Checking in daily to maintain focus #45

Day 274

Good morning everyone,

Busy morning with the kiddos. Gonna go visit my mom later on this afternoon. No other plans.

@Piglet86 congrats on 3 weeks
@Lovelyoutlook proud of you. I knew u could do it. It’s a trip right, seeing other folks drunk.
@Bluekoolaid I know the feeling, bro. It hits me from time to time. Everyone is out drinking and having fun, and I’m over here doing nothing like a fool. Watching chess videos. That’s what I am doing now. But I wasn’t doing ish when I was drinking either. Playing loud music, pissing off the neighbors, drunk texting people, driving around buzzed, stuffing myself with fast food. Waking up hungover, beer shits, barfing all day. Those days are behind me. Just keep what you’re doing. You’ll be good.
@maxwell get some Stranger Things. I need to catch up on movies/shows. Maybe I can give The Walking Dead another try. I stopped at season 7. I’m behind on Better Call Saul. I’ll hit those up tonight.
@Sunny11 Congrats on 700!

Congrats to everyone else! Much love. Take care, fam.

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Started watching Stranger Things last night, LOVE Better Call Saul!

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927 days is some super duper time there, well you know where I am if you ever need me, your always there for everyone so if I can be of help back just give me a shout.

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Yes, it’s the 80s, I can relate. I like it so far. I’ve been needing a series to watch, I’m only on 1 ep 2

Happy to try it, all because I made a smart ass comment about what @Fury had on his TV in the background :rofl::rofl:

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Your right about keeping it simple when we have these off moments. You have been through so much and have come so far. So proud to see you posting and even though your feeling abit off your doing so well.
I also make small realistic goals when I’m.down, even just get out of bed and eat, the worst thing is putting more pressure on ourselves then feel like a failure by the end of the day. Your list is good and realistic to finish, and hey if you dont get to do it all that’s fine too. Being kind to yourself is good, hope it is a great day for you.

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I’m on season 3, yes its brilliant. I just have been buying actual books and reading lately in the garden. I have audio but I actually enjoy it out in nature. Hope your well :hugs:

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@Piglet86
@maxwell

Stranger Things is phenomenal and it takes place in the Mid 80s and well is truly phenomenal.

You’ll thank me and yourself for your smart ass comments

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Thank you for reaching out to me. I’m not sure what is going on but definitely feel off. I been trying so hard to stay out of bed and not overthink things . Sometimes it’s just like this . And your right about keeping it simple . My only real goal for the first year was to stay off alcohol and work on my past and mental health . I’m learning every time I make it through something I just get stronger and learn so much . Going to try to stay in today and find some gratitude. I hope you are hanging in there as well and have a good day !!!

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Thank you too, I have been reading books, spiritual topic atm, and that’s keeping me busy and out my own head.
You have the right mind set, hope it passes quickly for you though.

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Thanks dude … it’s definitely like that and comparing myself to other people or the way things used to be but I have to look at it realistically like you said … some times things are like this and I have to push through and let it be part of the process . Glad to see your hanging in there and reaching these awesome milestones … 9 months is major . Keep at it man!! We got this

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That’s a good idea!! I might try to find something positive to read today . I’m interested in spiritual topics recently because sometimes I feel like I’m having a spiritual change or something … anyway hope the readings help :grinning:… If you have any suggestions please let me know. I’m sure there is so much cool readings out there

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It’s a Netflix exclusive so yeah that’s a bummer

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You are always so kind. Thank you :pray:

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Keep going Jenny! Days mean nothing is one day after the other! Sorry to hear that life is being tough. :cupid:

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Yeah he drinks and uses meth, which is where a lot of the problems are coming from, with my first child while I was pregnant I put up with a lot of stuff (she’s almost 5 months old now) but that was before I gave birth to my child, that changes/changed a lot of shit for me. I grew up a lot and have different priorities, unfortunately he has lots of kids has custody of none of them and he hasn’t changed a bit. I’m just getting annoyed and I find this time being pregnant I have no patience for his crap anymore, he’s an asshole and thinks his crap don’t stink and everything is everyone’s else fault but his. I’m trying to save up some money so I can get my own place because I don’t want that crap/ lifestyle around me or my daughter

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I’m sorry you’re dealing with that but I’m proud of you for wanting a good life for you and that beautiful baby! :smiling_face_with_three_hearts::hugs:

Hugs sweetie…

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Do yourself a favor,

I know it’s kinda difficult considering new born one on the way and a shitty family,

Try to have connections you could call safe or build them as you plot your escape. More of a safety net than anything

You said he has a few kids he doesn’t associate with, so the likelihood of him associating with the ones you have well, historically his patterns will repeat so I’m sure you prepared yourself for that

But having a safety net will help ensure success

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665- The sun, the concerts and other people having fun.

Just another day.

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Just another day.
Tomorrow is another day too! :sweat_smile::stuck_out_tongue_winking_eye:

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Yea that’s the plan. He’s all about “being involved” when it’s convenient for him but I agree and have accepted he will treat my children no different from the others he has. Most of the other baby moms except for one don’t/won’t talk to him or have a restraining order against him I believe.
But yes I have a few supports, not to many not much as far as family goes but the ones I do have are good. So I am lucky

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