even if I eat healthier. I just really need to be mindful otfwhat I put in my body and the reason why. Thank u for ur support xo
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108 days 
The weekend is here. Rainy and gloomy still. Iām
Not feeling 
at the moment. And I know I should pop down to the gym as I wonāt have great opportunity to be outside in this weather but Iām not feeling it.
Iām working on a new blanket, going to get the snakes new house set up this weekend, and try relax a bit before the work week. School is back up next week too, which means so it music lessons, football training, games and swimming. So Iāll try enjoy the calm before we get back into it.
Still having a slight identity crisis since I stopped drinking and stopped working a super social job. Iām in a really weird transition phase between who I was, and who Iām going to be. And it feels reallyā¦ empty. Im still slightly grieving an old life, old vices. Sex used to be another addiction of mine, and that stopped some time ago, which also feels like another tie cut from my old āexcitingā life. Although, it wasnāt as great as my head builds up. It was a really stressful and guilt filled time too.
Anyway, thanks for listening. Have a great day guys, and stay sober.
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Checking in at day 82! As all Fridays go i was up at 4am did hour gym sesh. Got to work at 630, Iām in construction and build Boulder walls! Was off at 5pm. Got home and just finished yard work so I donāt have to worry about it this weekend! Old me would have went to liquor store bought my weekend supply and would have been half in the bag by now! Feels good cutting dead weight off my life! So many activities to do now! Still on the fence about this adulting thing though lol
Have a great weekend everyone! Stay motivated and as always one day at a time!!!
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Day 272
I get my 9 month milestone tomorrow. Trip out. Excited for that. I am still goin strong, fam.
Frustrating day at work. Usually I would drink a few tall cans after a stressful day. The kids have gone mad too. Yelling and screaming in the background. Bro, Iām surprised they havenāt fired my ass with all the noise. Remote gigs aint all that. Ima grab myself an iced coffee, and then walk it off.
Have a great day everyone! Stay strong. We got this!
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Hi Kat here Day 41
Been an ok day, started with some morning cuddles with my bf which was wonderful. Was able to provide a clean urine sample for my addiction docās review, every time I do I remember the days of sneaking, cheating, and worrying about such tests.
Didnāt get to the gym which I feel bad about but going to use that as motivation to go tomorrow after work.
Am a little worried because I felt disconnected from my recovery today for some reason, I had to keep reminding myself that I was safe, had no access to drugs, and wasnāt going to use. I did just go to a meeting and reading on here, so likely the feeling will pass.
Have a great sober weekend my friends!
Kat
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Day 122
WHEW I AM CRAVING
Loving my new place, loving doing DoorDash and making some money, love the city and everything there is to do. But when Iām home alll I wanna do is pop a bottle. Idk why, nothing particularly triggering or stressful has happened especially now that Iāve mostly settled in. I just wanna have a drink a play some games, yesterday it was driving me nuts around 11am so instead I found literally the closest sobriety clinic to me and walked in to sign up. Got back on Nal pills within the hour, thank god. Also got Gabapentin to help with the anxious cravings. Itās helped a bit. I just picked up some cans of strawberry sparkling water to hopefully try and sate the craving to crack one open and chill. Wish me luck!!
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Just blah tonight. Maybe just tired. Hoping to get some rest and wake up refreshed.
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