Huge congratulations 
2 months is amazing work!
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Things change AND stay the same in other ways. It is such an interesting dynamic, especially when you have been around awhile (5+ years for me). I appreciate those long gone, those still here and all the new people just arrived and to come. I learn plenty from everyone, that is for sure.
I do so appreciate you Rosa. You have always been kind, empathetic and compassionate during our interactions âŚeven when peeved! Good stuff. 
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I want to add some appreciation for @Its_me_Stella (I couldnât find your name earlier!) and @ShesGotMoxie
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I love the way you guys are supporting each other.
@maxwell maybe I wonât get yâall mixed up again. Donât count on it though. 
There was a point I listen to this over and over again. I havenât need it lately. I thought Iâd drop it here for you all and anyone else that thinks they can just have one. Thereâs no fucking way I can have just one. It never ever happened!
Not sure if itâs going to download on the plane 
Iâm glad youâre both here. I donât give a shit how many days you got. As long as you keep fighting today.
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Checking inâŚ
944 days substance free
464 days self injury free
80 days sugar free
Everyday I learn new and important things that help me in my recovery. The first important thing that I learned approximately 15 years ago was that maintaning abstinence is not the same as working a program of recovery. It took me 12 years to pick myself up from that very, very hard lesson but I will never forget it. Maybe that is why I work my program so diligently.
I know how very hard I tried to stay clean on sheer willpower surrounded by the love of my family and under Drâs care. I just couldnât make it past 18 months, I just couldnât do it on my own⌠that was the thing. I was still alone amid a crowd of people who loved me and wanted the best for me. Nobody understood me.
When I finally found the courage to try again I promised myself a year. One full year, I would put everything I had into my recovery and if by the end of that year I was still a fucking mess, wanted to die and my life had gotten no better, then I was going to check out. So thatâs what I did, I put my gloves on and I fucking fought. Good lord did I fight, I fought for my fucking life during that first year. Most of you still see me fighting with my addict, itâs a piece of shit and it was relentless during my first year. All day every day for at least 5 months I had constant obsessive thoughts to pick up. Itâs all I could think about as soon as I woke up until I went to sleep. After those obsessive thoughts slowed down I thought about drinking constantly throughout the day just not obsessively probably until I was about 15 months sober. When my 1 year anniversary came my addict had already settled itself into my eating disorder and I was sick again but when I looked at my life my spirit had been lit and I was not going to look back. I mentioned in a post the other day about this being a heavy weight fight and thatâs how I look at it everyday. I can not put my gloves down⌠ever. Some people might feel safe to sit back a little on their recovery but not me. I am so, so tired of suffering and the life I live today is way beyond anything I ever imagined I could have. I never imagined I could feel this way inside. I never imagined I could feel at all and love what I feel.
I had a rude awakening many years ago and I nearly lost my life but all I can do is be grateful for those 12 long years of pain I endured. I was well primed to go down still throwing punches.
#wedorecover-ifwefight
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It might sound like a cliche but youâre an amazing example of how to fight to be well. Thank you for sharing your fight.
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Youâre just incredible Stella! Truly am proud of you for what you have done and how you continue to fight for yourself and your recovery! 
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Thanks ladies I think that when we finally get to that point of desperation we will either find our fight or the disease ends up taking us out. I just wanted to share a little for the newer people who werenât here when I was posting from parking lots 2.5 years ago, begging for strength to make it home sober. Sometimes I regret deleting my first account and all my posts. Live and learn. 
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You lost me??? 
Love you Amiga.
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Love you back. Yes I did. I was searching and calling out âSTELLLAAAAAAAAA!â
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Yes yes yes!!! Congratulations on this milestoneâ¤ď¸ I was posting on the atheist thread and perusing the foodie thread before thinking about how happy I am that there are corners of this sobriety forum that I feel Iâve carved myself into more recently. Made me so happy that this place (exactly like youâre saying) has enough different folks focused on sobriety to make a corner for everyone. ThankYOU for all of your honesty, humanity and opennessâŚit is always helping me on my sober journeyâ¤ď¸
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90 days people!!! Never in my wildest dreams did i think this was possible! Some power just changed my thinking this second attempt at sobriety and i decided to fight for whats good in life. Feeling so fucking greatful today!
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Congratulations! Thatâs a major milestone and youâve worked hard for it. Well done.
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Congrats on 90! 1/4 of the way to a yearish. Odaat of course!
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CJ: Iâm so proud of you! High five and Hugs my friend! 
Celebrate today, Soberly! 
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That is fantastic!! Congratulations on your 90!!!
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Way to go!!! 90 days is HUGE!
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5 days sober. 100% sober and about 2 months since I kicked the cigarettes.
I do feel good but also really tired as Iâve worked over every day to keep me out of the pub and get that all important 1st sober week under my belt. Next week Iâm supposed to be off all week but Iâm working the 1st 4 days then some ME days, gardening, drawing, walking, reading , cooking anything but drinking. Hope you all are doing mighty fine this evening.
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Congrats on 5 days keep pushing!
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Yay! Congratulations on 5 days! Odaat u got this 
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