This one is for you, by you, 100%. They don’t get it. Too bad for them. We do. You do. Your son does. This is HUGE! The countdown to your full year of freedom is on! This is the biggest gift you have given yourself, you’ve done this all yourself and NO ONE is going to take that away from you. Be very very proud dear friend. I am of you. HUGE congrats one day ahead. Keep going. ODAAT and all that. Love and hugs and everything good your way, you so deserve it. x
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@Cjp @Butterflymoonwoman @Bluekoolaid @Mno
Thank you all so much 
I think your right I feel let down, but as long as I don’t let myself down that’s all that matters.
I dont know what I’d do without you all here, I know this is the same for many of us.
I think il look for meetings in that area tonight so I have it all set up.
Thank you all, for being so caring and supportive.
I feel okay I know I wont drink, but it’s so easy for all the right circumstances (really there wrong, but right to head to a relapse) to just pop up when we dont expect it for example we feel low, then we have bad cravings then we feel let down then all we need to relapse is that excuse that no one cares… and it can happen to any of us at any time and tomorrow I can see myself sitting in a coffee shop that just happens to be opposite a pub where everyone looks like there having fun and I happen to be feeling sorry for myself 
so I will have a good plan in place and il be okay and the meeting is definitely the best place to be for the support I guess I’m looking for.
Thank you all for helping me realise and feel this is a great achievement and just because my family dont get it doesnt actually matter all that matters is I make it special for me, and I really appreciate your guys care and support so much.
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Everytime guaranteed you all make me feel so nice, and like I matter. I love that we all share this care toward eachother each and eveyone of us matter and we let eachother know this.
I’m also really proud to be here with such caring people
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11 months is amazing. Congratulations! Dont let the sour moment totally put out the flame of joy! You deserve to feel proud and cook something good.
Im glad your son is supportive!
Depending on your situation, maybe you could have a conversation with them about how hard you worked and plan a real celebration for your 1 year? anniversaries are more commonly understood and might be a good time to talk about it.
Either way, congratulations and im glad youre not drinking today.
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Exactly I think having a good plan in place is a good idea for tonight. Keep us updated and please reach out if you’re struggling. We are here for you.
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Thank you, I think I may need to just get used to the idea that my sobriety doesnt matter to some.
And that that’s okay.
Lower my expectations but keep my head up high and keep going one day at a time 
The meeting I think is what il concentrate on, and being here, being around those who do understand.
Thanks.
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Thank you, I will keep updated.
My mums is a 30nmin bus ride away so I have the plan that I can just come back home if I need to, but the idea of doing something felt good too.
And I think a meeting and sharing will help, I usually just listen at meetings.
Thank you for your support.
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5 months today- so far the defusion mindfulness is helping as a follow up of getting into more ongoing action regarding taxes, employer and getting settled in to what’s next in that arena. Shit felt really messy and I’ve been feeling on vapor lock status for a few weeks until another person helped with phrasing that just made sense and kicked off a gameplan. Sometimes I have to remember it takes more than just opening up to a couple of people for what makes sense- wishing you all positivity.
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Hiking, love it. What part of the country are you in Rob?
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Checking in, day 661. I had a good day, did some work and chores and then took my kids to the forest where they had their first hike on their own. It was a half an hour walk through the woods with a self-drawn map. I followed another path, we met at the bottom of the hill. They enjoyed it a lot and are already planning our next trip.
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Checking in on day 30
Today I had a relaxed day, no sport whatsoever! Tomorrow I’ll go lane swimming! 
Did some grocery shopping in the morning, and in the afternoon I went to the pool. After that, a friend of mine came over to install 2 new taps I bought for the bathroom/shower. I informed my landlord by sending some pictures (I always keep him informed about stuff related to his apartment), and he kindly made a Bizum of 50€! 
My current landlord is really the best I’ve had in 21 years of living on my own. 
Hitting my one month mark today, baby steps! 
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Huge congratulations 
woo hoo!!! Sooo proud of you 
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Thanks Dana! 
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Checking in
Day 196
Honestly today has been really good (but Mondays usual are for me as it’s my fav day of the week). I got up and put my son on the bus for school. Had a wicked workout, got some sun, did a meditation on pain (I had a headache and the meditation worked to get rid of it!!), prayed to God, worked on my weight control book which is really showing me alot of things about whats been going on for me and my weight. Basically, I have to work on how I interpret my failures regarding anything that has to do with my weight, being aware of my negative internal dialog and then working on changing that. I also have to stop blaming things and situations for my weight gain and to realize that I am responsible for my own choices and actions. I’ve learnt so much and this is the 1st Key out of 7 to go thru. I did some cleaning also and did some self care. Ate well today and hydrated myself well. I feel good! I’m excited for a personal milestone of mine in recovery which is hitting the 200s in 4 days. Just grateful 
🥲
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Checking in day 5. Gonna try and do an online AA meeting tonight because work was rough today, I’m tired, and I’m not leaving the damn house now that I’m home. @Lovelylisha " Drinking alcohol is like pouring gasoline on your anxiety". This is so true. I spent years thinking I was drinking away anxiety only to realize how much worse it makes it. Have a great day guys.
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Day 80 
Clocking those days up
Today was meh. That is all. Going to bed soon out of boredom and apathy
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On Day 5,
Checking in for the first time. I’ve have such huge waves of hopelessness that I’ve been fighting through.
I lost my dad a year ago, left a long term abusive relationship at the beginning of this year and then lost my job in May.
In 2020 I was charged with a DUI and maintained sobriety for 2 years, and got it dismissed June 2022.
Since this June I’ve had a few bad periods of time, weeks of drinking.
This is the first time I’m living on my own and I’m so scared and overwhelmed at the responsibility and dire need of financial stability.
I’ve worked in retail and hr/payroll for 10 years with great salary, always able to care for myself but I was never living alone… I really feel the pressure of not losing myself to this disease.
I’m also looking for a new psychiatrist and counseling and it’s all scheduling on an 8-10 week wait.
I feel so down, desperate, and fearful. There’s been a pit of worry and grief in my stomach for days.
I am feeling at the end of my rope. I don’t know what steps to take to see this through.
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Congratulations on 5 months!!! Huge accomplishment
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I had not heard of that. Thank you so much for the encouragement 
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