Good morning all I’m still sober. I’m really pretty happy that my wife and I talked a few days ago because we had a few days left of Summer where we’re both off and I didn’t want to be a grumpy, Moody asshole to them and to everyone else as I always am whenever I go sober. However we decided to bite the bullet early because getting sober next week just doesn’t fucking work for me (or probably anyone else). In a hindsight despite my best efforts I feel terrible about the way I’ve been generally responding to everything and everyone i love in the world but fuck it. I feel terrible all the time anyway so might as well be trying to get better right? Anyway, I hope everyone has a nice sober day.
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Happy Saturday! Hope everyone is having an awesome weekend!
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@SoberWalker Claudia these pics are amazing! What a beautiful gift to be able to see all this! Hope u enjoy ur day!
@Matt Have a great day Matt! Hope u get some time to relax also in ur busy day 
those skills sound helpful! Can I ask what the class is?
@Shaunda Huge congratulations to you on 3 months!! Extremely proud of u!!
@Nordique have a great Saturday! Love seeing those #s go up!
@Piglet86 happy birthday to Nathan!!! Hope u both have a great day!
@misokatsu how cool is this?! I’ve heard of those robots but have never actually seen one! Those insects look cool!
@mno those clouds are incredible! What a sight!!
@onthewagon31 big big congratulations to you on 4 whole months!! 
@miranda This right here is sooo true.
I remember someone asking me one time… “would you talk to a friend the same way you talk to urself?”. And of course I said no. She then said, “Well, I think it’s time u start being ur own best friend then”. Ur doing amazing lady! Hugs!!
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Day 806 clean and sober. Yesterday was a complete shit show inside of me. My mind, spirit and body were all off so bad. I always live with a certain amount of suicidal ideation on a daily basis but yesterday was really tough coupled with thoughts of getting fucked up which I haven’t really had in a very long time. I went to bed immediately after work and woke up around 2am feeling a little better. Did some meditation and went back to sleep. Work today and tomorrow then I’m off so I’m going to do my best to make it through the weekend. I hope everyone has a really good day today, love you guys a lot 
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Hugs Rob. That sounds incredibly tough 
Some days are definitely harder than others. The great thing tho… this too shall pass. I’m grateful that u have the tools within u to recognize when things are hard and to be able to manage them and come out from it all still clean and sober. I have never known what brings on those moments. Some days are just hard with the “inner pull” and I can’t trace a cause for it. But we have a choice today and we can make healthy decisions to support the kind of life we want Really hoping ur day is better for you!
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Checking in, day 659. Still not much work here, yesterday I assembled furniture, it was fun, but I’m still pretty sore - apart from that it was a good day today. Went for a walk with the kids to the forest. We hike there regularly, so I will draw a map of the path and soon let them go alone while I’ll go to the end of the forest on another path. They’re super excited about that. Last time we went there at night with flashlights, we all enjoyed it a lot. I’m glad they like nature so much. I want to teach them about forests and maps and orientation as much as I can.
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The meditation class is part of an Adult ADHD course I am taking at a Cognitive-Behaviour Therapy clinic in my city. I’m really enjoying it; it helps me take some time specifically for myself each day.
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Day 9. Had a pretty serious desire to stop at the store yesterday, but I didn’t. That was my first real craving since I started. Just went home and took some Tylenol PM and went to sleep. Life is hard. I’m pressing through.
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Whoa!! That’s so cool!
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That’s very cool! Really happy for you that u get some time for u
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Thank you so much Dana I appreciate your support a lot
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Start of day three. Honestly I don’t think that I’ll start to try to tell myself it’s ok to drink for a few months. Till then I’ll remember how crap I felt when drinking. but I’m gonna check in every day anyhow even though I feel like a poser cause I know the rationalizing will start eventually. Last time I didn’t do check ins cause I felt fake. And then when I wanted to pop in and say hey I’m thinking about drinking can someone talk me off the ledge, I didn’t do it cause I was like well you never check in with those people why should they help you? So I drank all summer, in increasing amounts, and felt worse for it.
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That is awesome! Love the outdoors. Nowhere around here though requires a map and compass. All paved bike trails.
@Rockstar24777 I’m so glad those feelings passed, stay strong friend. 
I’ve gotten exactly that same advice. I don’t know about you, but my biggest struggle isn’t really alcohol; it’s being a friend to myself. 
@Piglet86 Happy Birthday Nathan!! Easter eggs in August is a great way to spend the day, it’s like when I have breakfast food for dinner! I saw Kev’s photo shoot on the pets thread. He knows he’s the star of the show and will start acting like a diva if you don’t keep his ego in check. 
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Woke up late. Actually I woke up at exactly 4am then went back to bed. So I run to my camping spot and place my Abundance checks in an old tree and did some meditating.
Soon as I get home, Joe is knocking on my door within 30 seconds wanting me to fix his TV. He thinks cuz I work on computers I have some kind of magic wand and fix anything electronic. There’s nothing to fix. His tv is 15 years old and needs to be replaced. 
I told him I’d look at it after I cooled off a little bit and ate lunch. Instead of taking the hint to leave, he hung out for another 15 minutes until he realized I was ignoring him.
But, good news. Last Wednesday, I ran into a woman and we ended up talking to this lady. I looked homeless sitting where I was with my backpack. After discussing my situation for a while she gave me $20 and said her church would help with transportation. She texted me today a said she had a one-month bus pass I could pick up on Monday! I can get back to work!
Anyway, have a great sober weekend, peoples! 
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Yup! Good on you for resisting. There will be more times like this but keep going!
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Congratulations! It feels good to get those chips.
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Watching my first college football game sober in I DONT KNOW HOW LONG. A little sad FOMO but enjoying following the game
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One thing I like about this app is there are always new people on here, and always someone who has the time and energy to respond to a call for relapse temptation support like that.
I was more active on other threads+ watching the clock nonstop the first 60 days, now I dont watch the clock almost at all and this is the thread im most on because it helps to ground myself and keep me in a sober mindset.
Some like to post a lot, some like it for the timer and post little, some like talking about addiction threads, some like the fun/distracting threads about other topics.
All that to say, this apps purpose is to help with sobriety. dont be afraid to use the app in whatever strategy keeps you sober.
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Day 175
I did dishes and cleaned my bathroom, and did laundry. Im going to make air fryer tofu tonight 
Moved my roommates booze in the fridge to their wine fridge. I wasnt that tempted by them in there, but it just for some reason feels better to have them in another place. Im not bothered by the liquor cabinet in the living room and have barely looked at it, it feels like my roommates possessions. Though now that I think about it, if that was my alcohol it wouldnt be an accumulation of many bottles sat barely touched for months. Id be…drinking it. Wish I had had that restraint.
Then i looked at more depressing online content, and im in the afternoon kind of floating in my head. I could organize my pens and brushes. I should shower. I should read! And get some work done. Ive been dying on my phone.
One day at a time.
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