It sounds like you have a valid reason to me. If I had to drive that far, and it was upsetting me so much that it was affecting my mental health, I would tell him I can only do virtual.
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Thanks! Yeah he wonāt do virtual unless youāre like in traction or something he want to see you in person. Iām probably gonna change docs soon but I wanted to find a comfy dosage before I started shopping around. Gotta get that depression under control come hell or high water. Ya know? Lol
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Right? Same though. 
Well thatās frustrating for you but I hope he can help and if itās not working well I hope you can find a new doctor 
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Hope each and wveryine of you. Rock the hell out if sobriety and your day!
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I think itās because I drank over a half gallon of water yesterday! Iāve heard about how important water is Iāve just never been a water drinker. I think Iām changing my ways and going to see what happens. Have a great day bro! 
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Oh dont worry, i just wanted to make sure you knew i didnt forget that is all x no need to worry about likes and stuff, honestly i run out of likes all the time and respond to what i can and i dont stress if i cant reach everybody as much as id like to.
I think the great thing about being here is there is always someone here so theres no pressure. I just didnt want you to think i had missed your amazing milestone 
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Oh Wow @maxwell Your diamond art work is amazing !! How beautifully framed too
Its great to see you 
@Miranda So proud to see your 5 day chip, you got this 
That was a rather nasty little dig from MIL but great of you to overcome and not react well done. You know you can get through and that is such a great accomplishment im smiling like a cheshire cat right now.
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mornings check in
Day 204
Started my day out with a crazy cardio workout. Normally i dont like cardio but i have been trying to change my thinking on it lol i dont technically HAVE to do cardio but I GET to do cardio and im grateful for that. I am liking it just a tiny bit more everytime i do it haha
My son is at school so its me time today. Going to do a meditation bcuz i havent done one on 3 days. Then some cleaning and some running around to do. Basic day but I sure am grateful!
Hope everyone has am addiction free day!
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Happy Tuesday all! Back to business as usual after the holiday. Have an awesome day!
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Wow!! Good job!
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loving that number cate. 
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Just hit 6 months today. Did not even realize i was coming up on it.
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Thats great @Jmillwill ill take my hat off to you. However you are doing it, its working. Keep going mate.
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1014 days without gaming
14 days without youtube
6 days without TV, streaming services etc.
I overslept today. By 15 minutes. For the second day in a row. Whilst Iām a managerā¦ But I donāt really care all that much 
Why do I not care that much? Because I have been working my ass off for both work and college. Adding to that the fact that I stay late, usually longer than 15 minutes, most of my shifts.
And why am I happy about that? Because I would have been deeply disappointed in myself only a few months ago. I wouldāve beaten myself up and I would have been criticising myself all day.
Unrelated to that: My manager was a fucking bitch this morning. I am used to her seeming unkind; she has a loud voice and doesnāt know how to properly convey emotion using her voice, so her jokes sound like snide remarks if youāre not aware of her āissuesā. And thatās okay that she struggles with that, but it can be hard to get used to.
Yesterday, however, she was pissed off during our weekly meeting because our store wasnāt tidy, i.e. little scraps of plastic and cardboard on the floor, tire marks from dirty containers, not properly cleaned food spills etc. I agree with her that it should change, a lot, but she was cursing.
Come this morning, the first thing she does is micro-manage and nitpick me about the garbage of last nightās shift manager and the crew.
I understand sheās pissed, but I donāt have the time to walk to her from the back of the warehouse to halfway through the store to show me someone left a roll of paper towels! Not to forget that she blocked off an emergency exit by shoving containers away because they were in her way.
First off: hell no bitch, you are not blocking off an emergency exit because something is in your way in a part of the warehouse you never use.
Secondly: You have previously implied that people who were blocking that exit had a lack of intelligence. Hypocrite asshole.
Thirdly, those containers have always been there because we have to use them there and no one cares, not even the people who have to use the cleaning station that those containers were, barely, obstructing.
Despite the fact that sheās been a store manager for decades in many stores, she doesnāt understand that work culture is not going to change in one day. It takes time, not nagging.
Besides all the nagging, she was also making snide remarks through our headphones for all employees to hear.
I was pissed and demotivated all morning despite my efforts to ignore the negativity.
Thursday, I am going to confront her. I will no longer tolerate abuse in my workplace. I have had it. And getting me to stand up against someone who shows even a little authority takes a lot.
All of this doesnāt mean I have a terrible job or that sheās a terrible person. I truly enjoy my job and my boss can be very caring. Sheās even lent me a few self-help books about negative thinking. But she can be an awful boss to work forā¦ Great learning opportunity though 
This evening Iāve been trying to get control over my homework. There is so much 
And I never really did anything for school at home before. I am way too unorganised to even start because the second I sit down for it I donāt know where to start because thereās so much. Like 100 pages of theory each week for only one of the four subjects. I have a full-time job! I donāt have time for that much homework!
But maybe I do. I have spent a few hours today making a plan of how Iām going to approach my homework. Iāve got to learn that investing time in organising is profitable. Itāll help me do whatever Iām organising efficiently and with a level head. Two things I donāt have yet 
And another thing I donāt have anymore is time to abuse technology 
Welp, this short check-in turned into an hour of ranting and progress reports 
Iām off to bed now.
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Hi!! Iām rarely on this thread anymore because it runs about 100mph and I couldnāt keep up & became overwhelmed. I do want to thank you for your response to me from my last depressed post on this one, it meant a lot and Iām doing better.
I try to post daily on the gratitude thread, that one I can keep up on almost every post.
Have a great day and thank you for the compliment. My newest one I have has cats in it.
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Hi, thank you!!
And I saw your Milestone, that isā¦
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Day 156
Itās been a productive day, but at the same time I just screamed out loud to my brain ādo you ever fkn shut up in there??ā
The internal monologues and constant brain-chatter & questioning, plus compulsive & intrusive thoughts is like if a Walmart supercenter merged with an airport and a food court.
I get tired of myself despite my efforts
Anyways still going to keep doing the things and workout, etc, obviously not turning back after all this time lol
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Just checking in, my boss who started in march is leaving in a month. Im nervous. I dont like the unknown.
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