Day 191
I learned about toilets and fixing them. Would rather learn about toilets and actual real things and do art than stew forever in shit i cant change. The past certainly doesnt go away and informs my choices and options and everything. I have thought about ending my life but just cant.
I need to at least try.
Not good tonight, not ok at all emotionally, but life is going to happen whether i am ok or not. Coffee and melatonin.
Just remember feelings are temporary and you will get thru this. Sorry you are struggling but we are here for you sober buddy
Evening check in
Day 210
Day was pretty good overall. Another clean and sober day under my belt. Did the things I set out for myself to do today. Also had a good cry and a good prayer session with God. Decided to step outside my comfort zone and cook something from scratch. Made a good supper that my husband enjoyed! Yay 
My boy is doing well. Currently sleeping and getting his rest. No school for him tmrw. We have a pediatrician appt tmrw and a haircut for him, to do. Bcuz he is home tmrw I have to wake my butt up at 530am to do cardio tmrw. Hoping for a restful sleep 
Hope everyone is managing okay today! Proud of all of u for persevering!
Iām sorry that you are having a rough day. Wish you peace.
Hi @Alycia-
So good to hear from you. I too donāt like sitting with my brain and feelings 24/7. At least you are doing something about it-Going to the gym. Good for you! Thinking about you. Peace- Mike
I hope everything goes ok at work. Maybe it wonāt be as bad as you think 
Ur doing all the right things girl! I understand that fear. It scares me too. Honestly, i think being on our toes in recovery is a good thing tho. We dint underestimate addiction/alcoholism bcuz it is soo sneaky and powerful. I definitly have respect for how powerful it is. I never take things for granted. If we stay doing the next right thing and reaching out for support like u are, all will be well
Thank you. It helps to think, i want to try a full year of actually showing up. I also got 3 hr sleep last night which cant help.
Didnt tidy for 15 min but i did wash my car and do all the dishes and set my alarm for early am.
Hope ur night is ok. I notice its raw for a lot of people. Rooting for you as well.
Oh today ended rough. Dealing with an abusive type of person who is among other things, furious that I said I go to AA now. Adrenalin is high. Prayers are in order I guess, if I want to sleep. Im taking 24, wishing 24 for all of you too.
1193
New workweek. After a one day weekend. Thatās a bit short but I did make the best of it. Did a pretty long bike ride to the woods and sands. Had some good food. Was in bed in time. And I do have a job to go to today, one I like actually. Grateful for all that.
Have as good a Tuesday as you all can friends. Making it sober and clean is the first condition for a good one. Itās why weāre here. Love from my bike ride.
@Minatasha & @Fiarra Good nights to the both of you. You made it through sober today. Thatās a win. Good days and bad ones.
Day 23! One day at a time and today was another wonderful success
Good evening everyone. Checking in on day 388. Firm believer in attitude is contagious so I have been staying offline for a bit. Long overdue appointment with my shrink this week and back to the basics with my step work and dialoguing with my HP. Hope everyone is doing well and stay safe.
#Day 1455 
Feeling a bit blah the last few days 
I wonder whatās the root of it.
Maybe my milestone coming up? Maybe the fact Iām tired because I work a lot lately? Maybe because the end of summer is near? (I hate winters). My hormones?
Went to bed early yesterday but that didnāt help.
Normaly walking helps with dealing with life stress, to find balance. But I have an injury so I cannot walk right now 
So life feels a bit like mudwrestling 
But life can not be fun all the time, no sweet without the sour. Going to focus on today and will find a light spot in it some how! 
Hope your day starts better than mine!
But letās both try to make the best of it!
Sorry to hear your not enjoying life at the moment Claudia.
Maybe holiday blues?
Day 1455! Now that is something to be happy about. Im on day 1 and would love to have the strength of character that you have shown getting to where you are today.
Im hoping you find something that can make you smile today 
Holiday blues? Yes, that maybe is a part of it too. I think itās a mix of all.
I surviveā¦we survive!
We can do it together, we are the same: both we are dealing with this day. Nothing more, nothing less. Letās both check in tonight (if we are in the same timezone? ) and otherwise later to hear how we did our day?
@Mno You are absolutely Rocking sobriety my friend I can feel your happiness in your photograph. It looks 
its hard not to enjoy it 
Hey thatās great news. Iām really stoked to hear you spoke up for yourself and got some help, plus taking that day tomorrow and going to a friends sounds like a great idea. Sometimes weāve just gotta do whatever it takes to take care of ourselves. Itās funny because I know Iād bend over backwards to help a friend or a loved one, but sometimes self care just doesnāt take priority for me, and it should. People are funny creatures like that.
Keep it up, reach out here if you need to vent 
That will be great . Im an hour behind you. Im on the North East coast of England. I sometimes give you and @Mno a wave 
while im on the beach with my dogs.
Day 634 no alcohol
Cigarettes 37
Did some sleep meditation, feel exhausted emotionally. Some household stuff today, getting in to action and do my to do list and less on here. Installed Tinder again yesterday is gone again now. Appointment with therapists this afternoon yippiekayee, needed but feel quite nervous. It is a lot, Iām in the driving seed but they communicated (between institutions) so bit nervous what they come up with. They think too itās bit to much. so hoping on a solid plan.
Treatment for my son starts end of September (will also involve dynamics between the three of us, mother included), for PTSS something else is needed. And I find it strange that Iām tired 
. Time for the higher power.
Planned a visitation for an appartement on Friday, looks nice. Might be impulsive have to check, but things need to change. Donāt wanna become a slave of my house and the appartement is in a price range that would kind of minimize my cost of living. Which enables me to stay under any circumstances. House market however crazy around here, canāt have any biddingstress. So Iāll see. Also going to my higher power
Blessings 
Hey all, checking in on day 821. I hope everybody has a good one!
