Checking in
Day 169
I have been bawling cheers of joy for about 30 min now. My Aunt who lives in the States mailed my sons birthday gift awhile back (his bday is in June). We got it today and I am speechless. This wooden box was made out of 150 year old pine trees that were used to build their house. It was made for my sons Beads of Courage (BOC). They are beads given to a child/teen who is coping with a serious illness. Each different colored glass bead means something. So for example black bead is for a needle, white beads is for chemo, yellow bead for overnight stay in hospital etc. For 3.5 years I didnāt have the perfect place for them and now I do. He has hundreds of beads and still continues to collect them. I am speechless. I just wanted to share something so special with u all 
What an incredible thoughtful gift. Amazing 
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First day at the pet Paradise job !! No more computers for now ā¦ got burnt out on that real quick . Maybe this pet resort Associate job will be better for my anxiety and for my recovery. Being around dogs all day today and taking care of them was pretty cool. Have really struggled with work in recovery. All I can do is keep trying till I find the right job. Iām proud of myself for even getting the loan processor job but the grass is not always greener . I still learned a lot and took a risk. Going back to school soon will give me more options and for now I work where I can and try to not over think everything. Still number one is staying off that vodka . One day at a time . Going to stay busy and grateful for the rest of the night . Figure out dinner soon and keep my thoughts positive. I can recover . I am recovering.
Day 1 - Today has been a good day. Iāve spoken with a couple of people at work about how Iāve been feeling (anxious and overwhelmed) and they were both supportive. I had a good chat with someone I have worked with a bit who is leaving. They had a lot of the same ways of thinking I do and I tried to pass on some things Iāve found useful. It was nice to try and help someone.
I was also present a lot more and just went about my day. Iām not sure about anyone else but I find being present quite hard mentally. It takes a lot of focus for me to be in the moment. Iām hoping itās a skill that I can work on.
Iām determined to be more positive and start using positive phrases both in my head and externally to try and address some of the negative views I have of myself.
Itās been a good one day at a time. On to the next one.
There are several things I stopped doing after a few months of sobriety, at 7 months I got confident that I had this under control. Boy was I wrong! 
Iāve been thinking a lot a bout what went wrong, and how to makes things better this time, writing check lists, bla bla. One of them is checking in here regularly. I used to do that in the beginning, but then stoppedā¦
Anyway, sorry for the rant! Only day 3, but heyā¦ pasito a pasito, suave suavecito! 
Ćndale, amiga! Whoop! Great observations. Day by day.
Good for you. Hopefully the first week of many.
Reaping the benefits of health already in the first week of sobriety I see? 
. No you definitely donāt want your resting heart rate down to zero. 
Good on you mate. 
Iām at a birthday party on saturday afternoon. Iāll make the call tomorrow and let them know I wont be drinking alcohol. Then I plan to get there early do what I have to and leave before everyone is drunk. Because theres nothing worse than a drunk talking crap
Lovely gift, and what a lot your son, and you, have been through
One thing that really pisses me off is comments like this. Why do you have to be the bloody entertainer for someone else? If they want to enjoy a party, they should do so by themselves, not require someone else to do it for them.
Congratulations on reaching triple digits on the ODAATās Zack.
Keep up the great work.
Congrats on your 2 weeks Kato
Keep getting better.
Hi Isela,
I know youāre going through a real tough time and making it to 50 is a huge accomplishment! I pray for you and your Grandma. 
Stay strong beautiful lady, youāll always be my sober sister!
Enjoy your getaway 
Thanks Maxine
Your gifs brought a smile to my face
Went to a meeting tonight and there was a newcomer there who was very emotionalā¦ I just want to say to anyone whoās just starting out ā We know, we are you, we get it. You are not alone nowā
Thank you! Stay strong itāll pass!
Well im on my way into my first depressive episode sober. I had a great 93 days. This was inevitable. Not everyday can be sunny. I have 0% energy, 0% desire, uncomfortable in my skin. I hope these feelings dont last for months like they have in the past. Damn i was enjoying the energy and happiness. It eludes me today.
Thank you! Day is coming to an end and onto my next milestone!