Glad you feeling better.
That year is right around the corner 
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Still here, 28 days free of booze! Havenāt been online much as Iāve just returned to work, and Iām on night shift, so sleeping the days away! 
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Congratulations @Butterflymoonwoman Dana!! 
@Benwa10 and youāve got your first week in youāre pocket!! Well done! 
#Day 1425 
Had one of the biggest cravings since years!
And didnāt see it coming.
I had a beautiful first holiday. Went with my daughter to a jewlery shop near the beach to get both a āforever braceletā. Both found a lovely one and after that we enjoyed a beachwalk and a lunch, so far so good.
That night I went to the casino with my hubby and youngest son. And thatās where the trouble began. I wasnāt been in a casino for at least 25 years. Forgot how many alcohol there is around. But also noticed my mind making the old connections. Putting the dots together trying to make me drink: holiday, night out, having fun but also feeling a bit out of placeā¦and triggered by seeing all those glasses of wine everywhere!
I told my hubby about the craving. Telling getās the edge off for me.
At home I wanted something better to drink than water. Hubby took a beer but there was nothing in the house for me beside oatmilk 
Found applejuice in my pantry but it had an old date so I trow it away. I felt like back in the old days when I needed a drink but there was nothing in my house. Discomfort, irritated, a bit angry, sad, all that. Hubby could drink that beer and I could not. You know what I mean.
So there I wasā¦cravings and drinking water.
But Iām not going to die if I do not get what I want. I had such a lovely day beside those cravings. And today I can reflect on them without a hangover ore blackout to spoil it.
Today I will buy some stuff I need for our upcoming holiday. Going to wander around in Turkye for 2 weeks. Living in AirBNB houses.
Just basic, no luxery.
Thatās all for now!
Alive and sober
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@Butterflymoonwoman It has been a privilege to watch your progress. I am so damn proud of you! You work hard and you reaped what you sow. Congratulations 
!
@SadMemeQueen Baby steps to get to where you want to be. Try to eat food with nutrients not just any old thing.
@SoberWalker Well done on beating that craving! The little sods to pop up from time to time. But you were strong even if you only had water to tide you over.
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Not sure if it was the result of the talk last night, or if it was because my sonās friend was with us most of the day, but my husband was like a different person today. Almost like, mate, are you okay? You will not be able to sustain this level of change, perhaps you should pace yourself a little bit? 
Even my daughter asked āwhy didnāt you daddy fight today?ā But just tried to be appreciative.
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Coffee. Rather warm outside. Not to say bloody hot. Thinking if Iāll do the same as yesterday, having my bike with me on the train to work and biking home tonight. It was very nice last night. Interesting how much the temperature differentiates between the open country and the concrete jungle of the city.
In other news, I got myself a new work book that deals with recovering from (early) trauma, recommended by my therapist. Didnāt get beyond the introduction last night as I had to cry about every two sentences I read. Also, this Friday, I got an intake for a psychotherapy group dealing with child sexual abuse. Itās going to be quite a trip trying to deal with this too. But Iām working on it. One day at a time.
Nothing of this would happen if it wasnāt for me being sober and clean. So grateful for that. Itās the foundation of all that has happened in my life in the last 3+ years. All that I made happen in my life. ODAAT. Itās loads of work but itās so worth it. Have as good a Sunday as you all can friends. Make it clean and sober or nothing will come of it. Love from Amsterdam.
@Butterflymoonwoman Huge congrats on 6 months Dana!!! You worked so hard for this!
@Minatasha Belated happy birthday!
@SadMemeQueen Thatās some great keys Megan! Enjoy 'm!
@BrianP They keep adding up donāt they? Congrats!
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Congratulations everyone on each day that you have not used your drug or whatever of choice, be it addiction, self harm, porn, sex, food, the list goes on.
Congrats to all the people who are here who may still be using but are here on these pages wanting to stop. The help is here for you!
@CNevarezN Big congrats to you for your thought processes and for being the days stopped that you are. Congrats for using the big vacuum when you needed to.
@SoberWalker I think itās time for you to get some special liquids for you to have in your house. Something special that you will feel like you are special when you want some thing!
@BrianP congrats on your 16 weeks.
@Butterflymoonwoman happy six months!
Yes, the heart is for everyone, but especially with you in mind!
You give so much just like the tree shows. Youāre growing, blossoming and reaching out far, in wonderful ways, in your sobriety.
Thanks for everything. Celebrate your day today.
Iām glad you have everything ready for your Monday. Thinking about you with all of it. Big hugs, love, and big congrats!
Editing to congratulate @Misokatsu on your big anniversary! Congrats and thanks for so much!
Another edit for @Mno who also posted while I was writing. Lots of good work youāve done. Hugs for your healing. Continued healing.
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I had the same problem, that I need something āspecialā to drink. Some time ago this was a topic in this thread. And now Iāve so many different flavours of sparkling water that I could bath in it. 
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Congratulations Dana for a half year of freaking sobriety! You did it! 
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On day 65. Still feeling like I need a good sleep. When willlit happen? 
Washing all my bed linen to get out on the line. Iāve decided to clean out my kitchen cupboards and drawers. Wonder what Iāll find?
Keep on keeping on x
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Probably a lot of spices with expired shelf-life. We had to get rid of many of those.
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Day 18 
just woke horrible sleep panky was playing up I donāt think itās likes this heat at all so tired 
Netflix here I come 
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Hey all, checking in on day 791. 26 months! Woooo 
I hope everybody has a good one 
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Yes that is definitely my plan! And most of the time there is ore there is a stash of chocolat because that helps as well. But now there was nothing šµāš«
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Morning Check in
Day 181
I want to thank everyone so much for the congratulations It still feels very surreal that I have 6 months! Itās kind of mind blowing 
for me lol
Woke up feeling pretty good. Got my coffee and Iām heading to work. Hope everyone has a wonderful, addiction free day. ODAAT we got this!
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Wow Iām really grateful that u didnāt drink. U fought and won! I love what u said:
I love this! In the problem I ALWAYS felt like I HAD to follow thru with every thought and urge. My emotions and urges to use dictated what I was going to doā¦ which always ended up with using. Itās different today but it was a huge change of thinking. You challenged those thoughts and were able to actually see that addictive thinking trying to pull u backā¦ and u didnāt let it.
So freaking proud of u!
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Wow thatās some deep inner work that you are about to embark on. Imagine how freeing u will feel when u have worked thru those things in ur past. Thinking of u as u go thru all this 
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Big Congrats @Butterflymoonwoman i see you putting in the work on your recovery journey! Im so proud of you. Its a pleasure to read your shares and see your personal growth. You are a rockstar and spread your experience, strength and hope to others here on the forum. Yay you!
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Day 793 clean and sober. Up early and at work. Today is my Friday and Iām going to see Rob Zombie tonight after work. Have an amazing day I love you guys!!! 
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5 months 4 days about to go from an impatient treatment to sober living house feeling confident got everything set up ready to live instead of exist moving to a new town where I know no one starting completely over Iām looking forward to having all new.clean experiences and not be reminded by those places hope everyone is doing good I feel like the sky is limit!!!
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Day 260
This is my first post for 6 days and itās written with a very heavy heart and tear in my eye.
My partners mum passed away 5 days ago, sheād been poorly but it was unexpected having only been medically fit for discharge from hospital 6 days earlier.
She collapsed in front of my partner and I tried my best to resuscitate her but couldnāt all my training and effort could not save our queen. Even though only 7% of people survive with early CPR I feel guilty for not being able to keep her with us. I hope and pray that she knows I did everything I could. Rest in peace mum. I loved you more than youād ever know and just like I love my own mum too! X 
Iām not struggling with my sobriety, Iām thankful I can be there for my partner and children and help them through this.
Hug your loved ones closer than ever!
Much love to you all.
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