Hey, thanks so much. I’m feeling accomplished 
My daughter is 25 
so she might just ask me why I’m being weird but I think it’s a cute idea x
I’m all wrapped up but it wasn’t cosy without the heating on. I’ll be checking my app tomorrow though to see how much it cost
Thanks again
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Yes, it’s a cute idea x bet she’ll love it 
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Hahahaha, you two have me laughing.
@SoberWalker
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WOOOHOOOO
Congrats on triple digits!!!
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Yeah, that can be really hard, i remember those times. I am proud of you for seeing it for what it is, your self awareness has grown in leaps and bounds. Great work. 
58 days clean from alcohol
39 days clean from toxic relationship (further cleaning up in this topic ongoing)
Bedtime checkin, super tired as I am just coming from the pool 
… Also had Yoga and a walk. Enjoyed family time today. 
My mood is still very positive. 
Modified some plan for weightloss, as I think I am ready for it now… As I mentioned healthy weightloss with positive body picture! Not districting myself to the limit… Nourishing with healthy food, high protein, strength training and the sports I am already doing (Swimming, Yoga, Biking) and not at least… Positive mindset, relaxing, napping 
Yesterday and also today I had short few minute sequences of bad ideas… 
I would not call it a craving, as it passed faster.
But I had the very concrete bad ass idea of “how about buying 2 bottles of wine, drinking one, re-contacting and meeting my toxic on.off.shity.friendship.plus-thing-guy… Drinking the other on his balcony.” Fuck off.
It was like… “how about doing something crazy”… “how about breaking out”!
Might identify loneliness as a cause…
Anyway, I stayed strong…
Whispering to myself…
I deserve positive and healing relationships!
I am valuable.
I deserve to be treated well.
Have a wondeful night, whenever it’s time in your part of the world 
Sending lots of love
Peace and ease
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Thank you
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Day 602. A little stressed, having staffing issues at work, leaving me to work long hours while training new employees, but all in all I am still grateful to be sober.
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Good for you on turning away from them bad ass ideas. 
Your gonna thank yourself in the morning.
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Checking in on day 31. It’s an awful day and I desperately want to drink. Fighting it super hard right now. Coming to my community instead of stopping at the store.
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Stay strong, Kris! Hard days will come and go. You’ll feel better that you didn’t.
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How long before you’re in bed for the night? Do a countdown….make it for one hour at a time. And listen to a podcast while doing something productive around your home. I frequent Recovery Elevator. It helps me TREMENDOUSLY to hear other people’s stories! And to help pass that hour by hour. I hope this doesn’t sound like corny advice. It truly does help me on days that I struggle.
You can do this!!! Just for today! 
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It’s a good idea. I listen to that one, and That Sober Guy
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Day 197
I just did exactly 15 min of cleaning. Skipped yesterday and my room was a disaster. Ill try to do 15 more soon. I start work again tomorrow. Dreading it, and I dont have a good cover letter for new jobs started yet. Should do that!
Made good food out of tofu leftovers and instant risotto. Will bring lunch tomorrow.
Note to self: dont be a petty, miserable, bad person who brings others down and instead work hard to show up right. When the habit of cleaning all dishes and keeping your room tidy starts to stick, keep educating yourself and read more each day.
Edit: i just stood in the kitchen and buffered. I cleaned it today bc its small and easier to clean than my own room. My own room has:
my desk to organize, the floor to vacuum, litter box to clean, packages to finish assembling and send, shelves to organize and wipe down, laundry to put away, plastic bins and paint cans to…fucking move somewhere else…
Its really not as bad as it used to be, when i lived in a weed pit. I know my brain will thank me tomorrow if i do another push tonight. So posting here to set my mind to it and be accountable. Ill set the timer and in 15 min ill make a cup of tea to celebrate.
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Today was physically, mentally, and emotionally exhausting. I want a drink soooo bad. I don’t know why. It won’t fix what’s wrong. It won’t actually relax me for anymore than that one drink and it won’t just be that one. Y’all are right when you say that. my inhibitions will be lowered by that first one and I’ll drink The rest of the bottle and tomorrow I’ll feel like complete crap and won’t be able to deal with the issues we encountered today. But tomorrow morning before I dive back into this nonsense I’m splurging On a fancy coffee. I can tell you that right now. A fancy coffee costs like 1/3 of what a bottle of wine would. I deserve that in the morning right? And tomorrow, I’ll be happy i didn’t drink today.
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Oh man. I love risotto. Good choice on pairing it with some leftovers to make something new. Also good job on your cleaning!
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Good job you! I’m so glad you came here instead.
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Remember the good things that come from sobriety, remember the pride you had in yourself. You can get this back, my friend. Keep working your program and checking in. We are here for you my friend.
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Thinking of you. I’m sorry it seems like the meds are making other things worse. Are they new meds?
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Good for you for coming here. How are you now?
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