Congrats on your day 3 Kam.
I’m sorry you don’t have anyone to talk to or see. There must be someone somewhere. The beginnings of recovery can be very overwhelming. Are there any meetings you can go to? Get out for a walk. A long relaxing shower. Or all three.
There’s lots of great threads here to read. The gratitude thread is my fave. It always calms me down to read what we are all grateful for in our sobriety. The sober selfie thread and meme threads and pet threads are lots of fun for me too.
Hang in there. One day at a time or maybe just one hour at a time.
Congratulations on 16 days kevin!!! Is everything okay? Im feeling like ur maybe down or something no need to go into detail if u dont want to. Just thought id ask.
Wow!!! Congratulations
Wow that number is sure impressive!!! Good catch hope u have a great day!
Awesome number! Well tracked!
Congratulations to 800 sober days!
18 days sober from weed today!
My health has declined a lot and I didn’t realize weed was masking a lot of my symptoms for years😬 definitely grateful for this experience so I can move forward with my healing journey.
Congratulations everyone on your progress!
That is amazing!! Congratulations!! 800 wows to you🎉
27 days in, and things are going good. A little under the weather, so I’m off to the doc this afternoon.
I’m thinking of Hamlet on sobriety this morning: “Assume a virtue, if you have it not.” Modern translation: fake it til you make it. We start one hour or one day at a time, sometimes just getting through it, but it does get easier.
Today I reached a milestone, I have 30 days sober!
Congratulations to your first sober month!
What a hard thing to go through at 114 days. Im so sorry this devastating thing happened. I hope you and your family find comfort in each other and that you are all supported.
Thank you!!!
Morning Check In
Day 253
I am starting to see the effects of not having my mental health meds consistently. I did my best to space them out so that i sort of have something in my system but i can feel my thinking and emotions change. Its not unbareable right now but im having to put in twice the work to keep myself uplifted and positive and emotionally stable. I felt in such a funk when i woke up. It was awful i got my boy ready for the bus. Beautiful -4°C weather today. Its just gorgeous out! That honestly lifted my mood. Im about to go get some exercise in and then attend my Bible Group. I already called the Dr and asked for a phone call appt. There was like a week wait to see her. So I explained my situation. The secretary messaged my Dr to see if she could squeeze me in for a phone call appt today. The secretary was wonderful. Then i can get my meds today. Itll be a lower dose and ill have to work up to it, but im okay with that. Other than that i have alot of cleaning to do. Maybe ill go for a walk also and get out in nature. We will see.
Hope everyone has an addiction free day!
Thank you
Hi Dana,
I’m not feeling down except for the fact that I’ve been here at this place 100’s of times already. So I’m choosing to listen more today and talk a little less.
I’m really encouraged to see your relationship with God get to a higher level. I believe that’s a big key to your growth and development.
You know that I’ve been working on the same. Understanding that abiding with my higher power, Jesus Christ, has no other substitute. God has never cared about my sobriety. That’s not what He wanted to fix in me. He cares about how well I was turning my life over to Him.
And by doing so, I’ve accepted His instruction to not entertain lust and fantasy. I admit that I never took this aspect of my recovery seriously enough. I hoped that by avoiding the porn, my lust and fantasy would drift away. But I was only fooling myself. I may have been avoiding porn and MB, but I was still getting drunk.
I understand that I’m filled with toxic shame, have a messed up perception of reality, and accept that porn does not have any value. But all of teaching I’ve received has not been accepted by my subconscious, my flesh. It’s like no matter what I try, my flesh is determined to do what the flesh is going to do. And so my only help is God. I’m learning to hold on to Him real tight now. Praying more than I’ve ever had in my life. I’ve stopped fantasizing (something that I’ve been guilty of doing for decades throughout my recovery path), I’ve stopped looking around to check out women. And if I don’t look, I’m not going to lust. And thus, I’m not craving. And by making God my master, I finally feel free.
And maybe I’m talking too much because I first intended to just keep listening to the wisdom of everyone around me.
But I appreciate you thinking of me, Dana. Thank you.
Day 23
Oh what a day We’re going to have a very important Audit tomorrow and today we had to check EVERYTHING to be prepared.
The soup I had with me for lunch wasn’t enough, I’m so hungry It simply wasn’t enough time today to have multiple small meals as I should.
I’m feeling really good. In the past 6 months I felt anxious so often, I was afraid of so many things although I took medication to not feel anxious.
Most of this is gone now, and this feels so so so awesome
My coworker gave me a butternut squash, she doesn’t like the taste. I love them! I already see it in the oven with some chicken drumsticks and potatoes
Heading home now, maybe see you later
I hope you’re having a beautiful sober day
Checking in on day 50 (will hit the 5-0 when I lay when my head down sober tonight).
Started my day with the gym and have a work meeting in a bit. Currently enjoying some coffee. Hoping to take time to relax today and maybe get in a good walk if the rain lets up.
My mood seems better than it’s been the last week or so, though still feeling a bit tired.
Hope everyone is doing well!
Checking in 389 Days and counting
Been for a lovely swim and oh my i forgot how lovely it is, tried changing to early evening swim so hoping to fall asleep around 9pm and actually feel tired.
Going to heat up some dinner and get a movie on before i have time to get into my own head !
Hope everyone is doing well i will catch up once im snuggled up in bed a bit later.
Cant wait to swim again tomorrow… might even fo a fitness class before the swim really get back in to the flow of it.
Done a snall amount of gardening earlier preparing for the rainy cold weather too which i feel good about. Small steps forward are better than none.
Have a lovely day/evening which ever applies to you.