That’s exactly right. You can do it!
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Morning Check In
Day 210
Woke up and got my boy on the bus for school. Got my workout in. Feeling good about that. Plan today is to connect with my HP and also to focus on recovery and health. Gonna to mail off my dads bday card n gift today also. Will be nice to get some fresh air.
One thing i have to do tho is process and stop replaying what happened with my son in my head. Its upsetting me alot. I get a call from a nurse on my sons medical team, asking how i was and how my son was doing. Asking what exactly happened. So i tell her. And now im going thru the emotions all over again. I go thru this usually after traumatic medical stuff with my son. I replay the scenerio in my head. I get sooooo angry and soooo hurt over my son going thru what he has gone thru medically as a child. I have spoken to a social worker about my medical ptsd. I know my son has this as well. I am always there for him and supporting him and comforting him thru this. He may need more support as he grows up. Im just angry right now. Mad at this situation. So right now Im trying to change that thinking to be present in the moment and to remind myself of things im grateful for. Gonna eat and head out and then do some cleaning. Im making a good supper tonight. Bacon wrapped, beef n cheese filled onion rings 
cant wait to try this recipe.
Hope everyone has an addiction free day
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Day 127, checking in. 
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Sorry I haven’t been on in a while. Right now it’s been a VERY hard two days. My depression and anxiety are extremely high. I had a full panic attack last night, and I’ve been fighting for the strength not to hurt myself. Thanks for not judging me on that. It’s a battle against my brain to even survive. Don’t know if I have the strength I need right now.
I’m a few days off my meds, there’s a problem at the doctor but I keep calling and nobody will help me. I feel like I’m in crisis right now and nobody could be bothered to give a shit.
I feel extremely alone, scared, hopeless, worthless, you name it. Fighting not to do anything and I hope I have the strength I need.
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Day 651.
Its been a while since i last checked in. And to be honest i don’t really know what to talk about. Life is quiet alot at the moment, my 4 months old daughter which i love to pieces, growing my own business, working a fulltime job next to that, going to the gym at 5:30 AM before work.
In the meanwhile i have lost alot of weight which is great but im feeling a little cloudy in my head. I just barely have time to feel my feelings which i know are so important for me.
An ever returning thing in my life is finding the right balance and i still suck at it, it seems.
I just cant seem to moderate, with anything even though im trying.
Anyway, thanks for the forum, the NA groups and the fellows i got to know since the beginning of sobriety. You help me pull through and stay on the right side of the fence!
Bart
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Nice bike!! I’m planning on getting mine looked over and “tuned up” soon. My boyfriend and I have decided to start riding again. Perfect fun sober activity for fall in Georgia! Happy trails to ya, bud!! 
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Thank you for this i needed to read that positive twist on my thinking. I appreciate you!
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Day 73 check in…
I survived a very tempting weekend. For that I am grateful. But today isn’t much better. I’ve had a pretty stressful day so far.
I am dealing with the financial repercussions of spending the last couple of years in and out of detox centers, hospital stays and an inpatient treatment facility. I am a hairstylist and had a booming career up until mid-2020. I have lost at least half of my clientele due to my toxic relationship with booze. Sooo now I’m looking for some part time work to supplement. And it scares the shit out of me if I’m honest.
I’m almost 49 years old looking at what my future looks like. So I’ve made a decision to go to school. It will take me 6 years (at least) to get my masters. But those 6 years are going to pass by anyway, right? So I’m going to go for my second dream career in counseling psychology.
I’m trying to stay positive and not overwhelmed. But that booze sure has been calling my name these past few days. I just keep replaying the tape….and I KNOW that I NEVER want to feel like I did many many times trying to detox from that shit. I want a better life so here I go!
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day 108 AF
I dont check in here often but just because its a popular thread and moves so fast i cant keep up with all you amazing folks. Lol
Im checking in today though to be accountable and just tell someone that today is rough and im struggeling not to loose my shit and say F it and join my husband in a drink. Ive already decided i wont and its just a feeling that will pass. I just needed to say it “out loud” so to speak and get it out of my head. Thank you all for being here for that.
I have been doing lots of things to stay sober today, 2 AA meetings so far, extra meditation, which was difficult today, prayer and will also meet with my sponsor later. Now just to hang on and sit with the uncomfortable feelings until they pass. Patience is not a virtue i possess though lol
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Good for you putting in the work and “telling” on yourself. Youve come this far. I believe in you!
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Thank you. Keeping those thoughts in just make it worse for me and feels like a dirty secret ya know. I really appreciate all your support. 
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You arent alone im personally gonna hit 3 meetings today. Whatever keeps me on the positive sober bus…
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That’s great that you decided to just get it out in the open for some accountability! If I tell somebody (or post here, now that I’m utilizing this forum), It helps put the situation in perspective and gets that feeling moving along.
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Day 331 AF
Busy day at work.
Got nothing planned today. Gonna chill with the kiddos, and then go for a walk.
Have a great day/night everyone!
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Thanks Lady! I appreciate you 
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Hi Brian! Happy to read you’re not beating yourself up. I’ve learned too that does nothing to help, looking at the positive is the way to go! 4.5 months is excellent and a new goal to surpass. You got this! 
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I’m sorry your feeling so bad right now. Please reach out to an emergency mental health service if you can. You don’t have to struggle through it alone, there are safe places that can help you.
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Hey 
it sounds like you are doing an amazing job with handling your self care and sobriety. I’m really glad you came on here to vent instead of giving in and drinking with your hubby. It ain’t easy staying sober when someone else is drinking in your life so close to you. I just wanted to tel you I think your doing an amazing job 
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167 days 
Hey guys, checking in. Having a bit of a weird phase mentally. Sobriety is a weird and windy path for me. Still very much feeling the highs and lows, well, all the feelings really. No alcohol to hide behind. That lost and alone feeling has been creeping in again lately. Like I’m surrounded by people at work, and my husband and kids at home, but still feel really alone.
I don’t feel like drinking today, I just don’t like sitting with my brain, and my feelings 24/7.
I have a half day at work today, going to go to the gym and try get some good endorphins flowing. Have a great day friends
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Thank you, really. I appreciate it a lot. I took myself to the hospital tonight so I could talk to them. I told them I am panicking without my medication and nobody over the phone was helping me. Like PLEASE I really just need someone to help me out with this. Tonight, now, not later.
I was able to get the medication I need, I am breathing a little bit. I called in a sick day to work tomorrow and I am going to a friend’s house.
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