As with everything almost all the suffering we experiences in our minds once I got in there I found the nicest people; so helpful and complimentary despite my obvious noob status lol. You know I have terrible add but throughout the entire time I did not think about anything except for the task at hand and that’s a gift in itself. It’s also very humbling, which I generally need for years I’ve said about how I have this terrible temper and sometimes things stick in my crawl and I need to address them with other people but when that energy and aggression is not tempered with humility I think it’s dangerous and for somebody like me it could put me in some bad situations.
Thank you for your encouragement as well in this. You’re Killin it on the fitness dedication front btw, keep up the great work!!
I’m glad to see you still putting up the good fight even though some days are rougher then others and the old feeling do come to up especially with what you went through and for that I am glad you are still here carrying that message of hope that light that shines in the dark. I was stuck feeling like I had no options and then one day I just decided to take a leap of faith and started something completely different. It was scary yet exciting so if traveling through Europe is what you want I will always say go for it
Now catching up with everyones posts…then i’ll pack for my first sober camping trip. Yippee. I was worried before about camping without booze but im really looking forward to it now
I’m so glad it was a great experience or u again! It really sounds like it grounds you and keeps u being in the moment. I find that exercise too… particularly weight lifting. My mind sometimes would wander and then just focusing on the weight and the mind-muscle energy really helps me to have that tike for me and just focus my mind on 1 thing other than a million other things lol. Thanks for the compliment also! I apprecoate the support how often do u go now? Once or twice a week? Everyday?
I haven’t made time to read and catch up on this thread but wanted to do a quick check in(as I thought I’d have more time but got busy)
I had to reset.
I made a week and then I didn’t take care of myself the way I should have.
Ive spent a lot of time today seeing all the things I could have done and the reasons I stopped at the liquor store in the first place.
I am curious if I put this as day Zero or day one that really what does everyone else do? (It’s almost 7pm here, and I drank my last drink around the same time last night)
I’m sorry u had a slip girl… keep at it tho and don’t give up. U deserve a happy life. One that’s free from alcohol! Day 1 would be 24 hours after ur last drink I’m glad ur back Miranda. Big hugs!!
Evening Check In Day 199
I’m feeling irritable and overwhelmed right now. I’m so done with this heat here. Where the hell is the fall weather? Lol I have been battling with my head alot today. Not with using drugs but with my eating. I can’t believe how much my head was consumed with overeating/emotional eating today. I have stuck to my eating/exercise plan for soon to be 4 whole days. I’m waiting for the time that my mind stops urging me to eat when I really don’t want to. Stuff did trigger thr urge to cope with food. Lots of stressors today in dealing with people. Wifi kept cutting out so had to deal with internet company. My sons medical appt was delayed by 2 hours (they moved our appt time without telling us). I surprisingly kept my cool even tho all I wanted to do was bitch about it and be mean about it. I’m learning to attract flies with honey and not shit Basically I resolve things better if I keep my cool therefore getting what I want and also making the moment a teachable one for the future for them. Today has just been trying overall. Just alot of challenging my own thoughts and behaviors. I’m exhausted and need rest.
Check in- it will be two weeks sober tomorrow. Last night I had my first drinking dream. I’ve often heard of this experience during AA meetings. I really didn’t understand them or understand how the person felt who is having the drinking dream. Now I understand. I woke up feeling like I drank and I felt so guilty. Gross! The dream was not fun at all and I am so grateful that I am still sober and it was nothing but a dream.
Hey thanks for the congrats ya’ll!! This has been my favorite milestone yet. I didnt get that wierd icky i wanna use/ wtf am i doing feeling. Im finding a new peace
Hi, my name is Melissa and I’m new here. Was just recommended this thread by @Dazercat (thank you!).
I’m 4 days sober today. My vice is cannabis. I’ve basically been constantly high since the pandemic started (after a 10 year break but 30 years of usage).
Last night was rough, which is why I downloaded this app. Wicked bad insomnia. Today was better than yesterday, although I broke down crying a couple times and was very tempted to numb the pain. Decided to open the app today to seek solace.
A friend suggested I drink some wine but I worry I’d just be replacing one unhealthy addiction for another.
Anyway, just checking in. Hopefully tomorrow will be better and I can get some sleep tonight. Weed withdrawal is no joke!
how often do u go now? Once or twice a week? Everyday?
Evening Check In 
I have been battling with my head alot today. Not with using drugs but with my eating. I can’t believe how much my head was consumed with overeating/emotional eating today. I have stuck to my eating/exercise plan for soon to be 4 whole days. I’m waiting for the time that my mind stops urging me to eat when I really don’t want to. Stuff did trigger thr urge to cope with food. Lots of stressors today in dealing with people. Wifi kept cutting out so had to deal with internet company. My sons medical appt was delayed by 2 hours (they moved our appt time without telling us). I surprisingly kept my cool even tho all I wanted to do was bitch about it and be mean about it. I’m learning to attract flies with honey and not shit 
Basically I resolve things better if I keep my cool therefore getting what I want and also making the moment a teachable one for the future for them. Today has just been trying overall. Just alot of challenging my own thoughts and behaviors. I’m exhausted and need rest.
I love the color of that chip! Have fun camping!