Sounds like a plan, I guess you’ll let us know how it ends! Im just getting up now! Im still on holidays, so im kicking my day off in slow motion… 
Now it’s breakfast time! 
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Safe travel @SoberWalker , thanks for sharing so much w us! What airline is that? Very cool pic… whether you are walking or flying, you sure get the photo shots!
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Oh I’m so sorry you are struggling. Did you try that meditation that was suggested ( I haven’t scrolled down to see)
Change is so scary, but really great things can come out of it. Please remember that these feelings of anxiety will pass. I had a night like that a few days ago…it was awful. Tomorrow is a new day. Night time anxiety always amplifies things I find. I hope you are feeling a bit better.
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Ha ha, thank you! That airline was Pegasus. At this moment at the airport of Istanboel. Flying at 13.00. Tonight I’m sleeping in my own bed 
Going to miss the good food though! This was yesterday: Falafel with yogurtdressing
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Thank you!
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Day 39
I am fine…bit tired today, but I treat myself and alow a bit of lazyness today. Tonight I will ride by bike to my group therapy… Way back it’s dark, but I have a “safe me” contact who knows the way I am driving.
Little bit of yoga before lunch. 
I am creating a delicious (hopefully) pumpkin quiche with spelled dough as I don’t eat wheat. The pumpkin is from my mother’s garden. I will post photos in Foodies thread.
In the afternoon I will read a bit in a new book i started “Die Kunst des Liebens (The Art of Loving)” by Erich Fromm". I was not able to read at all during drinking and constant hangover. Totally unable to concentrate and my eyes were hopping around the lines. Maybe I will be able to joyn reading as a new hobby, there is so much good stuff to be read.
I love my new sober life 
Send you some 
Take care and stay sober 
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Great seeing you on here Kaeo! I always appreciate your honest insights. Congratulations on all of these clear headed days.
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Hey all, checking in on day 807. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Hi friends, I’ve been wandering off into the relapse hinterlands but I’m back. What’s different this time? Good question. I’m checking in, keeping a daily diary so I notice the cravings before I act on them and I’m going to stay busy!
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After a couple of weeks of feeling a bit low, unmotivated, in my own head, I guess hormones have changed, and have signed up to one exercise and two study things in the last few days. I am glad to feel better, but wish I was a bit more stable. Reading about the energy crisis that looks set to hit the UK makes me worried for people this winter. But I guess I have to focus on what is in my control.
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I took this picture yesterday but forgot to post it:
1700 sober days! I don’t look at my timers too often, I more use this app to read, like and respond to you fine people, but it is nice to check once in a while to see how time passes.
A little over four and a half years ago I woke for the thousandth time after maybe an hour of fitful sleep…nauseous, headachey, nose stuffy and raw. Spent the morning trying to “hair of the dog” myself back to feeling ok, but spent it instead, throwing up, lying on the floor of my bathroom between sweats and chills, feeling like death.
I looked in my bathroom mirror and saw, I just SAW the path I was heading down. I didn’t know how fast it would take me, or the details of what I would lose, but I knew the destination.
What I DIDNT know, was what my life looked like if I put the bottle and the drugs DOWN instead.
1700 days later, I do stuff like mile long dawn swims with my 75 year old father at our favorite lake, I am im the process of buying a home, I graduated in May with a masters degree, got married to an amazing man, am supporting my dogs through their senior days with some tears and a lot of joy, falling into a restorative yoga practice to help me navigate a nervous system that has been out of whack since childhood (only now….I can finally sense it!), I am showing up for my family rather than running from them, I supported my mother and family as she spent her last days unconscious in the ICU and passed. I am starting to go to the gym in order to create a more loving relationship with my body, I am learning Spanish! I am STILL anxious and can fall into moments of fearing life, but I have the tools now to sense when I am doing it and make another choice.
It’s not all roses, but at the same time…it kinda is…because I and doing it SOBER!
I remember seeing people on here with years of sober time in my first few weeks and just…not being able to fathom getting sober for that long, but…day after day of making sobriety a non-negotiable part of my day, coming on here to read, like, respond and post, reading revocery books and listening to sobriety podcasts, getting myself away from any and all drug use and drinking for the first year, Cognitive Behavioral Therapy exercises, meditation, restorative yoga, confiding in my sober support network, and generally making sobriety my full time job for the first year or so has helped me get my life back.
When I think back to that me in the bathroom mirror 1700 days ago, I am so glad that I decided to turn off the road I was on, that I heard that most quiet voice shouting from deep inside me telling me it wanted to live.
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Congratulations… This is so awesome 
And thanks for always being so active here
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Thank you very much!
Thanks Menno!
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Happy Tuesday my friends! Not that I trust the weather predictions but it looks like a great weather week if it holds out. Have a great one!
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Awwwwww congratulations on your 11 months!!! I am so sorry your family is like that I’m sure it hurts a lot!! We love you and are proud of you though, every single day!!! I hope you have an amazing dinner with your son and that you can really embrace the awesomeness of how far you’ve come. AWESOME JOB!!! 
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Day 809 clean and sober today. Congratulations to all of the milestones I saw today WOW I’m so super proud of everyone here!!! Took myself to breakfast yesterday morning then napped, went to the movies and then a really nice hike after that. I exhausted myself and was in bed by 8pm… excellent. Feeling a little better then I have been slowly. I wonder how much has to do with moon phases etc.??? I’m seeing that there’s a few of us going through the same type of energy/depression/whatever kind of a shitstorm lately at the same time. Interesting for sure… Anyways, I hope everyone has an amazing and beautiful day today I love you all a lot!!!
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