Yes! That’s what I use. I sometimes miss days here and there but its so useful to see the pattern or how Iwas feeling and what was happening on those days. Keeps me honest about my triggers, and also stops my broken brain chemicals from convincing me “hey it wasn’t that bad, sure you can just gamble a small bit then stop”. I only need to read back over the relapse entries to nip that in the bud!
It’s like my past self is able to rap me on the knuckles and refocus me.
For anyone who doesn’t use the journal feature, I really recommend just a few honest sentences a day.
23 days checking in. It is getting harder and harder. Constantly on my mind “this time you can drink moderately”, “youre life is boring this way”.
But still going strong. My clinic called today and I can start my program earlier than 17 oktober. Now I start 29 August.
Yes I know, I have been there and it didn’t end well. And the strange part is that even than I still have these thoughts. I am glad I am getting help with this.
Today my thoughts have been out to get me and lots of negative thinking and future tripping. But I been shutting down this thinking right as it comes . Played basketball a couple times . Did some pushups . Did some gratitude journaling and writing . Called some friends . Now I just have to be ok with days like this . I have to stay busy the rest of the night but also be ok with healthy escape like YouTube and movies and whatever else I have to do to keep my mind right . I know everything will be ok and God has my back . I know drinking is not a option and sounds horrible to be honest . Alcohol is Poison. Alcohol does nothing good . So I push through today with my basics and tools . There is No other way .
I can understand your annoyance. But as you say, can’t turn back time, so putting energy into anger is wasted energy. Put that into positive recovery work instead!
No and no to those thoughts. If you could moderate, you would have done it by now. And how about doing something so you can show those thoughts that you are not boring? What do you like to do? Do that more, and then when those thoughts pop up think ‘no I am not, I am doing X, which is cool!’
I wonder if there’s a nooner or even a women’s nooner or in your area. Would be a great way to meet some sober people in your area and spend an hour on your recovery.
I’m having a difficult day too, and I’m sorry to hear you are struggling but it sounds like your are doing all the right things to help yourself get through these moments. You’re not alone
I’m so sorry for the loss of your friend.
I’m grateful that you can come here to share your story and be honest with yourself and with all of us. Congratulations on not smoking over 2 months:clap: .
Day 8
I’m struggling this afternoon… I’m thinking about my husband’s cider in the fridge. Damit. I know I’ll regret it. I’ll wait 7 minutes… I heard somewhere that’s how long the craving lasts maybe I’ll just hop in the shower now…
Sorry your having a difficult day . I understand. All we can do is use the tools we learn and push through tonight. I’m going to run through halt and then maybe go for a walk. Then find something to learn about on YouTube , that’s how I plan to get through tonight and feeling weird . Hope your night gets better and maybe with some good rest tomorrow will be better for you . Hang in there … and thank you for reaching out
Ok not sure if I’m actually learning lol … but I will let you know if I find some interesting videos . Lately it’s been about American history , animals, weather videos… Sometimes I just keep skipping videos and never complete anything but it’s ok sometimes it’s like that . And it’s better then being in my head . I might pick a random animal and go from there or also I like the videos of people just driving around … those are pretty cool also but not much learning
Okay just hopped out of the shower and that 7 minutes thing about the cravings might be correct, because I kind of stopped thinking about it, for a minute- but I think I just got another craving right away so I’m going to go ahead and make myself an iced oat milk latte…in a fancy glass☺️
