I was actually just looking this up this morning, Something about REM sleep after quitting. I’ve been having wild dreams and nightmares, where I’m waking up almost every hour during the night. Even with working all day, exercising and taking melatonin, I’m still sleeping like garbage. I don’t remember it being this bad last time.
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My wife and I are 11 months sober today … 1 year, which seemed impossible, now is well within reach!
Feeling good today with plenty of activities and plans to turn the day into one huge opportunity
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Day 12
I am fine and optimistic.
Not even thinking about drinking alcohol.
Enjoy that clear mind more and more.
Housework, swimming and chilling in the sun, grocery shopping, some paperwork done, eating Gnochi with Spinach and Parmesan for lunch and now… on bed for Siesta (it is very hot in Germany). 
🧚🏻♀ 
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Day 143. I thought that almost by 150 days I would have no issues with cravings, yet last night I dreamt about drinking a craft beer and I could feel disappointment after. It was only a bad dream, but still, will this ever end?
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Not today Satan! Im not going to let my depression win and call into work. I already took monday off. Imma fight thru this damnit
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@AScott congratulations to you and your wife on 11 months!
@Jasty2 the sleep will get better man, watch your caffeine intake (if you drink caffeine).
@Lovelyoutlook congratulations on 50 days! Milestones used to trigger me, maybe that’s what your feeling. Have a good, sober getaway.
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Morning all. Checking in on day 348. My mother is on her way up to NY from GA. Haven’t seen her in years. For sure not since I’ve been sober. So I am curious to see how this plays out. Did not have the best upbringing and I’m putting that mildly but people make
mistakes and she is my mother so Will be heading to see her this weekend. Hope everyone stays safe and takes care.
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I’m right with you on that. I never thought I’d make it one week. Didn’t seem like my body would survive the week yet here we are!
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Just try and have zero expectations, forge a new relationship the best you can. Like you my childhood was really rough to say the least, but my mom was heavy into her addictions and she did the best she could at the time. We all do the best we are capable of or know how to do. Unfortunately, people tend to copy what they see so a cycle of abuse can last generations… we can break the cycle of addiction! My son is 7, and even though I’m less than 3 years sober he has NEVER seen me drink a beer… hid it from him, would drink out of a container when he was awake… worked out okay cause I had to hide it from my wife for most of that time. I hope your time with mom is enjoyable. Best wishes
To put this into further context my oldest daughter thought it was normal for drinkers to drink 20 beers a day really not proud of that.
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Morning Check in
Day 170
Slept super heavy last night so I feel groggy this morning. Going to work on my dreamcatcher again today. Have 1 errand to run also. Lazy day I guess. I might take my son out for a wagon walk in the huge park behind my building. Depends on how hot it is. But that’d basically my plans for the day 
Hope everyone has an addiction free day!
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Thank you for sharing that Dan I appreciate it!
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Yeah thanks Dan, I’m working like 12+ hours a day out in this damn heat. I think I’m definitely taking in more caffeine than usual. I love those little 5 hour energy drinks though. 
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Yeah I have to remember halt and pausing if that anger surfaces. My sponsor spent months just telling me pause because I would start to get frustrated haha. But it has worked. I feel the anger starting to come and I just take a minute and remove myself and I’m fine normally. But it has been quite a few years. And as Dan said she did do her best. I can’t hold it against her anymore. I’m excited and nervous.
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checking in day 4 
I already wasted a lot of time today as I argued with my sister 
She is depressed I think … I don’t know how to deal with her … but I think after hours from this arguement… she is better now 
Dealing with teenagers is sometimes not easy at all … Those mood swings 
Anyways I am getting back to work to compensate what happened 
Enjoy your day:sun_with_face: or night:star2:
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Thank you!!! And have to imagine it is quite difficult. I know not to set expectations but forget! Suppose that’s why I have all you guys to remind me!
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Yes thank you. It feels like my entire life is paused right now and I’m living through chaos. I went and saw the movie Nope, the Jordan Peele movie. I hadn’t seen any of his movies yet but I want to watch the other two now. This one was a good thriller, I had fun. I’m thankful I have a couple friends who are making a point to hang out with me so I’m not alone right now, especially at this house. Thank you for the reply 
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Thank you yes… I think I need to relax 
Girls at that age are really sensitive 
I am really trying to be patient 
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Congrats Rob!!!
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Day 735
So tired. Nature decided to have a rave last night. Weird constant flickering lightning like a strobe light on and off for most of the night. Humidity is high and I just want to go back to bed. Off to work instead. I’ll try to get a nap in later. I hope y’all have a wonderful day!
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Thank you very much sis I appreciate it!!! 
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