The sandman has just released today on episode 6 not a bad watch so far for a Netflix show.
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Thank you 
I will definitely be showing off my tattoo
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Thank you so much! 
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Hi! Thanks for thinking of me 
Iām ok, been real busy at work this week. So tired afterwards. I hope youāre doing good.
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Iām glad your okay, itās nice to hear from you.
Iām kinda basically ok, Iām managing and thatās what matters when I go through these stages
Just having a week of not feeling myself so just taking it easy and waiting for it to pass, without giving it time or attention to grow into something deep that last longer.
So just being positive and gratefull.
Iv been around here reading alot, but posting where I see I may be able to give support.
Iām about to go to the garden and read, I got a few jobs done this week that took a bit of time to build up the mental energy to do sober so feel proud about that.
Well apart from being busy at work Iām glad your doing okay. I appreciate you so much 
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Day 6 
Good Evening 
What an amazing day!
When my laptop glitched today, I restarted ut alot and thought that I would need to fix it 
but thanks to Allah, it worked after I left it for a few minutes 
I enjoyed every moment today , and I bought coffee 
Have a nice dayā:sun_with_face: or night 
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Hey! Twiz after a drunk night she said me and her were no longer together, we currently live together and she is 4 months pregnant. But she keeps going on these dates and staying at there place and what not and doing these irrational things, but yet she messages me today that she wants to be together. Idk itās a big cluster with her. Her actions have left some pretty impacting feelings on me.
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Itās a very difficult thing Love, and then a child involved and you want to do the best.
But you dint deserve to be treated like this.
Now there could be some kind of help mentally she may need, is this out of character for her ?
I just worry the more she does this and you seem to accept her behaviour for your child, than she will just keep doing it because she knows you are always there and put up with it.
What I would be thinking about is this out of character for her, if yes then maybe she needs some professional help. And theres no shame in that. I myself have had to get professional help and itās not as bad as we imagine it will be asking/accepting help.
And that if this is her normal character, that you are being really taken advantage of maybe need to think if you staying with her while she treats you like this that it wont stop.
And maybe before the babys born you could maybe step back for a bit and see if she realises that her behaviour has pushed you away and you deserve some respect. And maybe this could help her to see she needs to change, you wont always be there to pick up the peices.
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Same happened to me. Even worked in a prison with 180+ Covid positive never got it. Started a new job at a nursing home. Only 30 residents and got it in a month. Vaccinated and boosted and itās three weeks later and still have a āfogā and tire easier.
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Good afternoon all. Not much to report today. Work tonight and then a day off. Got some schoolwork I have to get knocked out after work and then relax a little tomorrow. Hope everyone takes care and has a safe day.
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Day 737
Not feeling great this week. Thought it was just exhaustion after not sleeping well in the storm earlier this week but then yesterday and today it has felt more like vertigo. Trying to take it easy but work is busy and Iāve been helping with some new trainees. Prioritizing self care and just trying to get through the next few days until I have off again next week.
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Twizz I really appreciate that advise and I think I will act on that and maby remove myself from the house for a while and, itās definitely out of character I believe, it this is really are first true problem so I donāt know if she acts this way to every issue if so I should probably just leave now. But all take that advice and I really appreciate that, I hope everythingās going well with you and that your day is fun and eventful !! Again I appreciate you
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Checking in on day 6
Long and busy day at work, again I did some extra hoursā¦ at least I committed to doing the fitness and burpee challenge we have in this forum. That was some 25 minutes of workout, not too bad, even though I had to skip spinning because my extra work.
Besides that, Iām sober, which makes today a good day! 
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Good Morning, Everybody
Day 53
Feeling pretty joyful today.
I have one full day of work. Then a concert this evening with my S/O.
We hit the road Saturday for our mini getaway.
Heading to Oakland and SF.
Looking forward to some quality time with my kiddos and I will see my little sister as well.
S/O is running a race on Sunday so we will be out in nature and taking in all the fresh air.
Now that my mom is starting to take care of my grandma her emotional wellbeing is so much better.
She didnāt want to go out anymore not even to dinners at my sisters house, but now sheās being more social. Getting pedicures, her eyebrows and even out to restaurants.
Her face is starting to glow again.
So grateful for my mother taking the time off work to become her full time caregiver .
My mom and my grandma are also very close.
Thank you all for reading.
@Butterflymoonwoman Dana the dreamcatcher is lovely.
@SassyBoomer Take the time. Our bodies really know how to let us know when we need to slow down and rest. Hope you feel better soon.
@Fury Hey I hope you feel better soon. This covid thing just going around all over again.
@BrianP So happy you are doing all that walking but do listen to your ankle as well. A sorter walk sounds nice.
@Mno Thank you for sharing such lovely pic.
@Jasty2 I am going to start The Naked Mind Podcast. Saw someone mentioned it here too.
@Juli1 Congrats on 2 weeks. You keep strong! Cravings begin to lesson as time goes by. In the moments you start thinking of drinking get out for a walk, hear some cheerful music, listen to a recovery podcast and also remember how terrible it feels after.
@KatoBaggels Sorry to hear such terrible situation between you and your ex. Have you tried talking to her about her behavior? Maybe she wants a reaction out of you. Glad to hear you are working on yourself. Sounds like you are making progress. ODAAT.
@Cjp I am sorry your coworker isnāt being supportive. Remember sometimes otherās behavior toward us has a lot to do with how they feel about themselves rather than how they feel about us. I am sure she know you are intelligent she might feel a little threaten. Donāt let her get to you. I know you arenāt feeling pretty well emotionally at the moment too but this shall pass. Sending lots of good vibes your way.
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Day 4 - I woke up this morning and my anxiety was at about 9/10. Iām really stressing about the flat falling through. I woke up feelings so wrung out and physically exhausted. I honestly think I spend a lot of my time tensed up which is why I ache all the time. Iām going to try and relax this evening. I keep telling myself what will be will be, but itās hard when my mind goes to that irrational place of worry and stress. There was a point in the middle of the day when I was on the verge of tears but I held myself together. Mainly as I was walking around the supermarket doing the weekly shop on my own. I didnāt fancy being the grown man having a cry in isle 23 (though I have no issue with crying in a private place).
Iāve had some addictive twinges today but Iāve been able to navigate them. Mindfulness and pulling myself back into the present is helping with that.
I also realised that since I split up with my ex a lot of my normal self care activities have fallen by the wayside. I usually swim and paint but the swimming pool is miles away from where I am now and all my painting stuff is in storage whilst I get myself a new home. Iām working on finding some more self care activities I can do in the interim.
I hope you all have a great addiction free day.
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277 days without drugs or alcohol
And in all of those days I havenāt had to go to the hospital or jail . Imagine that ā¦
Made it through another day at the pet Paradise. My job is to take care of the Noncompatible dogs. The dogs that have anxiety or just simply canāt be in large groups with the other dogs. I come in the morning and I clean their kennels? Or rooms or whatever itās called?, I feed them and refill their water and after that is done I take every single dog out for 15 minutes and play with them. Some dogs are there every single day sort of like a daycare. Some dogs are only there because their owners are on vacation. Already I have grown to like this one dog named Annie ā¦ Iām not sure what kind of dog she is but she is medium sized and we seem to get along. Iāve been spending my lunch breaks with her and it really helps my anxiety. They know that I am in recovery for a couple reasons and they said that I can go sit with her periodically if I need a recharge or if my anxiety is high. I can already see how this job can be rewarding. I hope I can stay strong through the difficult aspects of this job because not every single second is just playing with dogs. I will try to get a photo of Annie and show you guys tomorrow.
Iām off for the Rest of the day. Iām going to relax and do my recovery work like journaling and making some calls. Going to make dinner. And listen to some music. There is only one way and that is forward.
I hope everyone is having a good day or night and staying strong . God bless
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The new job sounds really positive. Like any job itās not all going tonbe amazing but the fact they are being so welcoming and giving you a chance to play with Annie to help your anxiety is amazing.
You are doing really well.
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Thank you for reaching out . I can very much relate to your post and seems we have similar Struggles. But Iām learning there is hope because we are not alone. A lot of people have these difficulties. And Iād rather cry than explode. I gave up on money and fame or doing anything crazy with my life. I just want to be OK. I think this job will definitely help I just have to take it a day at a time just like I do with my recovery. Hang in there because it does get easier . Keep things simple and put your recovery first . The days will stack up and you will see change
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