Checking in sober. Doing what works and keeping things simple. Let’s all crush another 24. 
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Congratulations to 600 days of sobriety! 
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Welcome to TS and congratulations to your many days of sobriety!
Really glad to hear this helped. I justt started running yesterday. I need something daily to focus on that isn’t just drugs, video games, etc. And I have a lot of issues with self esteem, confidence etc. I’m hoping this can help.
Honestly it’s easier for me when I don’t have to think about what to do and just follow directions. So I got an app, supposed to train you for a 5K in 8 weeks. Tells you exactly what to run each day, so I’m just trying to keep up on that schedule. Day 1 wasn’t bad at all, I think it was a 5 min warmup walk then alternating 90 seconds of jogging with 90 seconds of walking. Definitely gets harder but it’s 3 days a week and seems manageable.
I have a lot of frustration, anger, grief, sadness, etc and instead of just being self destructive I’m hoping I can just latch onto this to release it instead.
Good luck to you!
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We’re all here to share the good and bad days bro so please keep letting it out and sharing here!!! Congratulations on your 30 days that’s AWESOME!!! 
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Coached my first hockey game. My boy scored 2 goals, and my daughter scored 1. It ended in a loss, but very exciting to see both my kids excelling together.
The addict me could never have done this. Life is good sober!
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I’m glad to hear that your son is getting better and also that you found a way to cope with all these little freighting triggers, which in the and seem as one big catastrophe. 
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I meant “deaf”. I’ve corrected it, sorry. 
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Thank you so much…
My job is not a hairdresser…
I just joined mine afterwork. 
Compliments were at my job and in daily contacts… Ouhyew, if we are positive in the inside… Positivity comes to us from the outside.
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1025 days without gaming
17 days without TV and streaming services
0 days without YouTube
0 days without podcasts
Yesterday I decided to listen to podcasts by turning on YouTube videos and turning the screen away from me. I wasted an entire day listening to “podcasts”. I didn’t stop until 5am. I’m not sure whether I was awake that entire time, but that’s when I turned off my laptop.
And you’ll never believe this, but that was because I couldn’t stop listening after one episode. 
I didn’t watch any YouTube videos, I listened to them. But if I’m not going to count that as a relapse, I will abuse that. And if I’m not going to count my use of podcasts as an addiction. I will abuse that too.
So YouTube goed back down to zero. And the podcast counter has started ticking.
Am I too hard on myself? Maybe.
Could this actually have been caused by a combination of procrastination and obsession related to autism? Maybe, I do know that podcasts have been a gateway to full blown relapses on my addictions before.
Does this mean I should stop everything I obsess about? No, but I’ve got to be really darn careful. I have been procrastinating homework and it’s fucked up my mental state. I am stressed out. And it has been through my own doing. Giving my brains time to recover from all the stress is something different than wasting an entire day doing nothing.
So, despite the fact that it’s past 11pm, I am going to make a list now of everything that I’ve got to do for school tomorrow. And the weeks after that.
I’m in a funk, and doing things I’ve been procrastinating often is a great tool to get out of it.
But first I’m going to wind down for a little while. I’ve worked from noon until 10:15pm, so I deserve a little break.
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Met my new niece today. I LOVE babies when they are all floppy and noodly. I’m having a bit of a pity party though and I know that’s crappy of me. I have 16 nieces and nephews. I always see them in the beginning and then am kept at an arms distance from ever really getting to participate in their lives. This feels like it’s just gonna go that same route.
I’d be a great aunt given the chance. I know it. But all the siblings are Bible thumping STRONG right wingers and I’m a pagan communist (not that I ever talk about it cause my religion is none of their business) but they know I’m NOT in support of their candidates and I AM in favor of vaccines and it’s not like ANY of that would ever come up to their kids but it’s like they are terrified I’m gonna turn them all Into little soulless parent hating sinners or something.
I don’t know. I’m just whining at this point. It just makes me feel sad to be on the periphery of their little lives when I feel like I could be so much more than a rando they see at family events but don’t really have any connection to. Ya know?
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A car came off the road and drove through the tables outside the local pub, air ambulance and road ambulance called out.
Just where I used to sit with my Mrs and grandson… makes you think.
Thank god for sobriety and prayers for the injured.
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Omg thats scary 
im glad u all werent sitting there when this happened 
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Checking in
Day 215
Spent the day with my son. He seems to be doing pretty good overall. Temps are high n low but tylenol is helping. I went out to get groceries while hubby watched our son. Felt good to get out and get some nice autumn air. Had some issues at the grocery store and almost bit the cashiers head off, but caught myself and turned it around. Ive been a bit on edge today. Just a little more sensitive than usual. Trying to be grateful and positive. Trying my best to stay present. It is helping. Hope everyone is doing okay today. Will be getting caught up on everyones check ins now 
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Day 30~
Well, I’ve been here before. 30 days is good, but I’ve been here before. What makes this different? IDK? I feel different this time. I’m kinda numb to the desire for alcohol. I don’t want it in my life.
Trying to stay in the present. My present is not fun though…I STILL don’t have my furniture yet. Waiting this week for my furniture. Will it all fit inside this apartment? Should I buy a home now? What should I do?!
Decisions. Making decisions is tough. I’m so exhausted and sick of living this way. I want to be happy.
Well, what am I going to do about it? Huh? IDK?
I will listen to a religious podcast and watch some college football. Tomorrow I MAY go to church. We will see when I wake up, I also plan on doing a hike.
Please keep me in your thoughts 
. I need support.
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Prayung for ur health and happiness Congratulations on 30 days!!! U have been thru SO much and have perserved. Things may seem rough for you right now (I honestly cant believe that u STILL have no furniture grrrr) but im grateful u have remained sober. Drinking only makes things worse. Keep at it Michael glad ur checking in and doing whatever u cam to stay sober!
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A good friend of mine, I’ve known this guy my whole life he’s a bit older but I went to school with his sister. Was my welcome to music and drumming mentor.
Over the years we always kept the relationship, he’s more of a jam band and jazz band player, but has his own studio, that I did some session work in. He’s Native American and started getting into the idea of drumming circles
He started with it as a volunteer in like retirement homes and senior centers. Then into schools and such to interest kids in musical arts. As well as help lift spirits of elderly who often get depressed with no visitors or nothing to do.
He told me the idea of a drumming circle is it has no head or tail, an expert drummer is as equal to the guy next to him who never hit a drum in his life and that the idea is to raise spirits and increase moods. Promote healing etc. during his passion for music and community service he told me how much he really felt so much better after these circles.
Something to check out, I went to one of his as a just for fun thing and it was a blast
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So excited for you! You got this!
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