133 days 
Changing my routine up a little bit to help me keep consistent with exercise. It’s helping. And exercise is such a major part of my self care and mental health management.
I felt amazing after this morning, I’m super grateful for that.
I cut a tie with an old friend last night/today. We had a toxic relationship, fed into each other’s bad addictive behaviours in the past. And over the years I tried to express my behaviour changing and sobriety and not try to force them to change. To remain friends. But yesterday I said goodbye, and that I couldn’t be friends with them anymore.
I don’t think I’ve ever made a choice to end a friendship to protect myself before. I’ve done it with some family though.
I’m getting older, more confident in my choices. More protective of myself.
Have a great day everyone 
Day 14 again 
anime binge watch day anything to keep my mind off the booze pain clinic uped my meds the joys they put me on nefopam 120mg a day dropped my morphine to 50 mg dally slow tapper as I want off of it no change with other meds
Ct next mth and my yearly type 3c diabetes check next week
Say no to booze people this illness is horrible if I knew then what I know now I would of quit drinking in my 20.s 
And this heat is brutal again haha 
Hi Mike, I adore the honesty with which you check in. You are feeling uplifited - and very sad. This emotional acuteness is going to be one of your strongest assets in recovery my friend!!
Can you facetime or zoom with the kiddos after school orientation? You’re such a dedicated father. I don’t think my dad would have known much about my school … The girls are lucky to have you. I’m sure they feel how much you love them and that is by far the most important thing.
Hugs
I really love reading about these small intimate moments in your relationship to your husband. Like how he supported you re your son’s first school day 
Thanks for letting us in in those. So touching in the best way.
In your pocket lady!! 
Thx Claudia! Step by step! 
The 80’s brought us some weird stuff! 
Ha ha, it sure did! 
Glad I have no pictures from myself during the aerobic class 
Nice numbers Scott! 
That would actually be fun to see! In the 80’s my mum cut me this haircut (she used to be a hairdresser) with short hair in the front, and long in the back. I mean; how could you??? 
#Day 1421 
Our shop won a prize yesterday So today a big chief is visiting me and my coworker to give a nice amound of money
We have to share it between 4 collegues in total so I guess it’s 60 euros each.
I’m not going to be a millionair, but I like it anyway
Enjoy your day the best way you can TS people.
I will do so too
Ha ha, I know what you mean! I did a haircut like Grace Jones and painted it white! 😵💫
I also wear green lipstick with it I remember now!
Checking in on day 143. Feeling good.
Have a great day 
1159
Coffee. My weekend! Physically tired after five busy days at work, and riding home around midnight last night into a headwind. My commute into work was nice yesterday as I did a detour and made it a touristic trip into the town I work now.
I’m glad to remember this morning my Thursday course in experiential expertise is on a break so I truly have two days off now. So no homework to do and not planning on doing too much. We’re heading into another week of hot dry weather here so no long rides. I’m tired anyway.
One thing I’m absolutely sure of is I won’t be drinking or drugging. I’m sober and clean and that’s the only way I want to be. It’s why I’m here. It’s why we’re all here and it’s the only way to a better healthier happier life for all of us. One day at a time. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Love from Utrecht.
Day 323 checking in 
Congratulations to double digits! 
Happy high number! 
Day 729
Forced myself to do some stuff for the kids that I didn’t really feel like doing, but know when the kids are older I will look back on these times fondly.
A few things about my husband are really driving me nuts and weighing me down.
Drinking is just not an option these days tho, and I am always glad of that.
Day 789 clean and sober. It’s Monday for me so I’m up having some coffee before I start my work day. I’m really proud of everyone here and am so grateful that we have each other! Such an awesome community!!! I hope everyone has an amazing day today, love you guys!!! 
Day 19 wuhu 
I just want to say thank you again for your support during my hard times yesterday!
It was reaaaaaly helpful
Did my swim workout and had some healthy meal and drinks.
I wrote with “my toxic guy” again until late night. I know that was toxic again, but it degenerated into discussions.
No problems from his side… Clearly.
After waking up with physical symptoms of this toxic relationship, I wrote him a text now that I’m going away again, won’t come back and wish him all the best. I blocked ALL channels. He does not know where I live…
We were always in his apartment.
Thank God 
Will do some healing mediation and concentrate on recovering!!! Your comments on that “guy topic” were very helpful. 
Just cooking a nice meal now and have a little Siesta Nap afterwards.
Take care 
