I’m really sorry @Miranda 
For what it’s worth we’re all very very proud of you, keep up the good work 
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Hi Miranda, sorry your being made to feel like this, keep doing the right thing, stay calm yourself and things will begin to get clearer for you, and you will be able to see how to move forward. Just make sure your being great for yourself and your daughter thats all you can do and at least your daughter knows your there for her.
@Rockstar24777 Wow 27 months, you really are doing so well. I get so much hope when i see your sober time. It reminds me when i had big big time under my belt and the quality of life i was living was on another level. Obviously things have changed since then, and things wont ever be the same but quality of life will be, and i look forward to that. Thank you for showing me and all of us it can still be done no matter what life throws at us !! Im so proud to be able to be a part of your celebration for today. 
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@Butterflymoonwoman 211 
great quote as well. @Rockstar24777 27months mate! Take a bow sir. @Miranda Im sad that your feeling sad you cant carry on through life that way have you told him hes an insensitive so and so? If my wife told me that id sit up and listen. I do hope things get better for you and soon.
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Good Morning,
Checking in day 92.
Things at the moment are pretty well.
I have joined my local church and started participating in their weekly women’s group.
Yesterdays class was very helpful.
Feels good to have that layer of added support for this journey.
Very happy of how quite my mind is currently.
I am in a very serene state right now.
Yes I have the day to day stuff to worry about but I have total clarity to tackle any problems right now.
Happy I have made it to my 3 month mark.
Onward and upward.
ODAAT 
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Congratulations on day 92! I’m day 84 wanting my 90 day so bad. It’s amazing how clear my mind is getting everyday, to see the cloudiness and confusion go away is very exciting honestly. Have a great day!
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Checking in on day 262 af. All is good here, trying to be more disciplined with working out consistently. Overall, my life is soooo much better without alcohol and its never been so clear to me which I am so thankful for. Stay strong everyone!!
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Congrats @Rockstar24777 for 27 months!!! Thats fantastic work there. I appreciate your presence on this forum! Keep working your sobriety!!
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@BrianP im glad you learned something from your misstep and you are taking control of your sobriety journey. Im happy to see you checking in again!
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Hi, Brian
Happy to see that you took the positives from the situation.
You have the tools you used prior and now you also have the experience you gained from that short lived misstep. Glad it was very short lived.
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Thank you, yes I have tried to talk to him about this before and how he responds-he’s very short and sharp with his words sometimes, and he also tends to be a negative worst case scenario type of person which is exhausting to me. Right now I just feel like giving up. I don’t feel like trying anymore because I feel like I always end up getting hurt. I want to be able to share my feelings and my thoughts and my day with him but I feel like he’s not interested. I know he’s really busy with work and he’s also helping his parents set up a new computer which I offered to help him do but he said he wants to do it himself and then he’s just in a bad mood about it anyway. Honestly right now I think I’m just going to not bother texting him as much as I do and leave the conversation to a minimum and just focus on making myself happy and being there for my daughter. It makes me sad to say that but I just feel I’ve exhausted all options and I try really hard to do special things like have his coffee ready for him in the morning and I text him to ask if he wants me to run down any lunch for him etc when I have a break but even when I’m asking him these things that I want to do for him I feel like I’m just annoying him so I don’t know why I bother. I’m feeling sorry for myself right now but honestly I put in so much effort and thought into saying the right thing or not bothering him with too many things and I’m often left feeling broken. I’m sorry I just want to add that if anybody knew my schedule to they wouldn’t probably understand how I get done everything I get done in a day , so I’m really busy too and still trying to deal with everybody else’s stuff especially my daughter’s anxiety and I feel that he makes it worse so that’s really difficult. Oh I sound completely negative right now I apologize it’s just been draining for me and thanks for listening if you got through all of this 
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Checking in Day 1.
Today I woke up and found out I was a regular on talking sober. This got me thinking that I need to take control of my sobriety. I did actually say out loud “Col, today you are not drinking, stop messing about and take control”.
Then @SoberWalker offered me a hand up by saying
This realy really struck home with me today as I attended another funeral my 4th in September. I only went to the church and skipped on the drinking and eating opting to concentrate on being sober.
I washed clothes, tidied the house, went food shopping worked in my greenhouse and read up on here.
Its 18.15 now and today I have not drank. I used to see ODAAT and to me it became a cliche but I get it now.
So…yes my day went well My Great Aunt’s funeral who was 98 made me smile with fond memories.
I have an early start to tomorrows day as Im cleaning cobwebs from my bike and relishing the thought of getting back in the saddle.
Thank you all for your encouragement and kind words especially @Mno and Claudia. This will stay with me guys.
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Aaaahhh, thank you
You went to a funeral today, that’s sad. But what an age your great aunt has reached.
Hope you will have plenty of good memories of her.
We both get trough our days sober, we did great haven’t we! 
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Yes we have 
. Im so pleased I did mine sober today. We could be heros…just for one day. 
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Thanks Miranda! It was ok, he was angry, but not at me. It wasn’t my fault, but still… when the boss runs around angry, the atmosphere changes! 
Edit; just read about the conversation with your husband, and how it made you feel. I’m sorry you feel this way, keep hanging there! Sending positive vibes to you! 
I am safe back from dark night bike ride,
parts inner city, parts in the field, few miles without any light 
Group therapy was very helpful.
It was about problems in… and ending friendships, relationships and so on.
About problems occurring if one person is calling its needs one day!
One woman sad… “sometimes you better close the door twice”! Still what I am feeling about the friend I want to quit. He is still downplaying my needs.
I have to let the session sink in first.
Have a wonderful night everyone 
By the way… I am in love with these hightop Nikes on the right side I just saw in the city this evening 
…
Also a nice present for 60 days celebration 
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Just got back from dinner with colleagues. I had a free alcohol-free beer. Not something that I would normally do, but I decided to try it. Meh. Not worth the calories (although it contains way fewer calories than the real stuff), and I definitely would not spend money on it. Anyway, I’m pretty pleased that I made it through the bulk of an important work trip and managed to remain sober. So day 459 check in.
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Checking in on day 4
Not much to say, busy day at work, trying to catch up on my mails. They’re like bunnies, multiply all by themselve!
Didn’t work out, so I have some catching up to do tomorrow!
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1021 days without gaming
21 days without YouTube
13 days without TV and streaming services
I tried to quit YouTube and TV when it made me suicidal. I had tons of motivation to quit. I always caved within days and struggled immensely. Now I’m not really that motivated and it’s easy.
I was going to make a rant about that, but then I realized something awesome.
People stop drinking when the pain drinking causes is bigger than the pain they have when they don’t drink.
When I was suicidal because of my screen abuse, I had a lot of hurt. Hurt that I could numb by watching YouTube or TV. That’s what I watched TV for. To numb an innate self hate. Sobriety made that pain more present. And back then I’d rather numb the pain and dig a deep hole than feel the pain and start digging a way out.
Now my self image has improved so tremendously, in only the last 9 months or so, that quitting doesn’t cause any pain because I don’t feel any real pain when sober. I’m not at all that motivated to stay sober but I’m in such a good place that I only need very little motivation 
Which is awesome!
This also means that I better get safety nets in place, because if life becomes painful again, I will struggle immensely with little motivation
But that’s great to know also!
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Checking in day 140 off the suace. Dad just got into town we went down to the beach. I dont think he will drink while hes here which is cool, but either way just happy to have him in town. Were gonna head up to washington to watch our football team play washington on saturday night, and cruise down the coast. Have a good week all!
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Day 192
2 more days until the end of the work week. Another depressing day. I want to get up early and make breakfast but keep sleeping in. Watching tv to distract myself as i eat. Idk. I think im painting at the same place tomorrow which is fine. Ill take melatonins tonight after i eat and hope to wake up early.
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