On a day off from work which is nice, little sleep in and now contemplating starting the cleaning and laundry (@Butterflymoonwoman lol I had to chuckle at you cleaning baseboards that is definitely not on my agenda lol).
Plan for today includes stepwork which is 100% a priority to get to, and tonight’s meeting will be online. A Facebook friend in recovery also told me they have NA speakers (and probably all kinds of AA speakers) on Spotify! So will have to check that out.
Checking in on day 18
Today I had a pretty relaxed day at work, I left one hour earlier, to recover some of my 40+ extra hours. In the past I would never recover them, but at this point I’m trying to think more of myself and use that time to do something nice. In this case I did the workout challenge, and also caught up on yesterday, cause I was too lazy yesterday! 🫣🏋🏻♀️
Another sober day on the books, also I just reminded myself that I’m at 18 days smoke free again. My smoking goes in hand with drinking, for me the real struggle is alcohol, but it’s nice to remind myself that I’m not poisoning myself with the effin cigarettes anymore!
Checking in on 150 days, feels so good to be here.
But just been invited to a 50th in a couple of months. Although I’m OK about going and not drinking, I just don’t want to go. I’ve put off meeting up with these friends so many times this year, I arrange something and then cancel every time. Got a wedding the day before too, a busy weekend
Thank you @Juli1 I am so happy to be 10 days sober today. At the gym, last night was at a bday party and it was tempting to drink and the fact my partner wasn’t drinking as driving was helpful. It’s definitely helpful to think about a safe context for when you start going out and having sober drinks. As long as some sweet sober drink I’m good but sometimes an AF beer doesn’t feel right.
Anyway didn’t think about it at all today, in the gym and home for a film.
Again the nearer the week gets to end the more difciutl, how are you and your journey???
Cxxx
Hello everyone, I feel dreadful today. I’m angry I’m disappointed I’m ashamed im sad and im tired.
I drank yesterday at my pals funeral. We’d been pals for 32 years. It was second nature ordering beer. I had no intention of drinking a soft drink. That’s a lie I thought about it for a millisecond.
I should have been coming on here today all smiles and saying here we go Day 24 I’m smashing it!
The only positives I can take from yesterday is that I am still smoke free that’s 2 months 9 days.
I feel so low at the minute, I know I need to give my head a wobble and learn from this. There are no excuses I cant turn back time Shit shit shit! Im so bloody annoyed at myself. Sorry for the language and the length of this.
Hope your all doing well. it does feel better writing this down.
Officially six weeks now free of gambling. Heading to see my friends for a whole weekend and really looking forward to it. Feel more in control than I have in a very long time.
Never really thought journalling with the app and posting the odd message in this community would be the help it has been… It really is invaluable.
When I get an urge I can read back the entries in the journal from the day after relapse and the weeks after and it really helps.
Hi Col, first of all I’m sorry for the loss of your friend. Though it’s good to read that your back on track. You can’t change the past, try not to beat yourself up too much. And it’s no use to stress about the future. Just focus on today, you can do this!
Yes it does feel good to just lay it all out and be honest. Glad you did. It’s okay to feel the way you’re feeling as long as you don’t stay there long. Visit with the disappointment and make your plans and commit to moving forward. Onward and upward, amigo!
And so sorry you lost your friend. That is awful and I’m sending hugs.
Well done on 150 days!!! I know the feeling of just not wanting to go…if you don’t have to then trust your feelings on it and skip the event! Blame the wedding and a full weekend
Hi, great job on 6 weeks!
I love journalling too. Sometimes I read through from when I first started and it really does help to remember how I was feeling at different times.
Keep up the good work
Hi, these feelings will pass soon and you’ve still got those days behind you. Just carry on doing what you’ve been doing. Draw a line, look ahead not back and keep moving forwards.
No… Moderate drinking won’t be a solution for me… Unfortunately. When I am thinking about the possibility, it’s not a glass, it’s 2 bottles. No further words needed.
I was smoking 20 years ago, when I stopped smoking it was absolutely clear… I won’t ever smoke again. One cigarette a day was no possibility for me. I would like to transfer it to drinking. I’m on the way…
SKYR has a nice texture… I am using vegan version.
Definitely, do you use the journal feature on here?
I love turning a new day green and I write every morning ‘I’m not drinking today’ before I do anything else.
Hi Freckles,
You are doing a great job!!!
Today I’m doing well after surviving yesterday… Parking with cravings at the supermarket.
Even if few things planned didn’t go the way they should today, I am okay, enjoying a cold sober drink now.
I had a swim workout and I’ve stocked up on healthy supplies that my body can’t get enough of right now… blueberries, watermelon, almonds, dark chocolate, veggies. So won’t get trouble if I need a healthy snack.
it does feel better writing this down.
even a few sentences a day helps a lot
