I love how ur playing the tape to the end in ur post. Almost like ur talking urself thru the craving! Great work!! Everuthing ur saying in ur post is soo true. And cravings dont last forever. In the moment, they feel like they do. Buy they absolutely dont and ull feel so much stronger and more empowered knowing that u didnt let ur addiction bring u down!
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Congratulations!!!
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Sorry Iām a little lateā¦
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Thank you. I learned about playing the tape forward from @Peace just today. I guess the universe knew I was gonna need that lesson today. Iāve fed myself and showered and went in a little walk and I already feel about a thousand times better than I did a few hours ago.
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Evening check in
Day 216
Work went well. Came home and actually had a nice evening with my family. My son still is feeling a bit warm but nothing major. He is basically his old funny self again lol Will be keeping him home tmrw so that he can fully recover. Tmrw we will be picking up his glasses from the optometrist. Cant wait to take pics!
Recovery wise Im good! Constantly am grateful to be where I am today. No cravings or triggers or weird thoughts today.
Health wise I have so far managed to eat within my daily calories. That feels good after overeating for 2 days. Will be exercising at 530am tmrw bcuz my son is home tmrw from school.
Life is good 
In the grand scheme of things i have very, very little to complain about. Where i am today, is somewhere i only dreamed of back then when i was using. My life is not fancy by any means but it is the closest no ānormalityā i think i can get lol God is good!
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Day 3 Sober
Day 2 Smoke free
All i can say is its work in progressā¦Had to do night shift last night and it was a long boring night.Big test tomorrow working in shop with triggers all over so ill have to be on my toes and stay busyā¦And Im going to leave at the end of the day when tge co workerās crack that first beer i dont even care if its 3pm ill be on my way home to my safe placeā¦Its hard when everyone smokes in shop too.But on the flip side Im just sick of being sick so ill do what is right in my mindā¦
THANK YOU ALL FOR THE HELP
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Yeeeesā¦ Thank you Joe 
Made itā¦ And seeing things clearly! 
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Checking in and grateful for making it through today.
In two hours it will be 18 days!
Love to you allš
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Day 2104. Spent the day doing a few work emails, running a couple of errands and going to my womenās meeting in the park. Also helping both of my kids take baths! Not something you would typically do for two 14 year olds, but my son has to have his foot bagged to keep it dry after a surgery, and my daughter has special needs and needs help washing her hair. Iām feeling pretty present, which is good. Im not wishing my life or circumstances were different. Keep going, one day at a time (ODAAT).
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#Day 1461 
Thank you all for the wishes for my 4 year milestone!! 
Had a good day with nothing special actually. But having a good day was enough! Made a offer for an old Maria statue I saw on a second hand online shop and she accepted. Itās ātheā Maria from Lourdes and because I was in Lourdes twice it attracted me. Iām not relegious, but open minded and spiritual. Still thinking about that Maria statue in that Mexican restaurant where you could light a candle. I want such a place in my house! So Iām going to find a small serving plate. Going to put sand in it, my Maria statue and some tealights.
This is the statue I bought. Itās old and a bit worn out (hope thatās the right translation) but I like her face
Today? Work! And all alone in the shop because of lack of staff. I will survive
It doesnāt help to worry on front about it. And this time I didnāt.Have a great start of the week!
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Day 145 af
Cruising around olympic national park with my dad and son. Went whale watching. Going to drive down the oregon coast tomorrow and check out a bunch of beaches. My dad (also an alcoholic) hasnt had a sip on this whole trip. Had made it easy on me. Im grateful for these memories made and ones we will make. Going to see Roger Waters when we get back on Tuesday which will be icing on the cake. Lifes good. Much 
yall!
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Miranda im really proud of you, 18 days 
@HappyDays congrats on 3 days and 2 days!
I quit smoking and drinking at the same time too.
I had to they went hand in hand so i knew for me to really succeed in being sober i couldnt smoke.
I also would leave straight from work and go to your safe space, it does make being sober and smoke free a load easier when you really dont want a drink or smoke and being around it will just punish yourself and your mind will try to trick you into thinking its okay. Your doing great 
@Butterflymoonwoman congratulations on your 216 days, i admire your strength towards sobriety and to life itself. Im just catching up here so hope all is well
@Hayleylujah congratulations on your 100 days, loving seeing your paintings your very creative its nice to see you showing us your talent, also your hair looks beatifull curly - i love the curls i have them too
@Bluekoolaid 6 days is amazing, breaking the viscous cycle is the hardest and you have basically done it. Give it a little bit if time and you will be feeling more positive and back to yourself.
You relapsed, and your getting over it, so say goodbye to all the feelings that came along with that relapse that your holding on too, let them all go because you dont need to be carrying those low vibrational feelings around with you.
Your 6 days sober now you dont deserve to feel all that crap. Once you throw those feelings off your shoulders see what your left with, usually anger or frustration we carry around is pointless because it usually comes from the past something we cant change, so throw those feelings off your back, anxiety now is more a feeling about how we feel about the future or what we worry about day to day, use this feeling to help you stay sober while its there, work out what feelings you need to hold on your back and what ones are dragging you down which you cant change or do anything about, get rid of those feelings. The ones you cant get off your back are because there is still something you can do about them, there is still room for change so use the feelings your left with to make the neccasary changes- this isnt going to happen over night but will only happen as fast as you let it too.
You got this, you have done it before, just because you relapsed doesnt make you a bad person or any less of what you acheived, it just means you need to learn where that weakness came from to use, and make sure you make that a strength.
I know you can do this, i watched you go through stuff a person shouldnāt have to go through, look at where you are now Trevor.
Look at where you are and look at it like this if it helps- your 6 days today thats amazing, look around you, be mindful of where you are and your surroundings, the way you can live now properly, look how far you have come and pat yourself on the back because its far.
And the thing you need to think of while your looking around at what you achieved you need to remind yourself that you didnt do any real damage this time your really lucky, and your on day 6 thats something to be feel really happy about, that everything you got through, everything you acheived is still there, you havent ruined yet. Theres so much for you to lose, that you didnt lose this time, theres so much to be proud of yourself for. 
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@HeyImKris thats right, keep coming to the community here instead, it will soon be your natural reaction to come here and share and get support.
Im so glad your here with us, it really is nice knowing we all have eachother for support but not only that, its that the support comes from a place in all our hearts that we actually really do understand how hard it is, have either been there or are still there, together we are stronger and you do have us all here, there is always someone around.
Your doing so well, im glad you reached out here.
Sorry i missed your 30 days so congratulations on your 31 days thats a huge milestone.
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15 almost 16 months clean from meth.
Life is so much easier now tbh. Now I no longer have to watch my back worried about losing control and having a relapse. Now I feel like whenever I have a pang for crystal that my conscience is strong enough to remind myself why doing it is a bad idea. Still doing 2 meetings a week and daily readings to keep me in check.
Hope you all getting some progress in your recovery too x
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I actually bought one a few days ago. My heart rate is all over the place. 115 and then will go to 70 in 15 minutes
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Hey,
Thanks so much for the lovely comments and support very encouraging and I appreciate that. Enjoy your day x
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Day 201 of no self harm.
I am sick. My throat hurts so bad I havenāt been able to swallow my medication in a couple days. So that is probably the reason behind these feelings. I just have this god-awful sense of dread. It feels like nothing is ever going to be okay. Like this is just how I have to live my life. Iām so goddamn sick of fighting and struggling every fucking day to just function. Iām not even really functioning fully. I havenāt had a shower in a week, eating meals is near impossible, I havenāt brushed my teeth in months, any sleep I get feels useless because I wake up more exhausted. I donāt know if anyone else gets this, but when I feel this bad I get full body chills. I donāt know if itās the despair or dread or what. Nothing has even happened. I just feel like nothing gets better. Iāve been struggling as long as I can remember, and even when I have made tremendous progress things still feel just as bad sometimes. I know I probably need to call my friend but he just went to bed and I canāt bring myself to bother him with my existence right now. I donāt even really want to bother with my own existence why should he
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I am sorry you are feeling so awful. It almost sounds like you have Covid. Maybe you should get yourself checked if you havenāt checked yourself already? I hope you will quickly start feeling better where you can eat and take your medicine. Iām proud of you for not harming yourself. Keep us up-to-date
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They do. Sometimes they do. I know. They do for me too. Still we keep moving. We make progress. Ever so slowly but still. One day at a time. Hugs.
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Triple Digits Lady! Thatās amazing! Astounding! Astonishing! Huge congrats!
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