Congratulations on 6 months, celebrate that!! Thank you for always sharing your journey and being a positive presence here. Keep on stacking up the ODAATs.
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Thank you <3 Iām doing a little better today
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Thank you. Youāre right. I did uninstall the app. I was doing really well and eating one, sometimes two meals a day but the last week or so Iāve slipped back a lot. Right now Iām kinda halfway working on it. Iām making an effort to eat at least one meal a day but Iām only putting like 50% effort
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2 hours away from my one week medal. Iāve made it this long before but something feels different. I think finding this community gives me inspiration I did not have before. Getting the pleasure of reading others experiences that are very similar to mine and knowing Iām not alone in this is empowering. Thank all of you guys and I look forward to the 10 day mark and then the 2 week and so on.
Thank you.
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Tonight will be day 165 of no self harm
I took a shower for the first time since my groomer tried to contact me(itās been a week). I just didnāt want to look at myself. Still donāt. Cried the whole time. Showers always remind me of how gross I feel and how I can never scrub that feeling away.
One of my friends made a really offensive joke a few days ago about my sexual abuse. Our friendship has always been fake insulting each other and heās fun and heās shown he cares. But ever since heās made that joke Iāve started to wonder if heās joking anymore. The insults arent funny anymore. It could be because Iām in a bad place. But I feel so scared setting boundaries with people. Yet I still hang out with him despite ending up feeling terrible after every interaction.
Something positive: I got 13 much needed hours of sleep. I ate a full meal. And I got an awesome new piano keyboard. Iāve had my old one since I was 12, it only has 62 keys, and the off button didnāt work anymore. My new one has 81 keys, and has weighted keys (basically the pressure on the keys determines volume like a real grand piano)
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Huge congratulations on ur upcoming 10 day milestone!! Iām excited for u that things feel diff this time around 
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Thank u sooo much Dan! That really means alot to me actually I really am blessed to be on this journey with u and others on TS. Ur input has also been very valuable here. I appreciate u!
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20 mins late but congratulations Dana Iām so proud of you xx you know how I think your amazing and an extremely strong woman, who always put other before her own needs.
Iām glad to see you starting to have self love and making sure your okay too you so deserve to be okay.
Again another huge milestone I get to witness you reach, although we are in other parts of the world your in my heart. 
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Hope so 
Itās so hot over here ā¦ I guess our hot is like a normal day to you?
Its 5:30am I havent had the best sleep in 2 days and this always knocks me back a bit so I decided hey no Iām going to try and not let it knock me back as much, easier said than done I know but a bit of self care and then not doing anything that puts too much pressure on myself and il be fine.
Iv woken up absolutely hungry, what have you eaten today?
Edit: just seen your post, I love the piano. Something I use to play when I was younger.
Your doing great with your 165 days 
Iām sorry to hear what you have been through, my mum also went through similar and had to still sit with him at dinner times etcā¦ I cant say I know what to say really, as with my mum there isnt anything I can say to help her or that she finds helpful. She does always tell me to tell a fiend of mine to get help quicker as possible from professionals as she is 56 and it just hit her real bad all the emotions- when I read your posts sometimes it sounds so similar the feelings you both share.
Iām always here if you want to talk but I know from my mum itās such a sensitive subject and I dont know how to help you or what to say, but I am here for you, so if you do ever need me you let me know what I can do to help even if itās just cheer you up Iām sure I can do that
(I know you are trying with professionals already, Iām proud of you how you manage)
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I hope you have a great sleep! Iām day 5 tomorrow!
Glad you are here.
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Yay Dana! So proud of youā„ļø
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Congratulations on your 6 months. That is really amazing with all the change you made visible here with us.
Have a good night and be proud of yourself because you can 
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Huge congrats to you! The impacts of staying clean and working so hard on your wellness are obvious to us readers 
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Youāre doing great! So wonderful to see.
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Good evening all. Checking in on day 358. Havenāt checked in for a few days, was in a bad headspace but snapped out of it and back into my routine. Hope everyone has a good day or night and stay safe!
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Morning,
Checking in on day 147. Feeling good, donāt often think about alcohol.
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