Well it was a great weekend with my girls. Hit 3 months today. Also had my 1300 dollar bike that I just got stolen from the gym when I got back. Really wanna cry but need to stay strong. Much love
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Iāve tried a couple AA meetings so far. One was great, I plan to continue going to that meeting weekly and another was so volatile and upsetting.
Iāll look into SMART.
Prior to all of this, drinking - Iād had an eating disorder from age 14.
Iām going to keep working toward this. Iām tired to my bones.
I just havenāt gotten it right, I feel like a waste of potential and so much opportunity.
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Congrats on 3 months! Sorry about the bike. That blows
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Awwww thank you for caring and thatās good to hear that you called and are feeling better. Yeah we go through a lot of the same things you and I. I like what you said about taking small steps and thatās exactly what weāre doing even though itās hard as fuck to do sometimes. Iām really grateful for you Mel and Iām glad weāre walking this path together, much love and respect 
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Hey Scot Iām in San Diego, Ca
You and I are on exactly the same page. Sleep well! 
Joining us is a great start, welcome to TS!
I wish I knew; I struggle with the same things. If you find something that works, please share it!
Congratulations to @Jesile for 30 days and @Scotie for 5 months! 
@Twizzlers 11 months is awesome, and the Big One is only a month away. You are doing fantastic; donāt let anyone, not even family, take that from you!!
@Butterflymoonwoman Mondays are your favorite? Things are significantly different in Canada, eh? Seriously though Iām happy youāve had a great day.
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A very nondescript day. Not a bad one though. A lady I met last week came through with the bus pass she promised. So no more excuses for sitting around the house. I have to get back into the real world. 
Met with my Peer Support guy and we hung out at the lake for a couple hours. Had taco burgers for dinner. The taco shells I got were all stale and chewy, so I used hamburger buns. I know thatās ghetto AF but itās really good. Unfortunately, I ended up taking a nap, so Iāll be awake all night.
On the bright side, I may be able to hit the gym tomorrow. Have a great sober evening, friends. 
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Hey! Mondays are MY favorite day of the week too. Apparently weāre oddballs for that. Lol. Go team Monday!
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AA meetings can vary greatly. I have only done online, but some were definitely not for me. Glad you found one that jives. Not to the extent to call it a eating disorder, but I also suffer from disordered eating. They both stem from the same thing, I think. I just started OA meetings too. I also get tired. Why do I have to work so hard just to feel normal? You are not a waste of anything. You are just doing the best with what you have, like we all are.
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Wow Iām sooo sorry sbout ur bike 
thatās beyond devastating. Iām glad ur staying strong in ur recovery and not letting this effect u. Huge congratulations on 3 months. U have worked very hard to get here 
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Haha ur āehā made me laugh haha yes Mondays are my fav. They are the days when I get to renew and refresh my routine. I guess thats bcuz I often screw up near the end of the week when it comes to my routine and also with how I eat. So Mondays are my reset days lol anyway they make me happy bcuz I usually do well on Mondays. Plus I get to work out after having 2 days off due to work hope u had a good day too Mark!
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Yes!!! Another person that loves Mondays! It IS soo rare lmao. Whats ur reason for loving Mondays?
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Iām sorry that you feel downplayed. I can really relate to that. 11 months is a big deal! Think about how far youāve come and treat yourself to something nice!
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Congratulations on 3 months! Iām sorry about your bike man, hopefully Karma unleashes Holy hell on the theifā¦
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Checking in after a weekend out of town. I spent time with my fantastic family and celebrated my nephew turning 2. I also stayed sober staying in a swanky hotel by myself.
While at dinner one night my brotherās friend passed out, fell out of our dinner booth and laid on the floor for a good minute after numerous beers (12-15) and (I found out later) lots of weed. I stayed calm and shared a bit of my sober journey with him while I drove him home. Scary stuff but it made me very happy that Iām off the sauce. I can control my alcohol intake by not having any which insures I will never be in that scenario. I wish him health and healing.
I stopped at the bar my sister works in after I got back into town. I drank 5 ice teas, spent $6 total and left when the sun went down. I was not even a little tempted.
Sorry for the swear but fuck alcohol. I had known the kid who passed out at dinner for 20+ years as an acquaintance and as soon as I saw him I knew he was in an unhealthy place. He is my age and looks 20-30 years older. His skin was gray. This weekend reinforced the knowledge that alcohol is literally poison for bodies. Iām staying cozy on the couch with pizza and lots of water on my last night off. Keep at it everyone. That stuff is garbage.
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Pretty good. Still feel like this weird unfocused irritability. Iām sick of feeling this way every single day, but Iām apparently stuck with it. Itās been a good day over all, I just donāt feel great.
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Congrats on the 3 months Mike.
Thatās sucks about your bike. Sorry to hear that.
Bastards 
Glad you had a great weekend with your girls.
Good plan. Staying strong.
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Hey checking in on day 444. Crazy stressful day. I am a bit frazzled. Hope you are all well.
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Checking in-10 days sober
I have been playing phone tag with my doctor and the pharmacy. Trying to get my medication straightened. I donāt knowā¦ It is so frustrating navigating the healthcare system. Pre-authorizations, out of network, etc. Nonetheless, I think Iām going to get my new meds tomorrow or possibly the next day. Living here in California there are just so many people, so the pharmacy runs out of medication and they donāt have my medication in stock. Sigh~
On a good note I got a call out of the blue from a therapist that I emailed. She is a Christian therapist and also does cognitive behavioral therapy. Iām really excited to meet her. I have my first therapy session with her tomorrow. I am hopeful that we can really dig deep into my issues and get myself healthy again. Stay tuned!
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Congratulations brother, on hitting three monthās sober! Awesome!
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That really sucks. Please tell me it was insured. Congrats on your 3 months. 
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