I feel like all I do is come on here and complain about my life. So I’ll refrain today. 30 days.
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Welcome Beth 
Wish you joyful sobriety journey…
Enjoy it!
If you get in trouble, here is always someone online… Saved me several times!
Take care 
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Good morning everyone. Day 2. I thank God for giving me this opportunity and the wisdom to realized I need to change. I pray he gives me the strength to continue down this path for the rest of my life. Thank everyone on this site for the community you have created. It really gives me hope I’m moving forward. I hope every one has an amazing day today. I can’t wait to look back up on this start of my journey. God bless you all.
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30 people in a Samba band? And you are not going be deaf?
I’m glad that you liked it!
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Day 99 
Been a bit tough lately. A lot of distress, confusion, paranoia, tears and tantrums. Despite it all I showed up for my work and did good so I’m proud of that. If I’d still been drinking I would’ve crumbled so have a bit more resilience. I’ve bit all my nails off in the madness and anxiety 
these things happen.
Thanks for the support 
I’ve not read much this week so apologies if I’ve missed your struggles and achievements…
Today I’m cleaning my house and getting a bit organised as it’s been a bit chaotic round here. The sun is shining and the washing is hung out 
lovely, tunes on 
Feeling a bit more positive today so have booked a ticket for Bugsy Malone musical at the theatre this evening 
we coulda been anything that we wanted to be and that will be good fun
Have a great day everyone and keep on keeping on x
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Morning Check in
Day 215
My son ao far seems to be feeling better. I woke up at 1am to give him more tylenol. His temp was pretty high then but other than his low-grade fever he was okay. Im grateful for the overnight nurse that watched him last night. This morning (7 hours after his last dose of tylenol), his temp is 37.4 not too bad honestly. He is smiling n playing ipad now.
I realized a number of things last night. I was beyond emotional. The deep emptional state i was in, really didnt match the situation. Like yes my son was ill but the way i reacted after he went to bed (with the crying and anger for his situation), wasnt porportionate to what was really happening last night. I realized that the emotions I felt last night, was definitly more medical related ptsd. Its like his illness was a key to opening up everything else in my mind about whats he has gone thru for 4 years. So i think im going to seek help for this. Some days i can manage this okay (most often i do), but I do get triggered when he has any sort of medical situation. I am beyond grateful to my HP and the support of every single person who commented last night, helping me thru this. It really got me out of my head. I needed that. Grateful for the tools Ive learned being clean and sober. Grateful for TA in general and the amazing friends ive met here 
Hope everyone has an addiction free day!
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Day 23- going to a family lunch today. I’m going to do the things I need to do to not get triggered. Wear my earplugs, take my anxiety meds, and be sure that I step out of the house every once in a while. So I won’t be tempted to tamp down my anxiety with a beer or something. (Side note. They are nice it’s just a very loud hectic and overwhelming environment for me)
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Hey
I’ve not been around here much so I missed your distress. Sorry to see that you’ve had difficult circumstances with your son. And thank goodness they are doing better. What a relief! I think I would get very emotional, too. I think it’s natural to get very upset when our kids are suffering. But it’s great that you’ve identified other issues and are seeking help Best wishes to you
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Hey
Sounds like you have a great plan in place. Enjoy your lunch
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Congrats on the approaching Milestone. That is huge.
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Thank you, hitting them triple digits tomorrow 
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I have earbuds in and I play drum myself so yes I like it and no I’m not dead 
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Morning all hi I’m Brian well today makes day # 43 for me. Things are starting to get a little bit better. Got myself a sponsor took some of his advice and 4 real things started to change for the good. Now it’s only been like 4 days now since I took his advice and found myself a higher power. Trying to keep my hopes up high. So to make a long story kind of short been looking 4 a job I’ve had 3 interviews now but got turned down be them all. So hoping today that will change have a job interview at 2 Pm. and for real hope that it goes good this time. Getting tired of filling out job apps!!! (wish me luck)
So now part 2 of my story this part is kind of sad but true. Now in my #43 days out of rehab i’ve lived in a sober house. So last night 2 of the people that stay here drank. Woke up this morning to this. Don’t know what to do with this one. But I do know that I will pray for them both & also the ones that are still out there.
Well thanks for letting me share!!!
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Welcome Beth! This place is a great place to be fir sobriety! Glad you are here!
Good luck on the job interview!!!
Day 78 AF
After having a trying past weekend, it’s been refreshing to have a mellow and stable week! Work seems to be picking up a little bit at a time, and I’m very grateful for that. Still exploring PT job opportunities but nothing has come up yet. On a positive note, I am starting to realize how much money I’m saving by not buying loads of vodka every day.
@Butterflymoonwoman I read about some of what your son is dealing with. I have an adult special needs child and I can totally relate to the grief and anger you experience over the childhood (and now adult life for my daughter) that they miss out on. But whoever commented about God not making mistakes is right! I truly believe we are all created beautifully and uniquely, even when it’s difficult to understand. My prayers are with you, mama! 
@Juli1 I am also a hairstylist is the US! Clients and co-workers definitely notice our appearance in this industry…and when we finally start getting compliments about it improving, it’s exciting! Congratulations on both of your “free” times! 
I’m new to this forum but look forward every day to logging on and reading everyone’s posts. Never thought it would help much, but it really does! Hope everyone enjoys a beautiful weekend!
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Thank you!
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Thank you!!
Le quatrième jour! One day at a time for all of us. Congrats on your days. On y va. Je t’embrasse.
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You’ve got this interview. Just remember, you are selling your time in exchange for their money. They are in the market of needing someone to fill this position. Show them eagerness in filling this position for them, let them know that you will go above and beyond at this position. Once you get the job, show up early, stay late, volunteer for the grunt work no one else wants to do. As for the other people drinking, you can not control or change what others do, you only can control your reaction to it. I think what you did is good. Pray for them and continue to lead by example. As far as whether or not you should bring it up to a counselor or leader in the half way house, I personally would. They’re not being good stewards and making it much tougher on those around them who ARE wanting to better themselves. Sounds like you are doing great so far. Keep it up.
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